Divine Providence (Providentia = penyelenggaraan Ilahi).
Saturday, November 2, 2013. I get up early. It's according my program on last evening. I get up early just as my intention (intensi). What for I get up early? I have program go go to San Diego Hills, Memorial Park and Funeral Home. It's lies at Jl. Kuta Tandingan Tandingan, Karawang Barat, West Java about 46 km long from Jakarta.
I get up early. I wash my dress, breakfast that start use motor cycle. I success to finish my work - rinse (membilas) the dress - that postpone in last evening because the tap water (air keran) of Drinking Water Company is jammed (macet). I had fix with program on my heart to by Busway when arrive from Pulo Gebang / Wali Kota of East Jakarta. I drive motor cycle to Cakung station. I commend (menitipkan) my motor cycle there. How is cost? I ask. It is Rp 5.000. It is maximum fare (tarif). Suddenly I decide to use train not busway just as first schedule. I pay Rp 8.000 to pay fare of ticket of train. The train come. I'm panic. I just entrance to Cakung Station to use train. I'm panic because so haste (tergesa-gesa). I'm shocked (kaget) because the ticket so expensive is Rp 8.000. ""Wow... so expensive," I say in my heart. I bring the card of ticketing. For the first I use ticketing card. This is new situation on Train management. Before only use papar ticket. The card ticket punt on machine so the gate be opened. I'm still clumsy (kagok) and rigid (kaku) to use it. The station staff help me how to set the ticket of card to pass way. In train I by the way with the other people. He help me how use the card ticketing and how to transit. Please transit at Jatinegara station, wait at place / channel 5 to Senen. My heart restless (gelisah) and anxious (cemas) because worry (kuatir) of late. I seldom think that it is better use Metromini 47 because direct to Sant Paskalis Church of Cempaka Putih. I want to exit at Buaran station but I cancel it. Finally, I set the option (tetapkan pilihan) that I use train. "Certainly use the train faster than use Metromini 47 bus to Saint Paskalis Cempaka Putih, Jakarta," I say in my heart. I try to sms the committee is Ms. Caecil to give information in order to wait me. "I'm in the other bus," she answer. Wow..." I restless and anxious (cemas) . "If, I late and fail to go to San Diego Hills, I should be say to myself that accept this situation. I critic to myself that I'm so slow, underestimate the work, not focus, so worry with food. It is reason so I often late. But I try to give the best on this case. I drive myself in order to still fresh spirit. I do it. I transit at Jatinegara. I success to arrive in Senan. I exchange (menukar) card ticketing. I get cash back Rp 5.000, so the ticketing from Cakung to Senen only Rp 3.000. I sms Ms Ceicil the committee (panitia) of pilgrimage (ziarah) to San Diego Hil, West Kerawang.
I already join on the other bus. I'm worry and restless (resah -gelisah) that late. I begin try to blame (blame=mempersalahkan) ourselves because so slow. I try to manage myself. I success to get bus to Cempaka Putih. I pay Rp 3.000. Than I on foot. I see big bus."May it is bus that delivery pilgrimage group of saint Paskalis to San Diego Hills," I pray and hope on heart. I come to near. It is right. It turns out it is bus that pilgrimage (ziarah) to San Diogo Hills. "Wow..... I'm safe. Thank you Lord because you blessed me so I still get the bus to join to San Diego Hills," I pray in my heart. "Turns decision to use train than Metromini 47 to Saint Paskalis Church is right (tepat)" I say in my heart. My decision - to use train than bus on this case - I see it is Divine Providence (penyelenggaraan Ilahi). "Thank you Lord, you give the best for me," I say in my heart. I see bus of NIRWANA 7589 - luxury tourist bus - that operated by Pahala Kencana I entrance to bus. I report to commitee. I talk with the others participants. Than we start. We by pass - Paskalis Church - Cempa Mas - Gudang Garam - Tol Cempaka Putih - Taoll Cikamppek - Cikarang Pusat - Pasir Ranji - Delta Mas - Km 38 / 39 - Rest area - Toilet free - Km 42 - rest area - Karawang Barat - Rengas Dengklok - San Diego Hills,Jl. Kuta Tandingan Tandingan, Karawang Barat, West Java - Memorail Park and Funeral Home - Breath Life (Napas hidup) - . There is a chappel , Musola, meeting room, Lake. We come to Forest Chappel. We pray for the spirit of the faithful (arwah para beriman) that already die. The mass lead by Father Subagio,Pr (VikJen KAJ), Father Yoseph Tote, OFM - Paskalis Church of priest, Father Martinus Hadiwijoyo - parish of Kalvari - Lubang Buaya - east Jakarta. Than we by the way. I see the choir group of Saint Paskalis use Manggarai dress of Songke and shawls (selendang). It is nice. They are so pretty. I proud. We walk arround od SDH. I go back to bus. We are lunch at bus. There is collection of money to give to driver. I'm not give it. Than I exit from bus to see funeral. There are Catholic, Christian of Protestant and even Muslem (Islam) people that buried (dikuburkan) there. Than the bus run around SDH. We see the building just as Forest Chapel, Merchandise Shop, Lake of fishing, Breath Life, etc. On 11.30 the bus start from SDH. We are sleep in car. "Wow...wonderful with Rp 60.000 we can sleep soundly (tidur nyenyak)," Mr. Basi (?) - retired (pensiunan) army of Indonesia - said. We stop at Saint Paskalis Cempaka Putih church. Than we permission one to the others. I go to toilet. Than I go to ATM BCA at
C One Hotel. "This is place that I transaction with a girl that have cash money while she want to transfer it to her family / friend. I'm worry that may be she want to lie me. I direct think about criminal. I help her after check her cash money a paper money Rp 50.000. I afraid it is counterfait (uang palsu). On that time actually it is the real (right) money not counterfeit money (uang plasu). This is experience some years ago. May be four years ago.
Today, I transaction on BCA ATM. It is success. I eat papaya. I ask people how to go to Saint Luk Sunter church at Jl. Ancol - Sunter. "You can use the car that come from Senen to Tanjung Priuk. I want to see that church. But, it is better you direct go to there tomorrow, not need today," I say to my heart. I decide to go back to VMG, Bekasi. I use busway - Cempaka Putih - Cempaka mass - transit - busway to Jatinegara - transit to Wali Kota East Jakarta. I stand up until get chair at Penggilingan. I exit at Wali Kota East Jakarta shelter. "How if we want to Pulo Gebang terminal?" I ask. Please wait the litte car of busway," the cre bus says. I wait while ask it to busway staff. I wait long while see the situation. Actually there is toilet at Wali Kota East Jakarta shelter. I'm just know ans aware it. I often come to this place but just on this time aware and know that availabele taoilet here. To aware need time. I use the toilet. It is free, not pay. I success to meet the decicion maker of car busway. "Today no little car that operation from here to Pulo Gebang terminal," a management staff of busway says. "Wow... it is better if you give information faster, so the passanger not waste time to wait," I say to the staff. "Thank you, it is good if you want to call to complain to our leader," he says. The other side with condition long to wait car is I know the place to leave the motoor cycle at Wali Kota. "Wow... I very need this place so I can leave my mootor cycle if I go to Jakarta," I say in my heart. "How many cost per hour if leave motor cycle here?" I ask to security staff. It is up to you," he answer. Thank you Lord. I fail to get bus to Pulo Gebang terminal but I success to know the other information through the busway staff. This information important to me. I need it. Thank you Lord.
I on foot from Wali Kota to Cakung Station. I by pass Jl. Pulo Gebang Kecik / Kesik. There I buy herb (jamu) of turmeric (kunyit) and ginger (jahe). I know the location around of Wali Kota East Jakarta. I arrive at BKT (Banjir Kanal Timur). In near Cakung Station, I cut my hear. I pay Rp 10.000. It is expensive. At VMG it is only Rp 8.000. This is good bussiness. The operation cut hair reach Rp. 10.000 only few minutes.
I take my motor cycle. I pay Rp 5.000. It is the maximum fare per day," the staff parking ticketing says. Than I go back to Bekasi. I by pass BKT (Banjir Kanal Timur / Channel East Flood). In Jl. Raya Bekasi opposed directions (lawan arah). The situation so full with motor cycle and car. The other motor cyclist angry to us that run opposed direcyion. I success to arrive at Harapan Indah. I decide to join on weekly mass. I entrance to Saint Albertus Church of Harapan Indah. The intention for pray for spirit of faithful so many. I take place at attic / balcony (loteng / balkon). The guest priest that lead prays. He is may be from NTT. In homily he tell about story about teacher at Papua: About Zakeus and Lazarus. "Zakeus is signer. He want to see Jesus. He climb the tree. When Jesus arrive there and see to up, Zakeus up the tree. Jesus said to him: "
Lazarus go down!" Jesus said. "Wow...
Lazarus?" ?? students protest to him (teacher)."Be quiet all. I'm teacher, you know. Jesus said that Lazarus go down, it is not your tree, It is Zakeus tree," teacher close his story.
The people have brain and mind. The mind often be used to dishonest, sly (licik) just as teacher on above story. Zakeus on this Gospel is the honest people on the end.
Than I go back to home. On this evening is my schedule for me to lead the pray on Catholic group of Saint Alfonsus I. The situation in way so at Kampung Bogor so jammed (macet). I tern to left. I arrive at VMG. I come to Mr. Robert - Mr. Anto's house. The Catholic people already comes. "Sorry I go to home for moment. I take a bath than come to Mr. Robert - Mr. Anto's house. We by the way. I lead pray, Mr. Fian lead homily. The intention today is give thank for Vincent's circumcision (sunatan) and pray for spirit of faithful.
Than we by the way. We get the food, snack. The other Catholic neighbor come. Mr. Agus and Mr. Hendri come too. Mr. Agus Sunarya ask me. "Frans, had you got...? How many? His purpose is couple of life. For me this the question that I dislike. How old are you? Mr. Henry ask me. "It's secret," a neighbour ask me. All this question include the question that I dislike.
I sit down so long here. It is my weak. Than I go back together the other friends, Mr. Agus, Mr. Henry. I bring the food. Than I'm rest.
JPS November 3, 2013.