STNK OUT OF DATE and Father Pinon Yeseph Say about God

Thursday, May 30, I go to Optima to coordinator meeting. I start on 11.00 from Bekasi.  I use motor cyccle . I by pass Harapan Indah, Banjir Kanal Timur, Wali Kota, Prumpung - Jatinegara - Jl. Ahmad Yani - Pramuka - Jl. Proklamasi -  Cikini - Tugu Tani. At Tugu Tani the police catch me.  I come to police post. I see my document.  Almost all dociment expired, out of date. They want to speeding ticket (tilang) of motor cycle. Than they bargain. How many many do you have? they ask. It is Rp.100.000. I give it to them as peace money in order my motor cycle not speeding ticket (tilang).

Than I continue to office. I arrive at Optima at 13.30. Almost 2,5 hours I'm at way. I lead the meeting. I afternoon is rain. I wet. I protect my bag use jacket and raincoat. I by pass Jl. Panjang - Jl. Arjuna - ESA Unggul University, UKRIDA - Tanjung Duren - Kemanggisan. I almost accident at Kemanggilsan because  motor cycle tires wasted (terbuang) because slippery (licin). I continue my journey to Slipi Jaya - Jl. ..... KS Tubun . I buy handcerchief (sapu tangan) because I'm not  ptotector to my mouth. I very suffer (menderita) because dirty air (polution). Where my handkerchief? I ask in my heart. May be lose. Than I spend money Rp 10.000 to buy  it. I get 2 handkerchief. - I bontinue to Tanah Abang - Senen -  Kramat-. The big rain at Kramat Raya. I stop at  Carolus Hospital. I handle my letter of  diagnosis (diagnosa). I entrance with wet condition. I ask to securitu how to handle my shoes and rain coat. He supervise it well. I come to hospital staff. Please come again on next day. Pleae you call before come," she says. Thank you. Than I continue my journey to Matrmana - Jatinagera - Jl. Raya Bekasi Timur. I  lost (tersesat) my way. I want to Jl. Raya  I Gusti Ngurah Rai, but in fact I arrive at. Jl. Raya Bekasi Timur - Pasar Klender - . I lost. I ask to people. I back. Finally I find Shelter busway Jl. Raya Bekasi Timur - Jl. Raya I Gusti Ngurah Rai - Klender -  Penggilingan - Wali Kota - Pulo Gebang - Jl. Rya Bekasi - Harapan Indah - Villa Mutiara  Gading. Mr. Barnabas open the door to me. The journey that tired. Than I  open my dress than I find my handkerchief tht still in my neck. Wow.... I forget to use mirror.

I remember Father Pinon's  (Philosophy Lecturer  at STFK  Ledalero) say:

We can not know God because  he so near, just as we can not see  nose because the position so near with eye.

In my reflection: Is important to me to become coordinator, small income (pendapatan kecil), major expenses (pengeluaran besar). With my expenses today:

1. Gasoline Rp 10.000
2. Speeding ticket of motor cycle Rp 100.000
3. Parking fees Rp 3.000
4. Water           Rp 2.000
5. Hnadkerchiief Rp 10.000

Total Rp 125.000. 
How much  allowance (tunjangan) as coorninator? May Rp 50.000.
Conclusion: I'm lossing (rugi).
Is coorninator important to me? May be not.
Plese reflection again.