My health

Note of my  health. I had  fainted (pingsan) during fouth tine duty I kife per August 18, 2025. 

1. About 1988 or 1989 - when I JHS in  Saint Kaluas  Kuwu -. I fainted in   yard of Golowlu Puskermas  when  finsih injection or check up. On that time I go to Golowelu PUSKESMAs  otgether my father, Mr. Gaspar . He  delibery me there. Aftter  check aup and injectionm when want to go back to home, in yard of PUSKESMAS, I'm  stumbling (sempoyongan)  that fall down. My father  try to hold me. He carry me te PUSKESAMS building. The nurse -  bidan Thres -  treat. She prepare the  tea. I drink it. When arare and strong, I go back to home. 
2. 1993 or 1994  in Lela hospital . On that time I  went to Lela Hospital to  blood donor. After  check the blood, I wait and vist the  sick peiple there. I see people  who  have big injury in his leg. It is  big injurt. Than suddenly I'm  weak and fall down.. I just  as   flood phobia (fobia darah ). 
3. PDIP  campign in President Election 2014 in VMG I - I 'm fall down  . I'm stumbling . Than I sit  down. I sleep in gtass. I smeel the bed smell. Evidently it is   mseel od  cat's shit. Wow...... The other people help me on that time.  Than I aware. 
4. In home in VMG 1  - on  2023 or 2024. I get up. Than I go to the kitchen. I want to cook food. Suddenly I'm stumbling. I fall down. My head lies on   separatoe by=ath room and kichen. I aware it. Than I get up. Than I decide to sleep again. 
5. Thursday, June 20, 2024.  I fall down   from motor cycle in Blog G.  Wow... I'm fainted. Thge motor cycle  overlapping  (menimpa) me.  The other peole  help me.  Than  I get treat. I still go to school.  Than I go back. i ceck my condition in  clicic. My blood pressire is 190 mm Hg.  Than I go the doctor. I get medicine.   I fall down becuae I'm eat meny of  sacrifice meat. I forget to eat the   garlic to  neutralize (menetralkan) it.   (Note I write this on JPS, August 18, 2025). 
6. Monday, February 23  afternoon. or evening   until Tuesday, February 24, 2026. I got  fever.. I just as  afraid to touch water. I get disturb sleep in the night. I abcent to  went  to school on Tuesday, Feb. 24, 2026.  I'm feel my right  testicles (buah pelir) was sick.  I try to free of  wear  from  my body. I put my  leg on the wall to satefy. In the morning my condition is better.  I absent to school. In  evening I go to  doctor to  got  care of health. I got medicine.  I pay about  IDR 120.000.  Than I got cough  sick. On Feb. 28, 2026, I went to Delfy's wedding  reception in  PMKRI Menteng, Jakarta. I was still cough. Than I  went to Depok. I was still cought. I renturn to Bekasi and join on  dress rehearshal (gladi bersih) of  choir fir Pal Sunday,  March 29, 2026.  I  can not sing  bevause  cough. I go  back to home and join on  Environment prayer inMr. Teja's  house. I'm still  cought  too. Than I see in internet  how to   treatment )mengobati)  cough with thigh phlegm (dahak kental). " Drim  warm  water mix lemon and  honey. I have   honey in home. I drunk it. The  condition better  until March 4, 2026. 
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Blood Pressure 150 / ..... - It  is  Risk

Tuesday,  Februari 3, 2015. I'm absent  to join on lecture of  postgraduate (pascasarjana) of  Philosophy at STF  Driyarkara, Jakarta. Why? My health is  disturbed.  May be  because I'm depress and frustrated  because result  of  study . There are 2 subjects  that  fail, Moslem Philosophy and  Humanism - Religion.  So, on afternoon, I go to clinic. I check  my blood pressure (tekanan darah). It  is  150 /...... It's not  normal. It  means  my health  not  so  good. Please improve your  think  and  style  of  life , Franck!. The  doctor  give  medicine  to me. I  go back  to  home  after  pay Rp 40.000.

Why the blood pressure high? May be  because stress, get  the  low  score  of  first  semester. I go to  campus  of  STF  on 2 February 2015 to pay school fee  and  registration. I get  information   from  Ms  Retno  about  my score. There are  some subject  that fail,  e.g. Islam Philosophy  and  Humanism   - Religion.

The  bad  health  because think.

On Thursday, May 14, 2015. On Ascent Day of Jesus Christ to Heaven and  Inauguration  (pengresmian / pelantikan) Parish of Harapan Indah, Saint Albertus, I get visit of Ms ....., trader of medicine. After join on mass and  follow on  party people (pesta umat) I wait her. I promise to meet her on 12.00 o'clock. They arrive  from BSD - Tangerang. They check my condition on car. Than they give medicine to me. I pay Rp 275.000. Than  I go back. I usher (mengantar) Ms Paula (Oma Paula)  to Rawa Indah. Than I go  home. I'm  eat  the  medicine. Than I feel there is change (perubahan) on some  vital organ. It  is  begin  twist (menggeliat)  again. 

Thursday, June 11, 2015. I'm sick again. I'm dizziness (pusing/pening). "May be my blood pressure  relapse (kambuh)" I think. I try to handle the conditions. In the afternoon  I go to clinic at  Bogor Village (Kampung Bogor)   to treatment (berobat). The doctor check my pressure of blood. How many the pressure? It is normal 100/80. Wow... I'm relieved (lega). The doctor check my body. Than she  write diagnosis (diagnosa) to me. I give to cashier (kasir). I pay Rp 50.000. I get the  medicine. Than I go back. I'm  on foot to home. I'm not bring  the motor cycle. Wow....my blood pressure is normal. Than I take a rest while call my family, Mr. Beny, Mr. Hila, Ms Mery, Ms Tina. Than I'm  rest.

Friday, July 17, 2015. I check up  my health condition  at  post homecoming (posko mudik) Surabaya. I'm still in the  way on Journey Manggarai - Flores  to  Jakarta. I chek my blood  pressure. The tools  show the number: 165. Wow..... it  is  high. Than  I entrance to  bus  Sari Indah to continue journey to Jakarta.

Sunday, July 19, 2015. I check up my blood  pressure at Cikarang, at Ms Mari Firi Yung's  house. She is  have the  tools (device). The result number 175.

Sunday, August 9, 2015.  I check up my blood pressure at JPS. The result show  175. Than I drink Captodril medicine  from  docter  Faridz. I drink on afternoon and in the morning.

Monday, August 10, 2015. I check up my blood pressure at JPS. The result show  142 /80.  It  is decreasing but not  normal yet. The normal size is 120/80.  Please continue the drink medicine. Captodril is match to me because not give the back effect to me. The other respondents that drink Captodril, Mr. Ben Ayung get the bad effects is cough (batuk). "Please change with the other type of hypertension medicine," the  docter says.

Tuesday, October 20, 2015

My elbows (siku tangan) is  sick. I don;t  know  why. May be because physic work on last week. On  last Sunday, I pull the sand (pasir) residual of repaired of  home. There are 4 sacks. I pull it from yard to terrace of  home. I stack (menumpukan) it in order to seem tidy. I set the cardboard (kardus)   too of book and  dress. I find  the cockroach (kecoa) on cardboard. I think  may be bacuse this reason so my left elbow  is  sick. Than on Tuesday,  October 20, 2015, i come to clinic  get  medicine. I use conterpain on my elbow. Than I  massage (urut) by myself. On Wednesday I feel it  is better but still sick feel. Than on Friday, October 23, I  almost not fill the sick.  On Thursday, October 22, 2015, i'm  dizzy (pusing). I'm thinking  my pressure of blood  is  high.  I try to manage. I still do the  duty well today. In  campus I give the presentation about "Exclusion, Unjust  and State Democratic". I do it well. If I give score it  85.  My team work are: Mr. Wellem (Protestan), Mr. Hanif (Moslem), Mr. Nabil (Islam), Brother Eron, SJ  and  I. Mr. Eron, SJ as editor text, Mr.  Hanif as moderator, Mr. Nabil and Mr. Welem as member. I'm as  communicator.


Saturday, October  31, 2015. I check up my blood pressure at  Clinic at Kampung Bogor. The result show  190 /.......The  docter give medicine to me. I pay Rp 40.000

Sunday, November  1, 2015. I check up my blood pressure at  Clinic at Cikarang. The result show  170 /.......


Tuesday, November  10, 2016. I check up my blood pressure at  Clinic at Kampung Bogor. The result show  160 /100. The  docter give medicine to me. I pay Rp 40.000


Monday, January  23, 2016.  I'm sick. I'm dizzy (pusing)  and  nausea (mual) but not until  gag (cat = trough up = spit up =  muntah). May be because  eat the old fish. When lunch I ate the  fried fish of  macarel tuna (ikan tongkol)  that  rest (sisa) yesterday. I wait until  the dizzy  abate (mereda). I sit down in lobby A. I want to sleep in clinic but  the clinic closed and locked. When condition already abate (mereda)  I go back to home. I drive mootor cycle. I buy porridge (bubur) of  green beans (kacag  ijo) two portion (porsi). I bring it to home, than I supper. Than I go to clinic to check  my health. I check up my blood pressure at  Clinic at Kampung Bogor. The result show  160 /100. The  docter give medicine to me. I pay Rp 65.000.

Thursday, April 6, 2017.
My sleep disturb. I feel sick on  waist (pinggang). "May be it is appendix " Mr. Prass said. "May be," I said. Than on Saturday I go to Jakarata to check up.

Today I went to Jakarta. Before it I try to handle some works just as  wash the dress, clean the floor of home and yard and pay the bills (rekening) of water with total payment IDR 60.000. I success  do it. Than on 08:30 am I start to Jakarta. I entrusted (titip) my motor cycle at  Pasar Modern. Than I use busway. When arrive in busway I aware that I forget the registration card of Saint Carous Hoospital. "Wow.... I'm mistake," I say to myself. I aware when the  bus had started. Am I nee to go back to home to take it?" I ask "No need?" It is  risk to pay expensive," I said in my heart. I often neglect," I say to myself. I try to calm. In Jl. Bulevar Hijau, near BCA I see  Ms. Lilny entrance to busway. She entrance together her chilldren. I thin together her husband but evidently the man not her husband. I know it when  pay ment. They pay for ech self. "Oh...sory they are not wife and husband. They accidental (kebetulan) meet in the way when wait the busway. Ms Lyny is Catholic in  Parish  od Saint Albert- Harapan Indah - Bekasi. In last time she was  official of documentation   for Fist Communion Sacrament. She had came to JPS school to take picture  for JPS students who allow the first communion in last time, just as year 2015.
Than she busy with her children and her gadget. I try to sleep. I see some  children in bus. They bust to play. The bus  full on the way. We transit at  ASMI. Than I uuse busway to Senen. I contact my brother, Mr. Rony to ask my book. " I'm join the coopereation Credit Union Education. I'm still meeting now. You CU of Bererod  Gratia Book i entrusted (titip)  at  Ms Vony," he sms. "Okay, so I no need to go to CU Bererod Gratia Office. I direct  go to Saint Carolus hospital to check up," I said.  In busway I'm  dizzy (pusing). This is because  hypertension. I forget to drink medicine," I said. Than I arrive at  Senen shelter. I transit  there to  Carolus Hospital. I exit at Saint Carolus - Salemba - Hospital. I arrive at 11:30 am. Than I entrance to hospital. I fill the data whereas I had check up in last time. Finally they find it.  Today I meet doctor  Emon. After wait almost 1,5 hours he check up me. "This is nor appendix. Please controll you hypertension. Today my press of blood is 150 / ....... Than he give recipe (resep). I bring it to  staff. I pay almost 576.000. The pay of consultation to docter almost 350.000. Wow.. so expensive," I said.  "I mistake take decision. It is better I come to  general doctor  in Saint carolus if not the  doctor in clinic in Bekasi. If come to them may be not so expensive. But I come to  specialist doctor because I feel sick of appendix.  I thin may be need surgery so I come to Saint Carolus  Hospital. Evidently my analysis not exact. Than I lunch at Warteg Bluntas. I eat  rice, tempeh of fried,  kale (kangkung) and bean sprouts (tauge)  / soya shoots (tumas kedelai).  I pay IDR 6.000.  Than I drink medicine. I eat papaya and  melon with price IDR 5.000. Than my brother, Mr. Rony come to pick up me

 at Bluntas - Salemba. Than we go to Pasar Genjing to met Rony's darling, Ms  Fony. We take my credit union of Bererod Gratia Book.  Than Rony and I  discuss at  Genjing Park. He pray for me for my refresh of health.  'Please   delivery me to Saint Paschal's church of Cempaka Putih.  He did it. "Thank you my brother," I said. "I entrusted (titip) to you the money for Mr. Hendrik Aron of Wedding. I donor IDR 300.000," I said to my youngest brother while givi the monney to him. Than I entrance to the church. The Palm Celebration on this mass lead by 2 priest. They are Father Egy Ngarut,OFM (74 years) and Father Jimmy, OFM. The Saint Paschal's church  condition is good. The room use AC. They use projector.

After Holy Mass I entrance to  Book Shop. I see the book there. Than I met with Father Egy, OFM. "Fathher   fresh now," I said. "I'am 74 years now," he said. "Can you help  us to lead the Holy mass at our school  of JPS on Friday ,  April  28, 2017? It is Saint John Paul II Celebration and  School Easter Celebration," I ask. It is okay but you must  pick up and delivery," he ask. "It is okay Father," I said. Today, I feel just God  grants (mengabulkan) and hear my prayer. Almost had 3 weeks I looking for priest  to lead this mass but  6 priest who contact busy, con not service us. Just as the Lord lead me today to Saint Paschal's church  and I meet Father Egy Ngarut, OFM. He has time to service us on April 28, 2017. Thank you Lord." I pray in my heart.

Since Sunday, May 7, 2017, my gum(gusi) under of teeth is sick. It is wound. I don't know  why  is  it happened. May be effect of  deep heat (panas dalam).  Just as  have link to under part so my  sick in  down of  molar (geraham) too. I try to treat use  ginger but still sick too, no fast recover. Than I  remember the oil medicine - Sumbawa Oil (Minyak Sumbawa) -  that I bought in journey Flores - Bali. I bought it in Badas in Pangrango )/) ship.  The Alor people sale it. I buy one bottle. It is in July 2016  when I go back to Jakarta after holiday in Manggarai. Than I take the oil medicine. I  drops on the gum (gusi) that sick. I feel cool (adem).  I want to use it again. Than I use  ginger (jahe). Finally it is recover.

One Sunday on Junne 2017, I check up at Saint Albert Church. Adenta's mom invite me to check up. "You are sick of  uric acid (asam urat). The doctor  give medicine  to me. I get  the food too. Than I go back to home.


Since Saturday, June 3, 2017, my health is disturb. My tail bone (tulang ekor) and  right butt (pantat kanan) wounds (terluka). May be effect the broken inner body. But I don't know what is part  that broken. May be is is effect of uric acid (asam urat). Until Monday. June 5, 2017 I still feel sick of it. Yesterday, Sunday, June 4, 2017 I exit feces that bad small, there is hard (padat), liquid (cair)  even (bahkan) mucus (berlendir) . Yesterday  morning seldom liquid all. I think fart (kentut)  evidently  liquid feces. (lelot in Manggarainese).   Today in the morning the feces  still seem liquid. Wow...my health not so  good.



Since Tuesday, June 18, 2017, my condition  of health is disturb. The climate today is cloudy (berawan). I begin  hoarse (serak). My esophagus (kerongkongan). I get sick almost  during  one  week. Than on Monday, July 24, 2017, at evening,  I go to the doctor  ta Clinic Medika. The doctor serve me. She check my blood type. "How many my  blood pressure?" I ask. It is enough high is 160/100. Wow. Than the doctor give me the  medicine. I  drink it. Than I'm rest.


Monday, August 7 - 8, 2017, I'm so lazy. My movement  so slow. I'm easy sleepy (mengantuk).  Is this effect of hypertension? Is this effect of  consumption rice excessive (berlebihan). May be.


Thursday, August 9. 2017. In my room I touch my teeth that had broken. There is part that fall down in mouth. I touch and take it. Than I hold the main molar that still   holey (berlubang). It is  rocking (bergoyang). I take it. I see  nicely.  Wow... this part of my body. This part is off. "We are  slowly dead. I save my part of  molar (geraham) that broken.  My mouth not  comfortable because there is part that losing and other part still  left but it is sharp ans I often touch so sick.

This event for  the second time broken. In last  years   this molar  (geraham)  broken. And today is second time to broken. But still have left, include the  tooth root (akar gigi).

Friday,  2 - 4 February 2018, my left  hand is  sick .  The base of plam (pangkal telapak)  have lumps (benjolan). It is sick and swollen (bengkak). It make me  fever. I get difficult to  hold (pegang)  or carry something. If I   open my hand to down it is  sick. This is disturb of me.  I try to bring motor cycle but I difficult to  do it. Than on Saturday, February 3, 2017, I decide to go to the doctor in clinic in  Kampung Bogor, near VMG I.  I on foot to there. I meet  with Mr and Mrs. Sumijo. We by the way. Mr. Sumijo ask  vacancy (lowongan) of work at JPS. "Is have vacancy in JPS. It is  for Mr. Martin. He was studying English in Atmajaya University," he said. "Now, not yet, may be  approaching (menjelang)  new academic year 2018/2019," I said. They ask me about my destination.  I want to clinic to go to doctor. I want to  get  treatment (berobat) to  to my sick. Had you treatment here?  Mr. Sumijo ask. "Yes, I often treatment here . Than I entrance the clinic. I meet the man doctor. He service me. We dialog. "May be this uric acid (asam urat)," he said. "But this  have  lumpps (benjolan) doctor," I said. "No eat  purine (purin) and coconut milk (santan)," he suggest. Than he  give medicine. "Thank you doctor," I  said.  I pay IDR  50.000. Than I go back. In home I drink medicine than  sleep.  When I get up in the morning I  begin feel  good. Pain (nyeri)  and aches (pegal) gegin lose and swollen begin  decrease (berkurang).  I'm happy with this  change (perubahan).

Friday,  24 - 4 February  - March  2, 2018, I'm   sick of  cold (pilek) . I try to  do my activity. I seldom  lulled (terlena) with  work  and seldom careless  to care my health, e.g.  go back late to home because  read news in internet. Seldom i greedy (rakus) with news. Until March 3, 2018 I am still cold. May be fast recover. Until Saturday, March 3, 2018, my nose still  feel clogged (tersumbat).
Wow.

Than Tuesday, March 20  2018 I  get  sick of cough (batuk) and cold (pilek). On Thursday, in evening I decide to go to the clinic in Kampung Bogor. Dokter  Zulkifli Kamaruddin  service me. He give medicine to me. I pay IDR  50.000. Than  I go back to home. I drink it that rest.

On Wednesday, March 21, 2018 a part of  tartar (karang gigi)  broken (pecah).  I know it when  drink water in the morning.  Than  my finger of right hand take it. I try to destroy of it. Than I  try to  smell it. The  bad  smell I get. Wow....

Monday, April 30, 2018.  I get  cold  and  cough (batuk). I'm shiver (menggigil) in evening? Why In condition cold  and cough (batuk) I drink  cold  water. The  body component  not support of it so the  reaction just as it (shiver = menggigil).

On May 1, 2018, I go to the doctor in Kampung  Bogor to get medicine.  The doctor check  me  include my blood press is 120 / 90 . "The  blood  press is normal," he said. "Thank you  doctor. I'm very happy because before my blood pressure reach 170. "please sleep enough ,  keep the diet (jaga pola makan), avoid stress  and   spoort," he said. Than I get medicine. I pay IDR 50.000




On Sunday, June 23, 2019 - in  Jurang Mangu Station - I feel my right chest pain. I'm try to hold it. What symptoms is this? Than on Monday, July 1, 2019, in VMG  in the morning, the right chest pain.  Is this symptoms of heart disease?

On  16  April 2022, I  go to doctor. Why? Before I feel  my conditon  not good.  I feel it  when  get up in the morning  and contine when I  join  Paschal  Vrigiily in  Saint Alberus Harapan Indah parish, Bekasi. Than on evening  I decide  go to  doctor to check up. My blood  pressure is 150/110 mmHg.  I ffel pain on shouder or back , sick when ibhale (tarik nafas)  and feel pain on knee / leg. The doctoor  give medicine to me. I pay IDR 50.000. I drink  the medicine when arrive in home. Than I feel better my condition.

On  Friday, 22 April 2022, i write reflection to delivery when  Environmental Worship of Sait Alfonsus , Hrarapan Indah. I had prepare  and  print  it.  Than I   go back to home.  I check it  at home, Oh, my God, I forget  it in the  school. What symptoms is this? Is my heallth is good or have  problem e.g. my  blood vessel are blocked (pembuluh darah tersumbat)? I suspect  this problem, because my blood pressure enough high.

DREAMs- 3

Saturday, Feb. 7, 2015 -

I have  dream.

Just as I join on journey / travelling at Ngada Region. We arrive  on  feet  of  mountain. I mention it  Inerie Mountain but  the Ngada people  make  correction it  as  Ebu Lobo  mountain.  We  join on the youth  meeting.  Mr. Poli Sola - my friend  when lecture  at STFK Ledalero / Major Seminary Ritapiret, Maumere  Flores -. We  want  to  give  enrichment (pengayaan)  and   debriefing (pembekalan) to  youth  people. On  that  time I just as touch the  hand  and  feed  of the  girl. I feel my  main body (vital body - penis)   on too. (The  soul  lead  the   body (reflection) 

I have  the  other  dream

 Just as I  climb  a   hill. Than I turned (menoleh) to  right. I see  home  and   yard  of  Mbaru  Gendang Wela.  Than I success to  arrive  of   Coffee  Garden. The  people  say  that  it  Mr. Kornelis Garu's  coffee's   Garden. Than  we  go  on we  arrive  at Mr. Gaspar Ngganggu's  coffee  garden. Mr. Kornelis  dan Mr.  Gaspar already  become  the deceased (almarhum).  In  my  think I imagine  that  the  garden, especially  of Mr. Kornelis  is   continue of  Mbarang  Garden.

I  have  the  other  garden.

We  just as  want to travel. The  location just as at  Bima  to to Sape  at Sumbawa  place. I join on motor cycle. There is  3 persons / people  that  join  the  motor cycle.  The  scenery is  nice. I imagine  the  long  journey. I don't know  with who I  traveling. I only  remember myself. I don't know  the  others.

 

Dream:

Sunday, February 08, 2015

I have  dream.

The location is at Wela  burial / cemetery (pekuburan). In near burial (cemetery=pekuburan)  of my family, at south side, the location is so clean, just as recent be tidy up. Beside my family  the location so clean. Just as Mr. Agus Abu and family that  work it. This is for Welo girl (Ini untuk molas Welo = Ho’ latang te  molas Welo).  At east side, the location so clear too.  While the others seem  just as forest.  OMG, what is meaning of this  dream?

The other dream: Just as have  holy  mass. I join on this  mass.  I see  just as Father Peter Aman,OFM  that lead the mass.  Seem I want to say something to him.  Than  on the other place seem  I want to   step a climb place that ladder (tangga ?). I step there to go up.

The dream  at  day rest (11:30 – 15:00)

We just as   play  of  soccer  at  margin  / beside  of  road. After playing just as hear issue that   the place own  of  monastery of Catholic nun. May be the Catholic nun  want to use the place to become monastery. I’m  worry too  if this issue become reality.

(Note:  Evidently on Sunday, Vero Nganul (Kalis Jeremat's wife / Rafly's mother) sick. I get info when call with Mary Jemen, my older sister that still at Wela.    (I call, Feb. 9, 2015). May Ms Vero fast recover.

 Evidently on Monday, Feb 10, 2015,  Doni  Dajus, pass  away at Wela because  tumor. She  is  from Mbaru Gendang Wela. Her husband  from Tureng, Terang Boleng. She is entrancing  Moslem.
Reflection: the activity of the body precedes the soul (aktivitas jiwa mendahului badan).
 9 Peb. 2015, pkl 20:30 - Tumor. Lalu diantar dari Wela ke Terang, 10 Peb. 2015, pkl 00:00

  

Monday, Feb 9, 2015 - no remember  the  dream? There is  dream. Finally my brain can remember after blank almost 10 hours (06:00 - 18:00).

I have  dream. I join on activity  to built water  from Wae Ulu. Mr. Beny may be  want  bring the Wae Ulu Water to Wela. He already walk until over Mr. Paskalis Jemanu's  garden of Wae Ulu, while there is issue that the Golowelu people - Mr. Yoseph Bensa, BA, already lobby the village of leader, Mr. Philipus Jeharut - to ask Wae Ulu Water to Golowelu / Ntalung Pada. I just as  join on make  tank (bak penampung) to  accommodate (menampung) water.  I see Mr. Yoseph on the water  of  Wae Ulu. Mr. Beny seem confuse with this situation.

What means this dream with relation with my health? That time my vital  body is on.

Finally my brain can remember after blank almost 10 hours (06:00 - 18:00).

I have  the  other  dream.  I just  as  arrive  late  at school. I'm  shame  because   overlapping  my mistake  after make  mistake on Friday, Februari 6,  2015. I'm  shame  to  myself  and  team.

Than just  as  imagine on my  brain about soccer  match La  Liga. Barcaa  win.  Luis  Suares create goal.  The  time  show  at 02:55 am.  I'm getting  up. Evidently I want to watch soccer  of La Liga, Barca vs  Atletico  Bilbao. I watch it  at RCTI. Barca  win 5 - 2. Wow...  soul  activity antedate (precede = mendahului)  body.  I watch  soccer  while    lie  down (berbaring). Than I  cook vegetable. I'm  forget  to buy  rice (beras). There  is  crumb (remah) rice on rice cooker  that I  soak (rendam).  I reuse  it.I mix on vegetables than mix of pump, carrot, potato. I use  it to  breakfast.  There  is the remaining  food  on  last night. I eat it. I'm  not  bring food to  school  for lunch. I'm rely on (mengandalkan)  food  prepare by team that prepare the princiapl  birthday.Ms Deby alredy order the  food  for lunch. I wait  it. The  rain since  yesterday, Peb, 8, 2015  until this  morning. I start  to school. I arrive  at school at 06:30. I success  to  anticipation (antisipasi)  from  my  dream. JABODETABOK  today  is  flood.  I share   dream with my older sister, Ms  Merry. She  has  dream: Ms Agatha  (Ende'd  Talis)  is   die. Than delivery to Mbaru  gendang  to "semayam"  there. Than Ms Mery get  key to  open  Ms Agatha's  key of box / home.  Ms  Mery  go to Belang Lesa, to Ms Agatha's  house, to take  rice  that  they  borrow  in  last  time. Than Ms  Mery go back. Than Ms Mery try to help  treat Ms Agatha.  Ms Mery use   ginger (halia)  and ....(jerangau = jengok). Ms  Mery    massage on Ms agatha's  head. Ms  Agatha life  again, but  change  become Ms  Wia Wawung. "if  not because  this   ginger (halia)  and ....(jerangau = jengok) you can not  life," ms  Mery said.  Than  we  share  dream. Than we  apply  it. "Ms Vero Nganul is  sick  since  2 night ago. Wow.... this  is  sad  to  us.

Tuesday, Feb  10, 2015 -

I have  dream.. I just  as  at Golowelu /  Kolang Region. I just as at Lasang / Kolang. I  just as  with Sr. Sophy,. We just as  go back to Wela.  But,  the  car  just as  nor  reach Wela, so we think to  use on foot / by ojek  to Wela. 

I just as   travel at  Golowelu. I see  the intersection  of Golowelu. Than we  go back. In near   bend (tikungan)  to entrance of  near  house  of  Sanso, we see some people  at Golowelu intersection. We  go back to the bend (tikungan). We just as  on  home. I see  Ms Esy sleep with  her  child, baby?

Than we  have  the  other  dream. Just  as  there  is  priest  that holiday from  mission area.  Just as  want to   travel  but  get  difficult  with  car. I imagine of  just as  Father Vincent  Sensi Gunawan, SVD.  The  problem or difficulty just as  it.

Wednesday, February, 11, 2015

I have  dream. just as  have  reunion in one  school but  not  my alma mater (almamater) . May be  the  school lead  by Catholic nun (biarawati).   I see  the nuns  but  I don't  know  them. I just  as  present  on one  school for reunion meeting.

Thursday , Feb  13, 2015 -

I have  dream. Just  as  I journey  from  Wela  to Ntalung Pada / Golowelu.  At  near  Mr. Beny's  house  at Ntalung Pada I see  sale  of material just as  vegetable  by  mother  of  Pauline. Mr. Beny and Ms  Pauline's  house  is  near.  Than  in Mr. Beny's  kiosk available  almost  same material. I see  my  former teacher of  Primary, Ms Ely Pangul. She  just  as  talk about Marly's  wedding /  (married = pernikahan) .

Thursday, February, 12, 2015

I have  dream.  I just at  at  Wela  Village. May be go to Golowelu. At Mr. Paulus  Habut - Mother Paulina  dan Mr. Beny Jelami  house there  is  sale of  vegetable.  Ms Paulina service  and  display it  near Mr. Beny house too.  When I arrive at Mr. Beny house there is same material (vegetable) too.   Than I meet my teacher  when Primary, Ms Ely Pangul. She  just  as  want  to  church.  Marly want to merried? She  say / ask  something  to me  but  I can not  catch  nicely  so  I ask to  repeat. Pardon me. Until three  times  I  pardon mme  but  still not  clear  for me. May be I'm  deaf (tuli). Wow... What  is happen of  this  dream?

Friday, February, 13, 2015 - I have  the  dream  but  forget  to remember  it

Friday. Feb. 13, 2015 - Have  dream  but  not  remember.

Saturday, February, 14, 2015

I have a dream. I just  as  at  Ngada  region. We  visit  there, may be  with   brithers  just  as  Alex, John. We arrive   at  one home. Mr. John  share  info about  Valens  Mahu. "He (Valens) already  sale  his merchandise (barang dagangan) / goods in Ngada region but  not  selling (laris). May be  the  family need  the  money. We just  as concern (prihatin) on this  situation. Just  as  we  want  to buy his merchandise, e.g.   trousers (celana panjang). There are  people  that open it. I see a trousers just as  second goods  because  just as  old  on  down side. Than we move  to  one  home. I just  as  bring something, just as  plastic of  water, may be  rain. Mr. Leksi  take  it, may  he  is thirsty, but  it   useless. Than we  move  to Ngada/ Bajawa  house.  We by pass  their village / house / water/ Than we  use  truck to go back to Manggarai. On   dream I  think that between Bajawa / Ngada  with  Manggarai have relation of ancient  as   brother. Manggarai is  senior, Ngada  is  Yunior. On truck I forget whether (apakah)  we by pass Mataloko seminary or  no. I don't  see  Mataloko Seminary  branch.  Just as  we  turn before  arrive  at Mataloko seminary.

Sunday, February 15, 2015 - forget  the  dream

Monday, February 16, 2016  -  the dream  is  forget ? Because I  postpone  to  fast  write on blog

Tuesday, February 17, 2015

I have  dream. I just as gathering with my family. We are gathering in one  place. Just as custom activity. There are member  of  our  family - Nua, e.g. Mr. Tinus  and I. Than I see Welo Family, e.g. Mr. Lius  Beong, Mr. Leksi / Endy. What will  we  discuss? We  just as  discuss t accept  guest.
What is  mean  of  this  dream.


Wednesday, February 18, 2015  - the  dream  forget

Thursday, February 19, 2015

I have  dream. The  dream take location at  Mbaru  Gendang, Wela. Just as  out  of  Mbaru Gendang there  is  little room  than  narrow. There  I see  Mr. Endy Madur, Mr. Fidelis Bagus. They  play card. They are gambling (= gaming = dice = berjudi).
Than just as I move  to  the  other  place, I see  just  as collection people  and  prepare  the  food. I come. I eat the food. There is  fish, chicken etc. Whay is  meaning of  this  dream.

(May be   the  gathering  at Mabaru  Gendang  near   part  of  home  of  Bone  Kaso  means  the  sad  information on  Feb. 2015  that  Mr. Yan Jehabur  die  at  Malang  because  hipertension). Mr. Ferdy  call me   about this  information.).

Friday, February 20, 2015

I have  dream. I just as travel to  one  place. Just as  we  use  pedicab (becak). Mr. Alex  Maji  drive  it. I sit  down in  front. Our  pedicab (becak) just as meet a group people. One of  men  just as  deliberate (sengaja) stonewall (menghalang). We  touch her body. He  just as  bring  something (animal?). Sometthing  that  he  bring  entrance  to my bag  and   bite (menggigit) me. I fill  sick. I ask to  exit  the  animal  from my  bag. Than we arrive  on  one  place  just as  have  shelf (rak).   What  means  of  this  dream?

Saturday, February 21, 2015

I have  dream.  I just  as  collect  together  friends, include  Mr. Robert. I see  Mr. Robert  just  as  hold  book  of  English version. In my heart  say  that  he  success  finish his  master  program  because   team work.  What  message  to  me?  Make  team  work? Be  opened? Thank you.

Sunday, February 22, 2015 - forget  the  dream

Monday, February 23, 2015 - forget  the  dream

Tuesday, February, 24, 2015 -

Wednesday, February 25, 2015

Thursday, February, 26, 2015
I have  dream. Just  as  at  first  floor JPS  Primary building. Just as  gathering  with  friends. We  just as meeting  while  eating. May be  just as considerating  Mr  Ben Ayung  as Principal, may be  he  si  angry.

Friday, February 27, 2015

Saturday, February 28, 2015
I have  a  dream. Just  as  I see  people make  banner about name  of  candidat of  wife  of  Mr. Hila. She  is  may be widorer (janda?). She  is former Muslem, and  Hindu. Wow... what is  meaning  of  this  dream?

Sunday, March 1, 2015

I have  a dream ?

Monday, March 2, 2015
I have  dream. I just as  present  in one  place.  I meet  with  my  classmate  when at major  Seminary of  Ritapiret,  Father  Gabriel Harim, Pr. He  is  priest  now.  On the  dream, we  just as  collect  to  meeting. Just as thre is  couple  husband  and  wife  as  official. They  just as arrange / dominate  activity, not  Father  Gabriel Harim. They  sit  down on  a  chair  that  have  table. I  in back  of  them.

Than I just as at  arrive  on  toilet. I see  the  toilet  so  dirty, full  with  stool (droppings - feces / tahi). The scoop (gayung) is dirty too. I try to  clean it  with  flush (siram) with  water  but not clean too. I'm disgusted(jijik) too see  that view (pemandangan).  What  is  meaning  of  this  dream? May be  this  symbol my health. When I get  up,  my neck is  sick. I feel the blood  flow (aliran darah) in my  body  disturb, choke (tersumbat).

Today, I'm not  fresh. I go to school. I arrive on 16:44 am at school. It  is  las  minute  because school for  teacher  start  at 06:45. Wow.....
In school I'm not enthusiasm. I cook food on  12:00 after  angelus  prayer.  Than  we are meeting  to   discuss practice  test  for P6.

Wednesday, March 4, 2015
I have  dream. I just as on one  place, just as  at  valley (lembah) / foothills. I just  as  with  hte  others, but  I'n not  know  whoa ate them. On a  slope (lereng)  I see  bamboo pipe. It  is green (blue = biru) mix  yellow

Thursday, March 5, 2015
I have  dream.  The location just a  at  Golowelu. I entrance  to Mr. Thomas Mbembok's  house. We have family relation with them.  Our ancestor (descent = nenek moyang) from their tribes. On culture view, we should be respect to them. I entrance to   kitchen. May be  I eat  something  there. Than I hear  voice  of Ms  Thomas Mbembok  which  still at   sleep  room.  She think I'm Ety, her  daughter. I'm shy to answer. Than I  clean my hand. I use  water  in  toilet that not  clean ( yellow  color).  The  tap (keran)  is  so  near  with   toilet. I  wash my hand  there. I'm  disgusted (jijik) too.

** My soul move  to the  other  place. I'm at teacher  cluster area (kompleks perumahan) at Golowelu I school. I just as  looking  for  Ms  July's  house, my  teacher  when Primary. I ask  people about  it. Just  as  have  party there. I see  at  Golowelu I  school  gate  there is car  to pick  up  bridge (pengantin). I see Mr. Ansel (the  first son of Mr. Simon Batas). Than he just as  change (berubah) to Mr. Kons ( from Lale - from Lale  Lembor  that merried  with Ms Dn  from Lewur).  The situation so  crowded (ramai).
What is  meaning  of  this  dream? May be my health  not  so good,  because   use  the water  near toilet.



Friday, March 6, 2015
I have  a dream. I just  as visit  to a place. at Golo Karot - Lembor. I just as  want  to visit  one  place. I catch chicken to bring  there. Just as  want  to  visit  family (anak rona). There is  some chicken.  I want  to catch  but may be only one  that   success. May be   the  others  help me  for  this intention.

There  is meeting  of  family. I just as  asked (didaulat) to  become spokesman for  custom event. It  is  spontaneous. I accept. Than I aware. Than I get  up than  prepate to take  a bath. The  time  show 06:18. I prepare to take a bath.  I cancel to taje  a bath. I only wash my head / hair. Than I start  to school. Lucky I'm not late arrive at school. I arrive  at 06:42, while school  start  at 06:45.

Saturday, March 7, 2015

I have  dream. We just as gathering  and discuss  at  Mbaru Gendang  Wela. We  just  as talk someone,. Talk Tin Jemimut. Just as  Tin alredy   pass  away. What issue that we talk about  her?It  is  eat full. "She  is  eating so much, almost every day  eat. There  is  Mery and  I   and  the  other. The  discuss  at  kitchen.

Evidently  Tin   still at  Mataram - NTB. She  recent  born of  child in last week.
What is meaning of  this  dream?


Sunday, March 8, 2015 - forget the  dream
I have  dram  when sleep of  middle day / afternoon:
I just as holiday to Manggarai. I sxit from Ferry ship at Labuan Bajo  dock (dermaga). I meet with my brother Mr. John  and  father of  Paul  Habong , my younger  father. Just as  have office.  I'm mistake entrance to  room. I talk with father Paul Habong.  The people at Labuan bajo confused.

The other  dream:
Just as the venue at in front of house of VMG  Blok B4 / 8.  The flood  come There are the  children play in water. The water  high reach as  long  thigh (paha).  Mr. Harnoto  service the  children (boys).

**Just as  travel to Elar. She the car ( oto kolt). Just as see  Neni. The passanger only less. The venue just as at Poco Kuwus, Kolang, Kuleng, Dadar, Kolang.
There is  holy  mass . There are Mr. Lexy  and  friends  from East Manggarai.  Just as  there is  Tia  mother too.  There is  Father Stef Wroz, SVD. He   wear  white  robe (jubah). I busy to serve the  friends. Not  clear  what time  start to mass.  Father Stef Wroz, SVD  not see  again.

Monday, March 9, 2015 - forget the  dream

Tuesday, March 10, 2015 - forget the  dream

Wednesday, March 11, 2015 - forget the  dream


Thursday, March 12, 2015 - forget the  dream


Friday, March 12, 2015 - have  dream but  forget to   dream because  postpone to write
I sleep at  guest room. I sleep after  supper  at  warteg. Than I  sleep. Just as there is someone that ask me: "who is sleeping in back sleeping  room?  Than I aware.  Limit  among aware  and awareness so near  on  this  case.

In reality that room  use  by Mr. Harnoto. When I arrive  she  was  going  out. Than he  was  coming  from Bojong. He  is  meeting  with Ms Monika, the  Batak women  people that  one  environment  with hom in last time. Ms Monika is Catholic people. Her husband is moslem  of  Java.



Saturday, March 14, 2014

I have  dream.  I just as  walk in brack of  Lida  to  Wae  Wela / Wae Mese / Bangka. I walk with some  friar / candidate of  priest. They are asking  me about  this path. "How  often are you walking here? they ask. "I'm  own the  villlage  so I walk here  since  child," I say  to  them.

Than my soul just as  at seminary situation. Just as  at Kuwu?  Just as  I want  to take  a bath.

Than my soul move  to  the  other  place

There is visitation the Catholic people of Cancar  Parish. They visit  to Wela  lead  by Father Alo Gambur,Pr. The Wela people  accept  them at  Mr. Yan Ano / Mr. Kali Jeramat's  house. I want  to  talk to Father Alo,Pr  but   just as   dont  occur of  it.

We  walk at  road. I see the  car. Bus  Harapan Bersama Ranggu  come, but  only cement  that  loading  there, no passenger." May be  the  people interest  to use  motor cycle  so the  bus idle (nganggur?). "The  bus here   diffrence  with  at Mataram,"  Father  Flory  complaim. "Yes, the  bus  at Mataram Lombor  is  bed," I say to him.

Dream when morning  sleep (10 - 12:00 am)

I was in one  room at a  home. There  is  plactic  on my room.  I meet  with Mr. Hendrik Aron.

I see  Mr. Bene  Kana. He  just  as  see me  that   write of  song  of Caci. Just as  I'm not  invite  him to   participate  whereas  he  is  singer  of  caci.
I just as  see  Mr. Yohan habun too.

In near    way to Plain, just as  I see  the  late (almahum) Father  Bernadus Bakal. He  just  as  explain something  to some people. "You are  looking  for  about Rp 2 million money?. I'm not  understand the purpose  the  money. I ask to  friend, just  as  from Ripapiret  major   seminary.  Is  Father  Icin Tanis  available? May be collect money to help cost of  hospital to  him. Evidently Father Icon is  sick. Almost 6  years  she  is  sick.

Sunday, March 15, 2015
I have  dream. The venue  I don't  know with exactly. Just as  on  one  place. I  just as   brother of semianry. I just as  still  have  robe (jubah).  On one  part  of  room I just as see  Ms  Dwi, teacher  friend  of  JPS. We  just as  stay in same room but  different   badroom.  Wow.... why the  school set  just as  this, because mix  famale  and  male teachers  in ne  room?  I have photo  album. I open it. I  show  to  Ms Dwi. Ms  Dwi just as topless.  Her  chest is open. It  is hairly (berbulu). Her breast (payudara) only small  just as male. She just as  relax. I'm not interesant  to touch it. I respect to her. But I have desire if  she  want  to touch my chest. I give if  she  wants.I'm still use  dress. Than she  move to  near me. My  head often to falldown to her  but  I try to controll to back.

Than just as I go to one  place. Just as I go to Major of  Seminary of John Paul II of  Jakarta. There I see Father   Kesharyanto, Pr. Just as  have attraction there. There  is  teacher - Ms Lovy? - lead  the  students to attaction of  culture. The  auditorium just as  simple. I see  Bishop of  Jakarta, Mgsr. Ignatius Suharyo,Pr.  I see the  adult  women catholic too.
What neabs of  this  dream?
Evidently in church when mass (second  mass) Father Kezhar,Pr  that  lead  the  mass. After it he  lead the  student  that recollection.   Soul activity precede (mendahului)  body.

Monday, March 16, 2015
I have  dream.
The venue  just as  at  Lasang, Kolang, Manggarai, Barat. It  is  at  big  house. May be the venue is at custome home (rumah adat).  In my mind  there was  father  Faspar beside me at inside  home. He  was still sick. He was still  sleep.  at outside home I see my grandmother Ms  Wihelmina  just as  still  clean  the  house. She  just as   bring the  droppings (tahi)  that already  dry. Just as she want  to  throw away (buang) at  under the  house. The  house  have vault (kolong).
** Than just as  we  move  to Wela. We  regreat  because  Rony and  I  just as  bot  visit  Father Gaspar  that still sick  at  Lasang.  We  sorry  for  this  mistake.

** Note: Mr Gaspar  and  Granmother Wilheilmina  already pass away.
What means  with  this  dream?
Waw.... may be  have ratation with my health. Today at school, about  13:00 I'm sick. May be  high blood pressure (tekanan darah tinggi)  relapse (kambuh).

The  other  dream today is, I  meet  Ms  Cathrine, conselor  teacher  of  Primary unit.  Just as  have  activity  that have relation with  religion, subject  that I handle. May be  have  Seminar. I'm  just  at not  care. Why? I seem not self confidence.

*** In fact  in the  morning at Patung Kuda I see Ms Cathrine. She  come  from  her  house, at Ifolia/ Aralia.  She  is earlier than me. I arrive  at school at 06:37 am. Today is religion test. I supervision to the class. Just as I'm not self confidence to explain the  question to students. I'm inferior to  friend  that have English better  than me. Wow... improve yourself, F!.

On  one  part  of  dream, I  dialof  just  as  with lecture of STFD, Mr.Mateus  Ali. "I often  remove my  sign, is is  valid  or  no?" I ask. "It  is  okay," he  answer.  Evidently I get dofficult to  make  the  sign  same  on all documents. This  is  my difficult.

Tuesday, March 17, 2015 - formet  the  dream.


Wednesday, March 18, 2015
I have dream. I just as visit a place. Just as Makasar (?).  I just come / visit beach. I come there. I see  the people house. Just  as  I see Flores (Manggarai) people too. I come to beach. Wow..it  is  so dirty and so many things there. I almost entrance there. The river just as swamp (bog =marsh). It  is so dirty. Lucky  I can  retreat   from  that place.
What happen this  dream? May be my health, especially  my circulation of blood is bad / disturb so I'm  sick / dizziness ( pusing). The swamp = bog = marsh (rawa) is symbol of my blood at body.

The other  dream. I  take a bath. Than I  take towel to dry my body. Wow.... evidently there are ants (semut-semut). Wow... I faster do flush (siram) water to my body to  clean the ants.  Than I wash the towel.

What means of this  dream? In last time I ever real this dream.

Thursday, March 19, 2015

I have  dream.I just  as  available  on  one  place. Just as  we  have  event. I just as  join with JPS parents  student is Ms Maria (Maria Sekar's  parent, Primary 4B). I'm not  remember  what activity. Than  I can not  remember the other part of  dream.
Evidently, in the  morning at 06:47 I see  Sekar  and  her  brother  at lobby B area. They delivery by their  father.

Friday, March 20, 2015

I have  dream. I just as  come to Mr. Leo house. They  just as set the  room of  home / house. They make separate room  for children  and  adult  when sleeping. This  right because their  children (Juan and Alfred)   already   Junior  and  senior  high  school.  Their  children seem enjoy  with  this  on their position. When I there, just as the  other  brothers  come  too. The location home just as  not  as  Cikarang  but  on one  venue  that I'm not  know  too.   What is meaning  of  this  dream. * I can  remember  this  dream  after 1,5 hours. It  rise  when I silent  correct  the  student  mid semester  test. In order  to  not  lose  I leave the correction of  test  than  write  this  dream.

Saturday, March 21, 2015

I have  dream. I just as on  place. May  be  there  is  mass. I just as  help  to prepare the equipments of  mass. I see  the table for  priest  is wet because  get water. Wow.... I try  to  help. The  place  I don't  know  where.

Than  my  soul just  as  move to  Wela. I go  to  east, just  as  to  Cancar direction.  In  area Wae  Siar, Wae  Usang, I see  the  people  cut  the ree  to   building material. I'm so sad. I see  people  burning forest (bakar hutan). Wow...I'm so sad  with  it. In walk to Wae  Usang. The  same situation available  there. Just  as I see people  that cut the tree of  forest. In  right side of road, I see  the good building in middle  of  forest. Woww...it  is  luxury  building.  Is  it  own of  Father  Ernest  Waser, SVD  or   mining  investor?  May be  mining  investor.  I see  Rai  people  there. I angry to Rai people  because  they are provacateur  (provokator) deforestation (kerusakan hutan) in Puar  Lewe (Wela - Goloworok).  Than I aware.



Monday, 6 April 2015

I have  dream. I just as join on  event, just as  fashion of culture om mass of inculturation. I don't  know  the  location. I prepare but just as I very underestimate  that event. Finally, I can not prepare the material, especially the costume (kostum) of culture of Manggarai, especially Songke cloth.  I see  some  friends - from Sikka -   that already prepare  while  I'm not  yet. I try to do it but  fail  to  find  Songke  cloth. I'm very underestimate of  it. Improve  it  Franck.

Tuesday, 7April 2015
I have dream.  The location at home. I just as at kitchen. I see Mr. Edu S.  My mind still remember that he is  trouble maker  to broken family relation.  Althouh it, I'm still want to service him. I try to forget his lunge (sepak terjang).  Than just as have  have bad situation. The family from Mbaru Kopi just as want to  attack. Mr. Beny  already stand by  to  fight with them.  He already stand up  at  beside home face to Mbaru Kopi.  Wow... this is dangerous. I entrance to home.  I see Mr. Edu in their field.  Just as I'm worry too. The location at attic (loteng) just as empty. We just as want to fight with the other family that we think  enemy.
** I have  the  other sleep. I touch  my teeth of molar (geraham) that have  hole. I want to  break (mematahkan) it.  Wow......What is happen  with this  dream? This morning I get up late, 06:22. I late arrive at school at 16:46. I'm not get transport and food money. Why Am I late? Because in last night I sleep late.


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Thursday, April 23, 2015
I have dream. The location  at Wela. Just as  have  plan to  build  the meeting room at baru Gendang Wela.  When I pleasure trip to land former chapel (kapela) Wela,I see that in home of Mr. Frans Kama home. In this land already build chapel (?) but  not  complete. I entrance  inside.  Wow....in the  building that nor complete of  hole there  is  lux  chapel. Only our side that not  complete yet. There I meet  with  the deceased (almarhum) Yoseph Naru. I want  to  talk  to  him. I want to confirmation to some issues about  Wela history to him. I don't  know  what  question  that i ask to him. I'm nott remember nicely his  answer about  it. What is  meaning  of  this  dream? What means  dream  meet  the  people that already  pass away? How relation  it  with health of the  dreamer?  Today my condition not  fit because  tired  join  fieldtrip to Rumah Perubahan, Jari Murni - Jati Warna, Pondok Gede - Bekasi, on April 22, 2015. After  it I  join on lecture. 



Friday, April 24, 2015

I have  dream. There are 3 days:
First, I meet  Father Marsel Agot, SVD.  He  and I visit a place, just as Outbond place. There is place  to treatment (care = perawatan) cow. "The Java people creative to manage of  life, include treatment of livestock (ternak). The Java people usually crratice and effective to manage of it  where things (hal  mana) it is not attention (focus)  for Manggarai  people e.g. how  to set / tidy the wood of  fire, straw (jerami). The Java  people  explain it  to  Father Marsel, SVD  and I. Than I invite (mengajak) Father Marsel, SVD to one  place. Just  as at  Saint Claus  Kuwu  Chapel at  Wae  Balak. We  come  to river  of  Wae  Balak. Father Marsel go down to river. May be  he  want  to see the  debit  of  water.

The  other  dream.  My  mom  just  as  threat me. She massage me. Your  sick of vital organ  can recover use  the  women's  milk. Than on my part  of body  of  it  can  move (erect). Wow......

Than I have  the  other  dream. I just  have  get  idea that how to manage  bamboo to   mat  (tikar). May be  the old  bamboo (talok - Manggarainese) than  weave (mengayam) it  become  mat. Wow......

Note: the  first  dream  may be have  relation with material of lecture  about Hinduism. On Thursday, April 23, 2014, at STFD campus, Dr. Matius Ali said that the Java  people  cra\eative  to  make "play of  word" (plesetan kata, e.g. Boutros-Boutros  Galak - Boutros-Boutos  Gali - )  because  have relation  with Hinduism effect (pengaruh). On Hinduism,one  name can  change name  but  the essence  of  person is  same.

Saturday, April 25, 2015

I have  dream. I meet Mr. Ande  Musa. I forget the  palce  and on what  event. I only see he  stand up beside  me.

What  menas  of  this  dream?



Monday, April 27, 2015
I have  dream. The location just as  at Wela. Just as  we  comeback from  Lida / Coal. We  by pass   Bangka  garden. I don't  know  who is  accompany me. We just as  walk at Mr. Ande Manto's  garden, than  by pass  field of  Bernadus  Bakal  to  Ende's  Efy's   garden.  What  means of  this  dream?



 Tuesday, May 5, 2015

*I have dream.  I just as in Goloworok, Cancar - Ruteng, Manggarai. I just as have friend from there. The friend invite me to his house. He introduce me to her family, include to her mom. Evidently her mom is the "smart" people. She can  "read the mind of others". She try to tell fortunes (meramal) my condition of health. I try to follow him. We take a good place. Than she "read my condition of health". Your sick because you forget to your honor your grand mother (Waweng) and  ......." she said. I'm curious (penasaran)  to her forecast (ramalan). I ask to her who again our ancestry (nenek moyang) that we forget to give sacrifice. I willing (rela)  to sacrifice (berkorban) for it that important can healing my health," I say in my health.

**Than I have the other dream. I just as come to place. Just as place in Golowelu (house of Stanis Mbaling / Kons Kirim  and branch to  Golowelu field). There just as I see Father Leo Mali,Pr. I see the other priest. I entrance to the presbytery (pastoran). I see  Father  Yoseph Masan Toron, SVD. He just as throw (melempar) keys to the presbytery. Than he goes out. She just as busy so not  just as care to me.

Than I  entrance to the other place / building. There just as I meet with Father Wily Findoro,Pr, Ardy  Obot. We talk about book that  write by a young of people Manggarai. The topic just as  post modern philosopher . "May be lin last time we not time to study it," I say.  My brother that write it. " Mr. Situs Medi said. The writer just as apprentice at Loce. Just as Ardy obot and Wily Findoro refute (menyanggah) my  ide. "In last time we alredy studied it. It  is  easy," Father Ardy Obot said while explain it to me. I imagine it just as  at Warung - Ntalung Pada. Just as have house there.
Wow...what is meaning of this dream?

**I have the  other  dream. I just as walk around Wae Siar at Wela, Cancar - Manggarai. I am  just at  available at hill  top. I see that already  managed so nice. Just as have park  with the  plant /flower.

(The  end dream I can remember at  evening at home and write on blog on  May, 6, 2015).




Saturday,  May 9, 2015

I have dream. I just as at Goloworok, Cancar Manggarai.  I just as want to go to Ruteng.  On the  end  of  village  I see a cottage (pondok). There I see Ms Hedvy ( Manggarai girls  fromWetik / Ranggu).  I entrance to there. I touch her  backbone, near  waist (pinggang).  Than I  see the  house in cross of  road. It  is Mr. Paskalis Jemanu's house. He  and  his  wife  and  their  children available  there. I just as  wait  car  to Ruteng. I see the car  but I'm not entrance. Than I see  my  friends, Maria  Namul, my classmate  when primary school. I ask her about  her  husband, Mr. Sely.

Than just as I available in one  place. I get therapy (terapi). My cousin sister available there. They are Ms Sana and  Ms Nelty. Ms sana  massage me in backbone. I'm nude (telanjang). I try to sit nicely and polite but I see my vital organ still see. May be my sisters see  it.

Than I just as  available at one  place.  I just as look in the mirror . I see  my move on eyes. My eyes  seem  have  red  color.May be it  show my health condition that not so good.

I write this  dream after 13,5 hours. Wow...wonderful I can remember my dream.

 Sunday, May 10,2014
I have  dream. I just as  on journey to East Manggarai. I just as meet with my  friend in major  Seminary. He is  Mr. Donatus Nador. We just as  talk about  place between Dampek  and Lamba, places in East Manggarai. We talk about Longko. "The school in Lambaleda available since Deutsch (Belanda). It means already old.

I have  the  other  dream. I just as available on river. The rive so many stone  and  peoples. In my mind that I think  I can swim. I want to swim. I looking  foe the  good pool. I want to see my ability to swim. But  it  is  only desire / will, not become reality.

What is happen  with my health? In last  time I sleep late because I arrange the test on second semester at school. When I back on 22:00 pm, the  big rain come.I wait during 1 hour  while  watch soccer  match at television.

Monday, May 11, 2015

I have  dream. I  just as travel, just as  return from holiday  from Manggarai to Java. I have plan to use Ferry boat. On one place I entrance the little boat. Wow...I'm fall down but not  sink (tenggelam). I jump to wall (just as swimmingpool) I hold  on pipe. I walk while  ask  help. There is people that help me. The  water /see  just as full  mud. I still walk on margin swimming  pool.  O many mud (lumpur) there.

Than I come to one  place. Thereavailabe  Ms Esy. Someone mentin her name. She sit  down in back. Than she come to  front  but  no comment.

Wow... what  means  of  this  dream if  compare with my  dream? Heal me  Lord. In last time I  sleepat 00:30 am because I arrange test question forPrimary 1. I arrange  it during 2,5 hours. I success to  finish it.

Before it I join on TT 02/RW 13 meeting. Wow...on this  time I introduce with the neigbour whereas I alredy  almost 3 years satay here.I just as lazy to report myself to leader (RT). Wow... I'm not  professional. The meeting  hold on Sunday, May 10, 2015, at 20:00. Before  it I join on mass of Sunday at Pulo Gebang, East jakarta at 17:00. I arrive on time there. I use 45 minutes  from home  to there. I meet Marvel, Fany and Cecil - JPS student -  there.

Tuesday, May 12, 2015

I have dream. It  is about party.   I see Mr. Idem on one place  of party. Is it his party?. May be the Christmas party. I see  Father Paul Habut to. Mr. Paul is my uncle, younger brother of  my father.  I see Mr. Felix Danor too. Mr. Felix Danor is Wela's emigrant (perantau) at Malang / Surabaya. We talk about Wela family.
I have the other dream. I just as traveling. Mayf  be mother Regina and I traveling to Lembor. We stop from car / bus at  just as at Rangga. Than we on foot from there to Golo Karot - Lembor.  In Peri - Lembor, I see mother Regina  bring a  bunch of banana. The banana just as not so good, just as fall down banana. It  is still  unripe (mentah).  We by pass the people that still talking  / discuss. May be they still do and enjoy of life.

What means of this dream?


Thursday, May  21, 2015

I have  dream.  I meet  with my  brothers, Mr. Beny, Mr. Hubert and Mr. Hila.  I see  the paddy in rice field. I see 3  rice fields  at  in front  of house. The paddy rice field  seem fail (rembek - Manggarainese). "Hila never study  from expereince. The result of work of  rice field is   bad. The paddy is broken ((rembek - Manggarainese)," Mr. Beny  complain with disappointed (kecewa). "It  is  the last time. We  want  to progress to next time. Where is Mr. Hila?" I ask. "He  is  at my house. He  is  crying," Mr. Hubert    says.  I'm  sad. Wow... what meaning  of  this  dream?

Saturday, May 23, 2015
I have  dream. I just as  present on one place  at Manggarai. I see  the paddy  rice field of Mr. Paul Habut  is fail grow  nicely. It's  our  family garden. I see the  others  garden at  the other village the paddy is yellow  as  sign of already  mature (matang) to harvest.I see to the other  rice field. I just see animal (just as deer (rusa)  run want to  hunter by the  others people. When the animal come  near me, I see  just as  buffalo (kerbau). Someone holld  rope to handle it. The  other try to together to kill  it. When I come to touch just as  against  me. What  means of  this  dream?


Sunday, May 24, 2015 - no remember  the  dream

Monday, May 25, 2015.
I have  dream. The place at Wela at Mr. Philipus Jeharut's  house.  I just as sit down at margin stone wall (katur watu). Than  I see Mr. Philipus. Than I see Ms  Esy (Megy's mother). She seems  smile. I talk with her. I ask her  about her impressions (kesan) when left her husband, Mr. Hila  dan why can not  speak when want to died in last time. "Can not speak," she answer. "Please you write your impression about your  family," I want to get  it  from her.

 Tuesday, May 26, 2015.
I have  dream. I meet  my  mother Regina. I want to ask her to give forgive to me for  my mistake in last  time. She still sleep.  She  not  give  response yet.  This  is erotic  dream.


Thursday, May 28, 2015

I have   dream. I just as at Manggarai, especially at Ntalung Pada. I see my family still build  home. The material enough much. It is  put  at near  house /  kiosk  of Mr. Paul Habut (Habong).  Mr. Beny just as  want  to build too. He reject the material  from family (John or Hila). We use material (brick = batu bata) from Coal"Ms Ina  said. Wow...... I see the condition. So many material in near  hteir  house. I meet  with Mr. Hila's youngest child  is George. I see him. I attention his head nd  hair. I find  so many tick (kutu) and  nits (telur kutu)  in his  head. "Wow... this  is  effect  no mother to care," I say in heart. George's mom is Ms Esy was already pass away on October 29, 2014.  Wow... what is  meaning  of  this  dream?

Friday, May 29, 2015
I have dream. I just be at Wela, near cemetery (pekuburan). I see  to Tentang Ndoso area. Wow...I see the  nice scenery (view). I see the nice view than seldom the Jesus  picture. Just as  the surface of  place change.
I just as want to by pass a river. The river is length but the water is  few. I see a women that exit feces at river. It  is  the smell of  urine (bau  pesing)   and  fishy (amis).  Than just as I hear talk of  George, Mr. Hila's youngest  boy. ""I don't  know  the my  mother's   face. I don't  know  her," he says.  I'm sad  when he say just as it.
What means of  this  dream?

Tuesday, June 2, 2014

I have dream. We just as  work at Wae Karas garden. War Karas garden lies  at  Lida. It  is  the garden with  spider web  form (lingko  lodok).  I see  Wae  Karas. The  water just as yellow, sign so dirty. What means of  this  dream? How  about my health?




Wednesday,  June 3, 2015

Thursday, June 4, 2015
I have dream. In dream I just  get papers of  Agama dan Sekularisme that already studied in last semester, semester I, 2014/2015 for  Magister  of Philosophy Program  at  STF Driyarkara, Jakarta. The lecturer is Dr. Narko, OFM. On the  dream I see two paper, mid semester  and  final semester.  In reality I fail because I collect semester test paper only.  What means  of  this  dream?

Friday, June 5, 2015

I have  dream. Just as I consultation my thesis to Prof. Dr. Sastrapratedja,SJ. Mr. Maksi Adil dan I use  the same author (pengarang). I forget the  name of author. Than I change. "I interesant to  local culture so I choose  Max Weber idea about Bureaucracy (birokrasi)," I suggest to Proffesor. "Please  choose the  other lecturer, may be Father Purnomo, OFM that match for this topic," he suggest.

The other  dream:
I just as  permission want to go to Lembor. But may be not  long so I can back to school to do the duty. In program Mr. Beny and Mother of Regina  join but may be Mr. Beny not allow mother of Regina to join so  only himself that go there.

Than I arrive in one  building  just as  auditorium / church. There is people that give lecture. I come  that go out. Than I  entrance again and sit down in front  of the  place. Only me that sit down in front of the place. Just as the balck lecture (Flores people) that  give  lecture.

Than just as  get information that be  attact  from the  others that hate our group. All people prepare to run. I just  as  slow. I see the  building. I still save the important things on that room. I wait and  check. I already prepare tric how to save the things  and my life. But....evidently not occur. We make  mass. My family join. Who?I forget.  What means of  this  dream?

Saturday, June 6, 2015
I have  dream. I just as   visit one place. Just as  with the  other  brother, Marcel  and  Fon Jaban? Just as  still have suspicious (curiga) to others. Since October 29, 2015 , there is  suspicion that the death of Esy (Megy's mom)  because  witchcraft (santet) by Marcel - Fon's  family. This  idea   entrance to dream so try to avoid the food that they   prepare. What is  meaning of  this  dream?

Sunday, June 7, 2015
I have  dream on  early morning sleep - after watch Final soccer match of Champion League between  Barcelona vs Juventus. Barca win with score 3 - 1. Ivan Rakitic, Suares and Neymar   make  goals for Barcelona  while  Moratta  for Juventus. Than I sleep on 04.00. Than get up on 07:00. I have  dream. I just as  on one village. I don't  know  what the village  name of  it. I just as  pee. Than I hold in on my vital  organ. I  hold it  use  hand. Than one  moment  can not  hold  again  than  exit. Evidently it  is  wet  dream. 

Than I prepare to go to  join on mass.  I join on First communion  mass  for   students Primary at Saint Albertus Harapan Indah. From our school there are 18 students join on this  event.  As  teacher, I join too. I start to church on  08:00  from  JPS  after  take  the  students book. When arrive there I see the students already line  up. I shame to myself. I sit  down in our of  church. I shame to myself and the others. I'm  so  slow. I see  some  students  parents.The mass  lead by Father Kesharyanto,Pr. There is students that sick. He  is  Christian. He  is participant  the  first communion. The  doctor  handle it. I come  to  give  spirit  to him. The commeettee  come  jo  help him. Than I  join on photo session together  the  other  students, especially JPS  students. I talk wirh Sister (Sr.) Agustine. She  is  from Maumere. She  is  sick. Than I talk with Manggarai  people. He  is  from Waerana / Wae Lengga Manggarai. He  come  to visit his  family here. His grandchild join on first communion today. This  father use  Manggarai  dress is Songke Jacker. He  is retired (pensiunan) of teacher. Than Mr. Bento and I photo together  students. Than we go back. I'm eating in " warteg". I pay Rp 8.000 for  fish of tongkol  and  vegetables. Than I go home. Than I'm sleep. I have  dream. I just as on bosat the  boat is sail. I join. I  feel the  boat by pass  the  black  water. It  is  dirty. It  is  just as  at  Jakarta. What is happen  this  dream. What  relation this  dream  with my  dreams? Help me  Lord.


Monday, June 8, 2015
I have  dream  but I forget to remember  it.

Tuesday, June 9, 2015
I have  dream.  I just as  at  Wela. I see  Mr. Beny  have  car but  so old and  classical. It is already rickety (reyot), rusty (berkarat).  Evendently still  can run. Mr. Beny  Jelami  drives it. He  run to Golowelu  direction.  In the Beny's  kiosk, I see Beny's  families, his  wife, Ms Ina  and Ercy. They still keep kiosk. 


I have  the  other  dream I walk to Wae Usang. In  area Wae siar  and  Wae Usang I see the garden  just as  own the  Golowelu  people. It  just as  the  first garden (uma rana). There is pumkin (ndesi), cucumber (mentimun) etc. 

(This  dream at  Vila Tjokro, kampung Ciburial, desa Tugu, Cisarua, lereng Gunung Gede, Bogor, West Java)
What is mean of this  dream?

Wednesday, June 10, 2015 - VMG

I have  dream.  I am at one  place. I don't  know that place.  Just as procession (prosesi). I see a old  women fall down. 

Than move to one  place. Just as on church. There is mass. I see Nando. He entrance to  altar. May be he  want  to  bring the paper as mass intention. He  come late. So many people that join on mass. 

In other place at  just as  field I see Mr. Sefanus  Agas, my junior when junior, senior high school and at collage.

What means of  this  dream?


Thursday, June 11, 2015 - VMG

I have  dream. I  just as at Wela, exatcly at Nderu Garden. We did activity at  near way  (path) . We just as as picking coffee (petik kopi). The coffee  fruits seem already over  mature (matang). We  pick it  and  put on basket (keranjang).

Wednesday, June 10, 2015 - VMG

I have dream. The location at Wela, exactly at Nderu garden. Nderu is coffee garden. Our activity was picking   coffee  fruits. The coffee  fruits over mature (matang).  We (My brother  and I)  was picking than put on basket. The coffee  fruit alredy red even black. It means over mature. We are late to picking  it. We picking the coffee  fruits in up of the path of  way.  On near avocado tree we stand up to picking coffee  fruits than  move to est at near  frontier (perbatasan) with Mr. Paul's garden.

Than my soul move to the other garden, at Lale, near  Lida and  Coal.  I come to garden to my  brothers, nephew (kemenakan - keponakan). We want to picking coffee  fruits. We move front  one  coffee  tree to the others.  The rain come. We try to  take shelter (berteduh)  under the coffee tree. The coffee  fruit seem over  mature too.

Than my soul move to the other place. I don't  know  the  place. Just as activity of wedding  proposal (lamaran pernikahan). I join there. This  is moment to talk  (ho' wulang tae do), so many bussiness/ affairs (urusan), include wedding. We just as use Manggarai custom. We just as  move  from one  home (village) to  the  other  village.
 ****** What means of  this  dream???

 Reflection:  Relation soul and body: the soul lead body
Than I get up. Today the water in  tap (keran)  at our  rented (kontrakan)  off  so the  water not  flow. I'm not  take a bath on this morning. I fast take mineral water than wash my face. Than I prepare the food: rice, cucumber, banana. I start  to school at 06:33. I drive my motor cycle. I arrive at 06:42 at JPS, not  late  because the time of work start at 06:45 am.  Thank you Lord. Than I save my motor cycle at parking area. I meet  Mr. Pras, SHS  vice principal. "You are seem weak limp (lemah lunglai), do you  overtime (lembur)? "My soul that overtime. I had many dreams in last  evening. The soul activity make me  weak limp (lemah lunglai).  There is relation with  soul dan body. The soul lead  body," I say.



Thursday, June 15, 2015 - VMG   
I have  dream. I  just as see  Wela village from Ntalung Pada. The people just as  busy. There is  building of new house / building. There is  issue  that someone want  to build Protestant Church at Wela.  I come to Mr. Herman Patut  house. Wow... just as   his  house still be renovation to  become a church of Protestant.  It's seem just as  school  of  seminary, the  long  building. I meet  with my family there. Just as  we  want  to celebrate feast (kenduri), custom  party (pesta adat).  I see just as  Ms  Philomena Pamung  (the deceased = almarhumah). I see  Ms Yuliana Maria Ju, my teacher when Primary, I see  Ms Susana Daud, my sister  and  the  other  family.  I just as want  to  protest in my heart  why the Protestan Church  come  to Wela. May be there is  someone  people  not satisfied to Catholic Church  so move  to Protestan Church. What is wrong on Catholic Church so the Protestant  entrance to Wela? Pleasae  move  to  positive  character. What is  meaning  of  this  dream?

Tuesday, June 16, 2015
I have  dream. Just as  I'm  at  river. I can swim on the  river. 

I can see  some Golowelu people, just as Mr. Ema Mbembok, Mr. Yan Jelalu. Just as as  they stay at  Ntalung Pada. I just as shame (shy) to talk with  them

Than I have wet  dream. I just as    fall in love  to my   mom.  I touch her  vital  body. I kiss  it. Wow.....  it  seem   amoral, but  it  is  love. Love  seldom can not  understand  by  mind / brain.

Wednesday, June 17, 2015 - no remember  the  dream. No dream? May be

Thursday, June 18, 2015 - Camp 101, Highland Park Resort  and Hotel  Bogor, Curug Nangka,  Kampung Bujang - Bogor.

I have  dream.  Just as  there  is meeting. I don't  know  where  the  place of  meeting.  I get issue  and news  that  there were people that die. They were  Kani   and ........(one  people I forget).  Kani? I think Kani  Ambor (Mr Linus Laho's child), but  I remember  Kani Jelau, Mr. Bertolo Ngapuk's  child. "They die because Mr. and Mrs.  Bertolo  cut  something, as their  secret  weapon to  protection them.  What means of  this  dream?


Friday, June 19 2015, VMG

I have  dream. I just as want to traveling. I see Mr. Ferdy R. Dana. May be  he will traveling too. Just as we  wait train. The  train come  but  we  slow so late  while the train want to  run. Mr. Ferdy  want to entrance  when the  train want  to  start to. I try to forbear (menahan diri) to do the reckless (nekat). So  we are  lag of train. We see  a  car that usually  the  truck of wood  just as at Manggarai. Just as  the  entrance of school. The car  vying (berlomba-lomba) to entrance  destination area to get passengers. 

Than I have  tyhe  others dream. Just as  there are  couple of fiance (tunagan). The  girls just as  brother sister (kakak adik). The young sister just as want to married earlier than   her senior. But that get  information that her senior already have couple too so may be the senior sister wedding earlier than her younger sister.  What is meaning  of the  dream?


Saturday, June 20  2015, VMG
I have dream. I just as available on one place. Just as it our garden. I stand up on  limit (boundary = batas).  I see my  class mate when major seminary just as Father Ino Dura, Pr. He  is  from Ende. He is diocese priest of  Ende Arch Diocese at Middle Flores.

Sunday, June 21, 2015

I have  dream.
Just as  I am at Wela. Just  as people looking  for wood fire. We  get  the  Lui  wood. Wow.... the  Lui wood  is the good wood  for make  fire because  the light (flash = nyala)  and  choral is good  and  durable (tahan lama). I don't  know  where  we  find  it.

Monday, June 22, 2015

I have  dream but I forget to remember it. When I get up I get wet  dream.

 Tuesday, June 23 2015

I have  dream. Just as I'm at Wela. I just as  visit Mr. Dame Nudi's  house. Mr. Dame  is  die (passaway) on  June 15, 2015. I come to  his house  to say mourn says (ucapan duka) but  may be my family (mother / sister) forbid  me. "No  say  just  as  it," she  said. Wow... What is  meaning  of  this.

Mm  Juan's   dream. Ms Esy (Megy's  mother) come to her. She close  mouth of  Juan's  mother. Than Juan's  mother   call me. "Please  pray her. May be  because  we  forget to pray  her," Ms  Fifi  says.

Wednesday, June 24, 2015
I have  dream.  I just as  at  campus. We just as  talk about  our  lecturer, include Prof. Dr. Alex Lanur, OFM.  He just as  see  than  take  my key motor cycle. He  show   to me  as  sign  want  to  give  to me. Just as  we are  in   dining  room (ruang makan)  / restaurant.  What means  of  this  dream? 

Noter: Yesterday,  Tuesday,  June 23, June 2015, in campus of STFD  we  talk about  him. May be because we  talkt  it  entrance  to  dream.

Friday, June 26, 2015
I have  dream. I use  bus (auto). The bus  jammed (macet) than can  star  and  running again. I see the  nice   vew, just as at Lembor Manggarai. There is people dry coffee at yard of house in margin  road. There is people that put sugar palm fruit (kolangkaling)  near  house. I entrance  to  home. Than I want to exut. The house  use padlock (gembok / globe). I exit through  kitchen, may be I want to toilet.

Saturday, June 27, 2015.
I have  dream. I just as  entrance to a house. Just as tgere is event, just as  want  to sing of song. Than move to  the other  home. I'm  late.


 ------------------------------------  dream during  holiday

.... July, 2015
I have  dream.
I just as available at Golowelu, near Golowelu I school. I just as can fly. I fly with stand up position. Wow... what means od this  dream?
















Sunday, July 18, 2015.
Today, I visit  Mr. Leo and family  at Cikarang. I want to accompany Tanti and Filo. Tanti dan Filo  is the newest Manggaraian women  at Jakarta / Cikarang, West Java. They come together me from Manggarai. After talk  we are sleep. I get bad dream. May be fall in love with  mother. I exit sperm. My shorts (celana dalam)  is  wet. I Wow..... What meaning of this dream?
Monday, July 19,  2015

I have dream when day sleep at Gang Bacang, Rawasari, CPB, Jakpus. I voyage (sail = berlayar) use Ferry ship. While sailing the ship  the ship is shaky (oleng) than fall down to sea (water).  All passengers, include me  fall down. Than I'm aware. I talk. Evidently at out of Mr. Festo's  rented house Mr. Nando still sit down, wait the door is opened. I already promise with him. He came to delivery Ms. Ervy's and her  darling's  the church of  document for prepare of married. Mr. Festo and Ms Hedvy go back from shooping of curtain (gorden) to close window glasses  that seem transparent. Than they entrance. Evidently Ms Nelty  still at bathroom / kitchen. I get up from sleep. I talk with  them. Mr. Nando  submit the  Ervy's document. Than we by the way. We wait Ervy's darling too. Than he comes. We introduce ourself. "I'm Wily," he says. Than we by the way.  We will    married  on Sunday, September 6, 2015 at Stella Maris church of Pluit, North Jakarta," he share  his plan.  Mr. Wily from Lewat, Kuwus district, West Manggarai, Flores.  Lewat is Wela's neigbour village. We talk our family.  Than Ms Nelty prepare the food for lunch. Our menu today is soup of chiecken , rice and fried chicken. Than Mr. Ino and Mr. Joseph go back. Lucky they already  lunch because the food only leave little. We by the way. Mr. Wily go back. He stay at Kota, Central Jakarta / West Jakarta.  I prepare myself  to go back. Mr. Nando delivery me to LIA  shelter. I use busway. I go to Pulo Gadung than continue to Harapan Indah, Bekasi. From  Harapan Indah shelter I use "ojek". Ojek is motorcyle that rent. I use ojek to Villa Mutiara Gading, Kampung Bogor. I pay Rp 20.000.
 

Tuesday, Juli 21, 2015
I have  dream. I fall in love. I copulate / fuck (bersetubuh)  with three womens. May be  want to  know   and test my capability on sexuality. I do it. Three women I success sleep.  Base on dream  my main  sex body have capability to erection. I have experience sleep with three girls. Than I aware (awake). Evidently my main sex body is on. 



Wednesday, Juli 22, 2015.
I have  dream.  I just as play / work at my village. I just as work on building / nature stone of big. I see Ms Ery Ngapuk ( Mr. Bertolo Ngapuk's daughter).   In last  night I got disturb of sleep. I feel so  hot.  I sleep in  guest room on long chair that fill with mat (matras). I produce of  sweat (keringat) because  hot situation. I decide to take mattress (kasur)  or mat  than put on floor. I sleep there  while  open the main door to get wind. Why I get disturb of sleep? May be because  ill  or  mistake eat of something. In last afternoon, I buy fish of  tuna ( tuna = ikan tongkol) with cost Rp 6.000. I buy with soup, vegetable and  condiment (sambal). I eat so full. Why eat so full? Because I'm hungry. I bring food to school but not eat there. I shy because only rice and  banana, no side dish (lauk). So, when go back on 16:00 I buy tuna fish (ikan tongkol) that  mix condiment (sambal). I get up early. I cook soup of vegetable (carrot, potato, leek (daun bawang), celery leaves (daun seledri).  I go to school. I arrive on 06:42 am.
 


Thursday, Juli 23, 2015.
I have dream, but I forget it. In last  night I still get disturb of sleep whereas I'm not eat condiment (sambal)  just as last night / evening. Even (bahkan) I'm not eat rice on last  evening. I only eat banana, drink honey and water. Nevertheless (meskipun demikian) I still feel hot  and disturb of sleep. What is happen with my health. In the morning I get calling  from Juan's  mother that give information that Mr. Ary is pass away today at Persahabatan Hospital, East Jakarta. His bodies (jenasah) already move to funeral home (rumah duka) Saint Carolus, Central  Jakarta. "I will go there next afternoo after school," I say. Mr. Ary from Lembor, West, Manggarai. He ever work at Jakarta. Than he moved to Labuan Bajo, West Manggarai. When sick he got therapy at Persahabatan Hospital, East Jakarta. He pass away there today.



Monday, July 27, 2015
I have  dream. Just as I  walk on one place. I see the river. The water not so clean.


Thursday, July  30, 2015
I have  dream. I just as on one  place. I just as want to someplace. When I exit from one place and walk to one place, my family, include my sister, Ms Merry think that  I want to start to go.  She and  the others stand up than want to shake hand to let me go.  "No, I'm not  start yet," I say.
Than I meet in one  place.Just as I on party place. Just as Manggarai people party. Someone ope music about Manggarai song. I interesant with it. Just as there are people that sale it. I just as order. I think they alredy packing it. Evidently they make it  per song. I regret it. The people that serve it are women. They try to reassure (convince  / persuade = meyakinkan) me to go to some place to demonstrate it. I service. Our body  touch when talking. I touch her body. I feel her body (especially breast). Than  touch the face. "May I kiss you?" I ask to her. Than I aware. Wow.....

 Friday, July 31, 2015
I have  dream. Just as I already move the boarding houses.  I stay at complex  boarding houses. I  dry my dress  after I clean it. I find  with the  others people. I find  my  sleep room that not  tidy. it  is snafu (semrawut). Wow...., what means  of  this   dream?

Saturday, August  1, 2015
I have  dream. Just as here is bad news on my family. Mr. Stanis, my cousin  at Karot, Lelak, Manggarai, his child is pass  a way. We come to support them that still sorrow (berduka). We just as  on group. Than we  go to the  garden in Dantung, Coal, Kuwus Distrik. In last time, our father - mother have garden there. It  is  corn garden. We arrive there. I see the corn (jagung) plan growth  not  well. There is that grow well but  get attack of pest (hama), the leave have hole. The others the leave eat by animal (just as  horse, goat, buffalo, cow). There is spring (mata air) and pool of nature. Mom of Regina swim there. She swim well. The water is  clean and  clear (jernih). Than our group go back. We by pass  Kebe  Lewe way. In way we see  ladder that lighting clean. I step by the ladder. I success by pass it. After that way  we just as see Ms Matil Jehadut. She just as still work on  their  garden. Just as it Mr. Ande Musa's  garden. She  not  give comment.  Than  I just as  contact  with Mr. Bento, my friend  teacher at JPS.  "I' still in the way. I must go back to the first place (garden) because  my mobile phone is lose," he say. He just as  by pass  Tuke  Pandang -Mbarang. Than I arrive at  home. Than Mr. Bento arrive. "I recent  arrive too," I say. He  use  motor cycle. Evidently I forget my helmet in the same   place but I forget to say to Mr. Bento about it so still forget.

The other  place that  I find on the  dream of  this  time is my primary school, SDI Golowelu I. I find in north side, near  forest. I find  bamboo plant at our  of  school fence (pagar sekolah). "This  is  new, it  was not available when we   school of primary in last time, 1981/1982 - 1986/1987. I see  bamboo  and  Pering.  Than I aware.

Sunday, August 2, 2015

I have dream. The venue  at Ntaung Pada. I see the pipes of water. There  are branches  to others destinations.  Mr. Tinus Matul  want to change pipes  may be no water to the place that he mind. He moved the pipe the other channel pipe. I'm worry that can give impact to other place, especially to Mr. Beny and my families: Father Paul and Familes, Mr. Tinus Ntalbot and families. After we change and move channel pipe,  evidently  not  complain from Mr. Beny and my families. It means what that Mr.  Tinus and I do not  give the bad effect to the other channel water pipe.

** Than I just as  move to the other place. I just as walk besides the public space just as mall . public transportation.

Monday, August 3, 2015

I have dream. Just as Mr. Johan Habun is sick of crazy (insane = gila). His sick just as relapse (kambuh) and severe (parah). He just as  walk in Bangka garden. Just as  from  Mae Mese  to village. I see  from  Nderu, garden place. The people try to reach him to avoid him when run but it's difficult. On one time he just as fall down so go back  because the place is sloping (landai) and steep (curam). This condition make peoples can manage him.   Than just as arrive at Plein place. We can  manage him. We get trick to  help and  drive  him. He become recovered.

** The other  dream I  forget. Than I remember again. It is about Mr. Simon Batas  child, especially the children of the second wife. The issue is the Mr. Simon's age is old  while  their children is still young. Can they continue their school? Mr. Simon's second  wife is  from Lewur.  The location to make this issue just as at Wohe.

August 4 - 5, forget the  dream.

Thursday, August 6, 2015
 I have  dream.  Just as my motor cycle lose  from  house, VMG - Bekasi. What is happening  with this  dream? Evidently I  late  arrive at school. I arrive at 06:46,  while   school work start at 06:45. Wow... I'm not get  food many and transportation today. I'm losing around Rp 35.000. May be this  is show on  dream in last morning.

August 7 - 8 , 2015:  have the  dream but I forget to remember it.

Saturday, August 8, 2015
** I visit  one  place. When back by pass a place. Evidently it  is  church of  Catholic. Beside  it  there is Catholic church again.  Two church on near one  place. I by pass  both  church. Just as  church at  city.

What  means?  On Sunday at evening, we  discuss about  Harapan Indah Catholic Church at Mr. Anto's  house. Today (Sunday, Sunday, August 9, 2015),   twice I go to the church at 13:00 and 17:00 (to mass: 17:00; 13:00 to  drop the  equipment of  mass  that I borroe  to JPS  mass.


Sunday, August 9, 2015.
I have  dream. The location at garden of Bangka. On the jackfruit tree (pohon nangka ) there are bee  and the bee and beehive (sarang lebah). We want  to take it. We need it. Just as Mr. John and Mr. Hila  climb  (panjat) it to get the honey bee (madu lebah).  I just as  hear the  sound  rek..... (sound rek (Manggarainese)   that sign the branch want to broken. Mr.  John and Mr. Hila success to  take the honey bee without get attack of  mother bee. Than we go back to home. We by pass  garden of Mr. Basilius Beong / Valens Mahu. This place ussually we by pass. We see the rice  field just as not  yet plant  of  rice plants.


** The other  dream I forget.
Than I seep  at afternoon on 15:00.
I have  dream  about Sandy, my  nephew (Hila's   first son).

Monday, August 10, 2015

I have  dream. I just as  on one place. I meet  with my junior of alumni saint  Klaus: Mr. Maxi (Cumbi), Mr. Kordi (Timung), Mr. Rossy Janggor  (Reweng - Lembor Selatan). They talk about th work / job. We just as already go back to Manggarai, leave  the Jakarta. We just as on one  kiosk at Manggarai. I see a river. The water is  dirty. The rain come. I use  newspaper to protect  myself. Lucky  not  get  wet  of  rain. I see ........(Tian's  brother) that stand up at  rain.

** On one  way of  road (street) I  just as see people that just as  delivery Ms Neni (Mr. Stanis Nami - Ms Lena's  girls). May be delivery to her village of  husband. The  people  walt  to east  direction. Moren available too.

** Just as  on one session  I hear Esy's  mom, Esy . May be they talk something. About  Father  Gaspar?

**  I was at Mr. Largus Gagut  house at Golo Karot - Lembor. We  go to the back of  kitchen as  garden and  cage (kandang) of pigsty (kandang babi). I just as  accompany Josh (George), our nephew, Mr. Hila's youngest  son. Mr. Largus  just as have tree nursery (pembibitan pohon), just as  Ampupu It  is good  to  plan on fence ," I say in heart. Mr. Largus still there (in the gearden). We just as see  view of  Lewur  village that just  as  close by  cloud. The situation justa as at the morning.  Before it I sleep at sleep room. I just as  hear mother Regina  just as delirious. I come to help her. I touch her body. Wow... I touch  her vital  body. Evidently I get  wet  dream.

JPS,  August 10, 2015

Tuesday, August 11, 2015
I have  dream. I just as meet Catholic  nuns. Is  she  Marni, my cousin?. May be. That Catholic  nun is  pregnant. This  is disgrace (aib). On this condition, she want to abort  fetus (menggugurkan janin) on her  womb. She already  reckless (nekat) to do it. Some people  try to avoid  it. I she her  walk to margin road while  hold her  stomach to do the abort of fetus (janin). She success make it. The people try to save her baby. I help this Catholic  nuns (suster Katolik). I help her to entrance to home. I lead her to entrance the stage to second or third  floor. In floor  I find man that still  sleep. We try to  by pass  them. Than in third floor  just as there ar Mr. Edy Hamd  or Mr. Lexy. Mr. Edy still sleep. I hope him  to move to the  other  place to give place for  this  Catholic nuns (suster Katolik) who want to sleep.

** The  other  dream.  The venue  at Ntalung Pada. John said that George (Josh) is clever  child. Let me  lead  him." John  said.

This  dream seldom lose  from  memory than I can  call again to remember.

Wednesday, August 12, 2015 -
My health disturb because dizzy (pusing). I get hypertension. In afternoon I go back than lunch than take a rest. Than I get up on 20:00 pm. After it I difficullt to sleep.

Than  I can sleep . I have dream. Just as  I am in one place. I don't know the  place. I come to port (pelabuhan). I see the Ferry ship still cross. This momen may be  holiday (national or religion). In the port I meet the  women  of   white  skin that stay  and  live  at Papua.  In out port  I give information to the other people that the port still operate (beroperasi), not holiday. The Ferry ship still cross to port destination.  I imagine just as at  Kuwu  for awhile  but  that difference because Kuwu have not  port.


Thursday, August 13, 2015

I have  dream.

** The venue at home at Ntalung Pada. "This   is  Hila's  child  that  clever. Let me lead /  drive him," say John  about  George (Josh), Hila's  youngest  son.

(The  other   dream  I forget)

Friday, August 14, 2015

I have  dream. There is meeting  the  visit  of  Hilary  Clinton. We just as  seminar. She  talk about politic, especially the  Manufatu country of  status. How  about you, whose  own of  it? She  ask to participant of seminar. According to you who is owner of Manufatu, English  or Asia?  she ask. Some  participant  give the response. Tarsi Janggal give the  response. "Manufatu lies at Asia continent," Tarsi says. "Base on map, Manufatu lies at Pasific ocean. The Europe nations colonize the  other nations include Manufatu. English colonize the Manufatu. Evidently Manufatu lies at Pasific Cntinent. It's  own of  Asia not  Europe." I say. Just as Ms Condoliza  Rice - former Minister of Foreign Affairs  USA   see  me  when talking  it.  Wow... what is meaning  of  this  dream?




Saturday, August 15, 2015

I have  dream. I just as  at Wela. I play at Wela Renggang. Just as  I have  dream to  build house there. Than I go to Lida. I sping of Lida I see the   clean  water  exit  from bamboo  pipe. It  is  good  if  I build  home in Wae Mese that  take  water of  clean  here, use  hose (selang)," I dream again .
I just as  move  to Mbarang. I see  people. I ask people to do something. Just as there  are  guest that want to come. They killed  pig than  burn it. The  beacon  seem burn of scorched (hangus). i see Mr. Beny, my oldest  brother. We go to the cofeen tree  near tree of  fig (ara).
Than my soul just as  there is at Rahong. I want to back to Wela. We use   can (bemo). In way there is passenger that want to entrance to  car (bemo). In Goloworok I see Mr. Robert  n foot. I follow. We meet Mr. Ansy Kebabu, my younger classmate when study at Kuwu in last time.

  Sunday, August 16, 2015

I have  dream. The  venue  is  at  Wela, at page of  home  of  Rumah Gendang. Just as  have  activity. The music  ask Mr. Valen Mahu's  music. The  set  the  cable. I see  a boy  sing of  song. Than the people  hear  his   voice is  nice. Than  use  him to  fill the program when activity. I don't  know  who is  he.  Than  move  to  Ntalung Pada.

What  means this   dream.  May be  this event. Today, August 16, 2015, our sister, Nelty is  sick of appendix (usus buntu). Rony delivery her  to  Saint  Carolus  hospital. She  entrance  to UGD. Wow..... Use  much  money to surgery.

Monday, August 17, 2015

I have  dream. I see  my brother shoulder (memikul)   the stone  from John's or  Mr.  Tinus's   house to  his  house. It  is  heavy stone. What is meaning  of  this  dream?

Tuesday, August 18, 2015

I have  dream. I meet  Father  Gaby da Silva,Pr. Father  Gaby is  erector (=builder = pembina)  and lecturer when I studied at Rirapiret Major Seminary and Ledalero High Philosophy School.   I shake  hand  with  him. I don't  know where the  place of  meeting.

The other  dream: I just as  at Wela, especially at Bangka  garden. I available at Mr. Yakobus'  garden that opposite with our  garden. I just as want  to take dry wood in Mr. Yakobus'  garden. I do it. I feel may be  get  complain  from Mr. Mr. Yakobus  or  his  sons, Mr. Ansel and Mr. Teus Weleng.  We just as  take dry   wood for fire  wood. What is  meaning  of this  dream?


Wednesday, August 19, 2015
I have dream. I 'm available in one place. Just as at tourism place. Just as there is animal (monkey) that just as  want to disturb. I walk to terminal. The pander (pimp = calo) want to invite me to use their car. The venue just as at Manggarai (Ruteng)   around (sekitar). "please  with  car of  Mr. Pius Biru. We want to Lembor,"   the crew  bus said. Pius Biru is Wela  people. He  drive  car to  Lembor. Every day he by pass Lembor - Ruteng  wend one's  way home (pergi pulang).

Thursday, August 20, 2015
I have  dream but I forget. Today I get up on 04:00. I cook vegetable, breakfast than start to school. I arrive on time at school.


Friday, August 21, 2015
I have  dream. It  is  about Mr. Paulinus Jemadu / Mr. Agus Abut that already  pass away. Or the people that still   sick , Mr. Bone Kaso. Are  people (man)  that pass away at  Kelompok IV / III  Golowelu  because  occupy (menduduki) the   other people's  land? They buy it from the  other  people. But  base on history the place is own the Wela people. They buy it  from Kuwus Districk people (Satarara, Kolang  and  Coal, Ndoso area). Kolang and Ndoso in last time include on Kuwus  sub District (kecamatan). Wela  lies at Ruteng  district. When problem may be on year 1950 or 1960, the Wela  people lose some  land, include Wae Ireng land   ("lingko"). Wae Ireng become place of  home by Kuwus people. May be because this reason so many people  (man)  that pass  way there. Is  this  right openion?




I have  dream  when sleep at afternoon.
I just as  go to the   a place. Where? Just as at Cikarang. I drive  motor cycle. I parkinbg it at  parking area.  Than I go to one place to handle somethinbg. Than back to parking area. I'm worry  with safe of  motor cycle. I come to the parking area. I see  my motor cycle just as  lose  one handlebar (control = bar = setang). One is  lose. Wo....... What meaning  of  this  dream?
With this  dream I can remember  the other  dream:

1.  Just as  I remember the  dream I by pass  a  place that zigsag -  at one  place
2. Dream about  place that  delivery  Neni Nima

What meaning  of  this  dream?
 Evidently my motor cycle is broken. The leak (bocor)  on drain hose (selang pembuangan). When I go back from  Pertamina to transfer money of registration, I parking motor cycle in front of  house. The gasoline (bensin)  dripping (menetes). I panic. I decide to go to the workshop to repair it. I'm regret because  recent service on last week, August 19, 2015. Why broken now?. I run to workshop. The staff workshop handle it. "Membrane is  broken so change it," he says. Okay," I say. "The membrance  price is 35.000, the charge of repair is Rp 25.000," The owner said. Than I pay Rp 60.000. I'm regret. I get impression (kesan) they lie me that the tools is broken whereas not just as it. Thay only want to  get   benefit  while  make the others lose. Than the staff repair not set one bolt (mur). One bolt is broken," he says. I'm regret. Than I go home. I'm sleep. Than I  get up when go to school I find the  bolt the use  to close the  hose. Wow.... I hear the motor cycle sound just as have sound because one hole no set the bolt. I regret  again.

Function  Dream: Soul  give information before event  come.

Saturday,  August 22, 2015

I have  dream. I just as at  garden at Wela. I  go to  Mbarang  garden. I on foot. Just as  my hand  and  feet  wound  because touch with the  grass (rumput)  of  helas  that  sharp (tajam). Than I just as  meet  with Mr. Nando.  Than we  go back. We see the  garden of Mbarang garden of  Mr. Bone  Kaso. I meet  with Mr. Endy Aron. This  Mabarang  garden already give to Any or  Agness," he  says.  The garden just as  already clean  and  have water,  and  embankment (pematang)   and terracing (terasering). What is  meaning  of  this  dream?

Sunday,  August 23, 2015

I have  dream. I  am at Wela. I visit  Mr.  Fedis Bagus , our  neighbor. He  is  sick. Ti his wife  help him. Ti help him to go to toilet because he can not help   himself . What is meaning of this  dream?

Monday,  August 24, 2015
I have dream. I meet mother Regina (my biological mother)   and mother Bertha  (little mother)  on one house of kitchen (dapur). We by the way.  "Hila want to go to other place...." mother Regina says. Than I aware.

Tuesday, August 25, 2015
I have dream but I forget.

Wednesday,  August 26, 2015
I have  dream. I just as  at  Wela. In  yard  house in Ntalung Pada, Wela  I share experience  with Mr. Hila, my younger brother  and  one  [eople  again - the  name I forget. "Life in Wela  enough difficult  to  get  money," I say. Than I aware.

 Thursday,  August 27, 2015
I have  dream, but I forget.


Friday, August 28, 2015
I have dream. Just as  I clean a  house / bulding / office. I  disconecct the  spiderweb.  I forget the  people (male) that accompany me.
Than I just as  join to funeral (duka)  ceremony (acara) of  father Bone Kaso that recent pass away. I'm late. When I come just as   sp,ething (just as  dog  ) bite me. I'm shock. May be Mr. Bone's  soul angry to me  because  come  late. (Mr. Bone  pass away on August 27, 2015 at 13:00  at Wela).
Please accept my condolences (turut  berduka).


Saturday, August 29, 2015
I have  dream. Just as I am at Lida. I walk there. I see  water near bamboo tree. The water is  clean  and clear (jernih) " I can  collect (accommodate = menampung)  water  than can distribute it to Lida's people of house. Than I can connect with  pipe to give to Wae Mese or Nderu to become drink water." I  think on my brain.
The  other  dream: I just as  on one place. I just as meet  mother Regina. I see her  vita  body. I want to touch it. Wow.... the  romantic dream.

Sunday, August 30, 2015
I have  dream. I just as at Wela. I'm at Mr. Bernadus Barus house. They just as have  problem. I see Mr. Ansel Pu (deceased = almarhum) , Finus  and  Petrus Gaut too. I want to come  to ask them. I see Retha Mues   their sister. What meaning  of  this  dream?

On train  from Kramat to Jatinegara I sleep  for moment. I have  dream. I hear people  that say to me. "How about your  land". May be  before  think or discuss about  land.

Monday, August 31, 2015
I have  dream but I forget it. Why forget  the  dream?  There  are  many reason, among others (antara lain) related with quality of sleep. In last  night i got disturb sleep. My sleep not soundly (nyenyak). I often get up to go to toilet  and  disturb  of mosquito (nyamuk). This  condition affect (mempengaruhi) quality of  memory.

Tuesday, September  1, 2015 - I forget  my  dream
Wednesday, September  2, 2015 - I forget  my  dream

 Thursday, September  3, 2015 -
 I have    dream. Just as I walk in a  village. It  is down  way, just as at Bangka Lau (near Mr. Ande Musa's  garden).   I arrive in   garden that have plant / trees. I see  the monkeys. I want to capture (menangkap). The big monkey just as want to  mock (mempermainkan)  or fight or strike  me. But  it  is  not  happen, but the monkey already square off (ancang-ancang). 

The other  dream.
I just as still  on down  walk. I already  pass (melewati)  that place. I see  from the other  place that  from the place that I pass  can  see  view  a  place (village) nicely. What menas  of  this  dream?


On afternoon I go to the  campus STF Driyarkara, Jakarta. I use  motor cycle. I save it at  Cakung station at  private  parking. I pay Rp 5.000. Than I  emtrance to train. I late because the train  stop only for moment. Lucky there is the other train. May be the interval  5 minutes. I  get chair to sit down. I sit  down. I read the book. I'm sleepy and  have the   dream. The  dream temptation me in gate of  memory. May be I'm tired. I tansit at  Jatinagara. Lucky not  lake the train  stop.  I exit at Kramat. Than I use  car 04. I pay Rp 3.000. I  stop at Rawaserong  bridge. I arrive  late at campus  at 17:30. Prof Aloysius Nugroho  give lecture. I'm tired. My eyes exit  water. Than the dream / tempt  twit (menggoda, ). "Mr  Frans  you are seem lackluster (loyo) may be because   come  from  far  place." Mr. Roy said. Wow... tired.

Friday, September  4, 2015 - I forget my  dream.


Saturday, September 5, 2015
I have  dream.
I just as  at  Langkas , Wangkung  Rahong. I just  as want to  go to the my village, Wela.  I on foot. Afternoon  come. I confuse go on to Wela or  sleep in Cancar at Ms Lely's  house. If  continue  to Wela, I must ask Mr. John that  have  motor's  cycle  to  pick up me.  I'm still  make consideration it.

Than I have  the  othe  dream. The venue is home / yard of Mbaru Gendang Wela. Just as  we collect with Mother  Mina  Jenu   and family at  yard . We (Mother  Regina, Mery and I)  just as see a place just as burial  (tomb, sanctuary = makam, kuburan). Than just as want to go to the  other  place, go to Lembor? We just as  offer  it  to Mother  Mina  and  family. Our destination there is Golo Karot, Lembor  at Ms Yustina Jelita's  house, my eldest (sulung)  sister.

With  this  dream I can   remember  the  other  dream:
1. Just as  in  a city, want  to go to the other  place, jusr as situation at Cancar but  want  to go to the other  place  use the  car
2. I just as by pass Weol / Popor  to entrance Meler - by pass  branch to  :engor / Purek
3. Dream by pass sea - use  boat - that  have big  wave
4. By pass  field (padang) - see  spring - water
5. By pass  stone of  rock ( rock = batu cadas) etc.



Sunday, September 6, 2015
I have  dream. I just as moving (pindah)  house  to Mr. Philipus Jeharut's  house  at Wela. I use  the house. In back of  house of  kitchen I wash my dress. In back of house there is  tap (keran) water. I use the  water.Than Mr. Rober  and mr. Ino say to me about safety in order to carefully when use the  water  for safety the house. Why? May be the house  lies at tilt (miring) area or sloping (landai) so  be carfully to use  water to avoid  avalanche (longsor). They  try to remaind meassage of their  mother that already pass away, the deceased (almarhumah),  Philomena Pamung.  I try  to  understand what they say and  mind.

The other  dream.
I just as at Wela tomb (burial / sanctuary = pekuburan). I and my brother, Mr. Beny want to pray. Just as I want to leave the village again to back to  foreign country. We just want  to  pray at sanctuary of  ancestry. I'm  nude (telanjang). The situation alredy evening. We use the  flashlight (senter). Mr. Beny and I have it. From intersection of  road we  turn to sanctuary (kuburan). Mr. Beny by pass on the  other way. I se my flashlight to  light  the  road. I arrive at  ancestry. I see the shroud (kain kafan). It's own the other ancetry but I take it. I want to  close  my body that nude (telanjang). I take  and  use  it  to close my body. I'm  worry too because it's  the  dress of  the spirit )people that already pass away). I smell the bed smell. When arrive there. I  see yhe  sanctuary of ancestry  have  land that already  clean just as  entrenchment (galian) land  and  heap (timbunan)  land. Beside it I just as  see the  sloping land. On the other  side I just as see Mr. John and Mr. Ino try to comment  while  light the  place.  Wow.... the  dream that  make sleep. What is  meaning of this  dream? Le we wait and see what is happening in my life. I surrende my life to you, Lord.

Monday, September 7, 2015
I have  dream.
I just as by pass Jl. Boulevard Raya Harapan Indah, near Pasar Modern / Terminal of Harapan Indah. I drive motor cycle. Beside  me I see Ms. Eny and  man friends. They just as  joke to me. I try to  be positives.  Than I by pass the muddy road. I see many people there on  road and on one place.  I see Ms Cathrine just as  ask me about author (pengarang) Indonesia Raya Song. "The author Indonesia  Raya song is W.R Supratman," I answer.  Than I move on to the mud road. I meet my classmate  when major seminary, Father Gabriel Harim,Pr. He talk something to me. In climb  road I see people  try  drive motor cycle. It  is challenge (tantangan) to them. I see  Mr. Yan (former programmer at Optima company, former my place of work).  I  see  him to push the motor cycle. May be  he just as want to  increase the motor cycle the good  place  while me on the top. I help him. I pull  his motor cycle.  What is  meaning  of  this  dream??

With  this  dream I can see the  other  dream:
1. I walk on one  place, just as  at Ratung. I want to go the the other place.
2. I remember  dream that a village that have tree (palm, "kalo), than  walk there than by pass until just as arrive at  Peri - Lembor
3. I rember  when I by pass  place that  have the mountain, forest with tree  and  rope of forest that long.
4. I remember the place just as at wohe / waning when I go to the  Lewur. I see  the cottige at near Lewur, just as between Lewur and Goloworok
5. I can  remember  the place  that  just as new  road, winding  twist (berkelok liku) just as  want to go to Lengor.



  Tuesday, September 8, 2015
I have  dream.  I meet  with Mr. Andreas   Parera. Andre is Maumere  people  that stay at Bandung. I join on politic. He join with PDIP. He is legislator now. "He  is  local people but  can success in national  region. We  talk  his action (sepak terjang). 
The other  dream.
I seem join on Saint  Claus  Kuwu  reunion (reuni) taht  may be manage by IKHLAS - Jakarta. Than I  aware that I'm not  consistent ( konsisten). I'm  shame. Why? I already  try to reject  to all activity that manage by IKHLAS. Why? I just as  think that it is  not  important because   not effective to the  "alumnus"  because  extravagant (boros)  money  while  zero result. I reflection it. So I decide to  break to follow the activity. When I join on this activity know  I show  my weakness, I'm  not  consistent. It's  the  reason I'm  shame. There  is Mr. Alex  Maji beside me.  Mr. Alex  gratuated of  Kisol seminary. 

What  means  of  this  dream?
For  second  dream - shy.
This  is  reality.  I get  shame   at Campus  because  not  prepare the  material of  presentation while  the  first  presentation of  Hanannah  Arent  and  Public start  today.  I'm miss communication. In our  discuss  with  my  presentation group: Mr. Bayu, Ms Betty and I  the presentation  occurred (terjadi) on next week, Tuesday, September 15, 2015. Evidently start  today, while I'm not  read nicely it  and  nt  make  the presentation. The lecturer , Dr. Frengky Budi Hardiman - seem angry. Ww..., I'm  shame. Today only Ms Betty and Mr. Bayu that make  presentation. "Please you presentatin on next week, during 5 minutes," Fr. Frengky says. Wow... I'm  late  to prepare  the  task of lecture.

   Wednesday, September 9, 2015 -  forget the  dream


  Thursday, September 10, 2015 -  forget the  dream

Friday, September 11, 2015
I have  dream.
 My brother, John  , and one people again - I forget  - and I I just as  by pass  Lida, may be  come back  from garden, Lale. We by pass the  the Lida's spring water (mata air) that lies at margin of  road. Lida is village near  our village, Wela. It  lies at nort of Wela. In last July 2015  when i by pass  there  the water none. But   on this  dream already have  water. The  water  flow (mengalir)  from  bamboo  shower (pancuran). There is  banyan tree (pohon beringin)  there.  We by pass this palce. We by pass on old place that we usually use in last time when go the garden. I see the  place  have  grass but  enough  steep (curam). May be if no grass it is dangerous  place.
What is meaning of this  dream?


Saturday, September 12, 2015 - No remember  the  dream. Was  I have  dream in last  night? I don't know.

Sunday, September 13, 2015
I have  dream. I just at  in Bangka. I by pass there. I see  the  view  that  good / nice.  The village at hill (bukit) . It  is  so nice. "It  is  proper to promotion (promosi)  for  tourism  place. 

Tha just as  I want to  traveling, just as  want  to back to Jakarta  after  holiday. I just as  want  to use the  Dunia Mas  Bus, although it  may be  only stop at Surabaya. I know  it.


Monday, September 14, 2015
I have  dream. Just as  meet  with Mr. Rizal  Ramli in one  place. Many peoples there. We are  eating together on one room just as Restaurant. "If just as this condition -   full stomach  because eat big - we want to go to toilet to urinate," he says  while the other people follow him too. I try to hold myself to go to toilet until eat activity  finish. Evidently my vital body want to urinate too.


Tuesday, September 15, 2015
I have  dream. I see my motor cycle. Just as there is component yang broken. I late know it. It is  near machine. I neglect to manage it nicely.

Wednesday, September 16, 2015
I have  dream but I  forget it.


Thursday, September 17, 2015.
I have  dream. I meet  with my brother / niece (nephew), Mr. John / George ( Hila's youngest son). He (John / George) just as want to ask  help to  make  poem. Just as have school  duty.  I  concern (prihatin) with this condition. In my heart   want  to  help him. Than I  just as  beach . I entrance to water / sea. The  water is  clean but in  seashore (pinggir pantai) seem the land that  and the left of wood / leaf that bring water. I see the frog, just as  die. I don't  take / catch the  frog.  Than I back to  the place  that is available John / George.  I just as  have intention (niat) to help him (George / John). 

On the  half conscious, I just as  feel there is people that touch my feet to   wake up me (membangunkan) me. Than he  go out  from my room. I can not direct get up because  still sleepy, because   tired  and  late  sleep in last night.  I was joined evening lecture.

What is  meaning the  dream?
Evidently today Mr. John birthday. I sent sms to say congratulation to him . "Today Mr. Wens Genak pass away  at Denpasar Bali when  went to there to care  and  check up there. Mr. Wens is teacher at  Golowelu primary. "I  Please accept my condolences (turut berduka cita)  for this   sad news," I write on sms.

Thursday, September 18, 2015.

I just as follow on discuss. Just as to Mr. Ferdy Hasiman I say that I want to  write about Manggarai culture.
I'm  in one  place (room). 

Than I just as  walk at Ntalung Pada. I see  Mom  Regina  walk to down (just as  want  to go to  home, in front of Mr. Leo Ladu's  home). 
(I can remember this  part  of  dream after  21,5 hours (06:00 am - 21:30)- Remember  when have  stimulant (stumulus = rangsangan, I should be success  for my self  and  mother - father  and  family).

 
The  other  dream I forget.


Saturday, September 19, 2015.
I have  dream. I just as  on public area, just as Market. There I see Ms Lidya - friend teacher - at JPS just as promote  something. She very smooth  to comment  to  sale  it. Than the police  come. Just as Ms Lidya sale something illegal so the police  hunt  (chase = mengejar) him  and  the  others. She  runs. Than I see the   student (mahasiswi). Their  face is good. They use  campus  jacket. I'm near them.  

The other  dream  I forget.

Evidently I  get  wet  dream.

What  is  meaning  of  this  dream?

I can remember  this  dream  after 2 hours.  Seldom  it  just show up (muncul begitu saja).

 


Sunday, September 20, 2015.

I have  dream. I just as at Lida, near  Wela. There are 2  waterways (saluran air) . Just as at Wae Mese / Jembatan Wae Rencong. One  waterway to Lida's people  garden  and  one to Wela  people's   garden. Wow... what is meaning the  dream?


The  other  dream 
I just as  move the house. Just as on lonely place. I entrance there. When I see  nicely evidently it  old  house  with bamboo  wall. I see  the  other house. I entrance to the  house. The  others people come to accompany me  too but I forget who the name.  What is  meaning  the  name.


The  other  dream  - VMG

I 'm sleepy until have  dream while I read the book  while  eat. I just as  on one  place when a pair boy and  girls  come. The boy sit down beside me while the  girls on grade (tingkat) of  bad room. They want to sleep. Than I aware. Wow........

The  other  dream  - JPS - at teacher  computer.

When I write expereince at school I sleepy. I have dream. I see and  hear Mr. Leo say:  " sangged reweng de ae  kae  sama  reweng dite situ," he  said in Manggarainese.

 
Monday, September 21, 2015.

I have  dream.  The venue at Wela's  sanctuary (cemetery = pekuburan). Just as want to make reforestration of sanctuary. It's already  pioneered (dirintis) by Father Marsel Agot, SVD. On the other parts (North part)  the tree already grow (bertumbuh) well. Just as the  acacias (pohon akasia). It's  nice  if the sanctuary (pekuburan) grow by  plan and  flower. If  have  people  that want to buried  (bury = menguburkan) the pass away people it  is okey on the  nice location. 
Than just as  I see the  other  people. They already prepare to make  custom event (acara adat), just as Penti.  The offering animal alredy prepare. I see  father Paulus Habut  and  just as  father  Bone Kaso too.  Wow... what is meaning  of  this  dream. 
(Evidently  today at Wela, there is traditional ceremonies to Mr. Paulus Habut and Mother Paulina Gawut). All their sons and  daughters  give respect to them through ceremony of "Teing Ela Tinu", symbol remuneration (balas jasa) the children to parents. I know  this after 4 or 5 days when my sister, Mary give information about this  and  read my brother - Mr. John -  status on  face book).

Tuesday, September 22, 2015 -  no remember the  dream.

Wednesday, September 23, 2015 -  no remember the  dream.

 Thursday, September 24, 2015 - 

I have  the  dream. The others  and  me  just as  go to Mr. Ino's  house in city. Than I just as  want to do something.I looking  for  the  path. I go to there. The paths / aisle (lorong)  is  tarnish (becek). There are  mud  that  dirty.  I turn  and  see  to  left side. I see the  wat / path / aisle (lorong). The mud so many and  the  water is dirty. There is  house  and  shop that still open around it. I'm reluctant  (enggan)  to go to there. Than I  swivel (putar) to right. I reach the good place that not  so  dirty in  left  side. There  we  talking. May be I'  together  Mr. John ? Mr. Ino.

Before it , in the other  dream, I just as   get duty to do something, just as  read  / presentation something .  
What is meaning  of  this  dream?

 Friday, September 25, 2015 -  Saint  Klaus School of Kuwu - Manggarai  party of the  patron name.
I have  dream.  The venue just as  at Wela.  I see  my brother, Mr. John so active on  village activity. May be  he got  duty  from village to so something  with give  reward just as  project.


Dream........ 2015(?)  (2014?)


I have  dream.
There is  mass  at  "Mbaru Gendang Wela". There is Father Marsel Agot, SVD. There is Micky Pandu just as wait  bus to go to Labuan bajo.  What is  maening of this  dream?


Sunday, September 27, 2015.
I have  dream. Just as  I'm at Wela. I see my senior  brother,  Mr. Beny angry to  my younger brother Mr. Hila. Why? May be because Mr. Hila just as debate almost fight  with Mr. Hubertus because  fight land border (batas) of  gaden.  The venue just as at Nderu. When hear it, Mr. Beny ask John to call Hubert to discuss about this topic.
What is  meaning of this  dream? May be  argue or debate in home about Sandy, still  school at Fransiskus school of Ruteng   or move to Golowelu school . Mr. Hila get difficult to pay the school fee and  rents and equipment money (photo copy, etc). My sister, Sr. Sophy  call me to talk about it at afternoon today.


Journey,  Sunday, September 27, 2015.
I sleep at Mr. Tony Tarang's house at   across (di seberang)  Podomoro University /  Taman Anggrek Mall, Citraland, West Jakarta. I'm sleep not  soundly (nyenyak). Mr. Tony get up early. He is jogging. Than he buy mineral water for me. Than he offer  soft drink to me  and  cake. He take  cake  from refrigerator (kulkas). It is cool. I eat it after soak at hot water.  We eat while talking. Mr. Tony is my senior when SHS of Saint Claus - Kuwu. He delivery me to shelter of Podomoro. I use busway. The time show at 07:35 am. I get cost of ticket Rp 2.000.  I go to Cawang. My destination is  Waling Kotas, East Jakarta.  Enough long time I don't use  this way. Almost one year.  The big bus way (articulated bus = bus gandeng)  by pass Jl. S.Parman, Gatot Subroro, MT Haryano than entrance to UKI. I stop there. I'm lucky that I I direct get  bus way agan. I want to  Kampung Melayu. On my brain by pass  Jl. Otista, evidently there is  the other alternative  is by pass By pass -Jl. Ahmad Yani. I stop at shelter  fly over  Jatinegara. I stop for moment than the busway  what destination of Wali Kota  come. I entrance with the others passenger. Than I gett chair tosit  down. I sit  down at  back so I can free see the  view to left and  right. When arrive at Raden Intan shelter the passenger onyl 2 persons. Than when arrive at  near  Buaran  live the rest only me  until at Wali Kota. I alone untl Wali Kota shelter. I  exit go to toilet that exit the  shelter. From up shelter I see the my motor cycle at parking area. It is  safe. I 'm entrusted since   yesterday. Than I give the letter if as ticket at evidence (bukti) entrusted (titip). I pay Rp 2.000. It  is enough cheap. Than I trun at neat Kelender Baru Station, turn to Jl. Penggilingan - Wa;i Kota -  Taman Modern - Metlend Menteng -  Harapan Indah - Home. I buy vegetable than go home. I cook  vegetable  than sleep. At 12:00  I get up, take a bath than  lunch. Than I go to school. I read news, include news at face book.  Mr. Peter  come. We  by the  way. Than I write the blog.


 Monday, September 28, 2015.
I have  dream. I just as on a place. May be at village or  complex  house.Just as  have  channel to throw out (dump = membuang) something. On the end  channel there is forest / field (padang). I see just as there is something that be wasted (dibuang) on ravine (jurang). On the other time I want to see the end result for something thab be discarded (wasted). On my image, the channel at Mbarang Eta, and the end of  place of dscard at to Golo / Bak, near Nderu. But  when I see from  Bangka  no anything I see   that near Wae Bak / Golo / Bangka as result of  discard.  I see the people by pass the  filed (padang) use the motor cycle. They fall down on that field. What is meaning of this  dreram?
 

Tuesday, September 29, 2015.
I have  dream. Just as I'm at one place, just as at garden or at  park.  We have activity there.  Just as we permit  animal just  as monkey  do their  activity at their nature. We try to respect.

Than just as we service  a baby. He / she just as defecated (membuang hajat) on  trousers.  help him/her. Than I use the same  dress to him / her. May be she / he fill not  good  because  use the old  dress.
What is meaning of the  dream?


 Wednesday, September 30, 2015.
I have  dream. In  the  dream I see  my mom  stand up in front  of me. I see  her. Just as my  instinct (naluri)  of sexuality rise up. I want to  come to near her  and  approach  her.I want  to  touch her  mail / vital body. Wow... almost  bad dream.  The  other  dream I  forget.
 

 Thursday, October 1, 2015.

I have  dream. Just as  have activity in our home at Wela. May be this is party.  Just as  my father - the deceased (almarhum)  Mr. Gaspar  come  / present too.  We wait Mr. Philipus Jeharut - village  leader - to start  activity of  adult. We already spread (membentangkan) the mat  and pandan cushion (bantal pandan = lose  rea).

In the  other  dream just as  have activity,  likely  field trip . I coordinate the activity.  What is meaning of this  dream.  Just as  this is  make me  sad.

Thursday, October 1, 2015.
 I have  dream. but  my  memory can not  remember  it. I know that I have  dream.


Saturday, October 3, 2015.

I have  dream. I'm just as at  Terang. On talking just as I hear  complain about Mr. Robert  Karjon  from his  brothers.  Mr. R. Karjon  take  his  brother land   of  house in Terang, include  to  Mom Berta's property.  Mr.Nando    dan Mr. Bona's  part  he  take too. 
The  other  dream, just as  fall  down  from motor  cycle but lucky not  injury ( cedera). 

The  other  dream. It  is  about Nggerang,  story of  Manggarai, Flores.
I am  just as  at  Manggarai. From a hill (bukit) . We see to direction (arah) Ndoso area, especially to  Ndoso village. I dialog  with Mr. Yohanes (Yan) Turut. He is  from Raja village, Ndoso. From a hill we  stand up  he  show (showed ?)  me  Nggerang's  tomb (grave = kubur /makam).  He  show it  to me  use  his  hand. I'm curious (penasaran).  We stand up  while  walk to see  it  but when we see it  just as not clean again. The location just as at  Satar Randang / Wejang Buang,  Wela  hill, can see  nicely to  Ndoso area, or  in Namut / Lagar/ Cireng - Rahong, can se  nicely to  Wae Kang / Kakor or at Tebing Tinggi, Ruteng  that can see  nicely to  Ka / Karot. When we see the Nggerang's  tomb   we can not see  nicely. We can see  by pass there  way, use the way use our  near our  path, whereas I usually by pass the other  way.  Mr. Yohanes (Yan)'s  house at  hill.
The  other  dream I  forget ( Nggerang  dream I can remember again after  forget during 5 hours.  I write the other  dream (Land  's Mother  Bertha  -  Robert Karjon in Terang)  at  18:30 pm, Oct 3, 2015. I try to call my memory about the other  dream but can not. I  try and  try but  fail. I resigned (pasrah)  while  build hope that I can remember it again. My memory can help me. I can remember Nggerang  dream  at 23:30  when I already arrive at home, want to  sleep. I write it at a paper.  And  on Sunday. October 4, 2015 I write this  dream on this  blog).

I sleep at middle  day. I have  dream but I forget too. Why  forget the  dream? Where is  place to save the  dream, at  long term memory  or  at short  term memory?

Sunday, October 4, 2015.
I have  dream. Just as at  Kuwu, Saint  Nikolas (Santu Klaus). Just as  have Caci activity. Caci  Manggarai  culture  that 2 men reciprocal hit (memukul) / whip (mencambuk)  and parry (menangkis). When one people get chance to hit  his opposite  parry (menangkis). Hit only once. After it   change, his opposite hit  and the other parry (cambuk).  When  rest of Caci, i just as walk to Kuwu village. There I find  the  people that join on Caci activity. They sing of  song. I forget to remember the song.  Than I continue to  walk to way to Cireng direction. In margin road I see  the pipe of  water. The other  water flow at  land, only part flow at  pipes. The  water is clean. Than I go back. I just as  see  hte Islam school, just as Islam State University (Universitas  Islam Negri = UIN). The  write use Arab written even the of Church and  bell in church  and  the Cutom house. All use the Arab (Moslem)  written  In front of Kuwu Church and Custom Home / House . In Kuwu, Church and Custome Home  dealing (berhadapan). Just as  have  traditional ceremonies  (upacara adat), like Penti (give thanks / thanks giving ceremonies) that have pray / traditional (adat) rituals. Usually traditional ritual lead by Village leader or his spokesman (juru bicara). After the taditional ritual, I hear suggest of Mr. Paulus Jalu - one of  leader of Wela Village  - : "In next time, no need to pray use  traditional ritual, we combine on Mass," he said. When I hear it, I disagree, because it make the traditional ritual death and it  lose and it   lose the  function of task of the leader village  of  spokesman ( tukang  tudak / torok).  Than I aware. What is meaning of  this  dream.


Monday, October 5, 2015
I have  dream.
I just as  at one  place, want to traveling to another  place  for one  purpose. I on foot. Just as  it  is  traditional area which the transportation not  fluent. I on foot  to reach some place that  have tree, just as  forest. Than I see the  road that base  stone  and  land. I want to use ojek. In mu mine  want to Pemana Island. It  means the traveling by pass  sea. Just as the are near  beach. If  use ojek to reach the place may be the cost is Rp 50.000. I see the other  people there. I imagine the  traveling use  boat.

The  other  dream
Juast as at Mbarang  garden. Beside  our  garden there is  Bober Galut's  garden that already  sold  to Mr. Bertolo Ngapuk. Bertolo  clean the  garden. The  grass already  dry. Beside it just as the  garden own by Mr. Yakobus babur. There is  green  grass. I see the  cock of  forest (ayam hutan /  , rata in Manggarainese). I catch it. I success  to catch  2 babon (ayam jantan)  than I'm busy to do others so  left / leave it. I only success to get one.  What is meaning  of  this  dream?

The  other  dream that I can remembert  this  time:

I can remember the  dream about  just as travel in  reality. 

Tuesday, October 6, 2015
I have   dream  but  I forget to remember it.

Wednesday, October 7, 2015

I have  dream. The venue at Wela, especially at Wae Ulu - Wela. I see the Wae Ulu Spring Water. The people move the center t o take water. If usually  the "eye" of water near  road, now move to up, far  from road. I see the pipe to new hole of spring. The people destination to  east of the old place. I see  many  spring there. I  think it is good  for Wela people because have many source of water. What is meaning of this dream?

The other  dream.. I meet with my classmate at Labuan Bajo. They are Mr. Dedy Tutu  and Mr Ricky Genggor. I see some women. I  mention activity reuni our class of JHS  Saint Claus, year 1986/1987 - 1989/1990.  In actual wolrd I see picure reune  my friends, Ms Mersy Jelatu cs: I mentioned Yessy Supartan.This is Yely Supartan. Just as Yely is Dedy's  wife. I talk with Mr. Ricky. Mr. Ricky  and Mr. Dedy is my  classmate when Primary School. Now, both of them work at Manggarai, at Ruteng and Labuan Bajo.
What is meaning of the dream.

 

Thursday, October 8, 2015
I have  dream. The venue ia at  Mr. Endy Jaweng' house. Just as his  house have generator for electric. The other people in their  house  ask electric to his house. I see pillar just as relay (?) - pemancar - in his  yard.
What is meaning of this  dream?


Friday, October 9, 2015
I have  dream.  I just as  find  myself  in one  place that  use  simple dress. My pants (pantaloon) just as get  acid of body  that we  find when  wet  dream.  What is meaning of this dream?
The other  dream I forget.

Saturday, October 10, 2015
I have dream.  I just as do the traveling. I farewell (pamit) with my mom, mother Regina. I kiss  her. We just as as recent out of car (turun dari mobil). Than I aware.  What is meaning the  dream?
I want  to call  mom  to know her  condition. On middle  day I do it. I talk with  her.
She is still  good.

Sunday, October 11, 2015

I have  dream. I just as at  field  of Mbaru Gendang Wela. I meet  with my junior  brother, Mr.Hila. He is standing up at  their  kiosk. "Stop. This  is  the  end,"he  said  just as  response others. I try to interpretation of   his speech that  he want to close his business of  kiosk  because less  money  or losers (merugi).


Monday, October 12, 2015

I have dream. The location at Bangka, near bamboo  (Belang)  of Ande Mantol.  We just as want to go back to village. When arrive in garden of Bernadus Bakal / Dame Nudi , there is coffee tree there. I pull (berry = pluck = pick = memetik)  coffee that already red and  somes still yellow and blue. I see myself  use  the old pick color dress  and black  trousers.  I enjoy it. That time, Father Bone Kso just as  stay at Bangka Lau  while  mother  Regina  stay at Bangka Le. I see the other people busy in their garden at Bangka and Wae Wela. This  is season of work. The people concentrate to plant and  weeding (menyiangi rumput). What the  meaning  of  this  dream?


The  other  dream  forget.
Than I try to use  the other tool to find it. In last  morning I already  write at on hp but when I see  no sms about it. May be the memory is full. So it  is  lose  whereas I already  write it.  

But on Tuesday, October 13, 2015, I see on my mobile phne. I find that the sms that I sent yesterday morning available  on sms. I  open it. I find the  dream that I forget.

The  dream is.

Just as I sent article to Mr. Ferdy Hasiman. Than he edit. He call me to change the title about the  mine (Pertambangan). I'm  confuse because I think that I'm not  write about it. Than I'm  aware. What is meaning  of  this  dream?



Thank you  Jef  and  HP



Tuesday, October 13, 2015
I have  dream.
I just as at Wela. Just as  from river near Emad  Ruben  vs  Emad  Oni  have  shortcut  way  to go to Emad Edit's  house. I see  someone that in lasr time by pass this  way already almost arrive there.

****
The other  dream:
I just as  on harbor (pelabuhan) want to go somewhere. But I don't  know to go where  place.

The  other  dream  forget.


Wednesday, October 14, 2015

I have dream.
I just as available on one place. I see the  river. The  water is  clean. On last time the river of  streamside (arus sungai)  is big  but  now less  may be  because  dry season. I see it on  bridge. I'm not  entrance to river  only see  from the other place.


I have the  other dream. Just as I available on one place. Just as on party place. I meet  with my classmate when junior and senior   and college, Mr. Vitalis Fifa.  When meet I call him, Vital. I come together my younger brother, Mr. Rony. "Mr. Rony as  journalist," someone introduce Rony's  job  to   the others.
Than I meet  with the other  classmate, Father Egis Masri,Pr. "Where do your  work now?" I ask. "I work at Werang Parish, Kempo region,  West Manggarai," he said. "Where is frontier / boundaries (batas) your parish?" I ask. I it  cross  rivers (Wae Nengke and Wae Kepe) entrance to  Lale, Wela Region," he answer.  "How come," I ask with   wonder (heran)  because I know it  is  so  far  from Werang. Than just as he explain. Lale  is  region is  part  of  Kempo region. The ethic in Lale same with Kempo. he  expalin. "Oh... I remember about explain of  it through the book that writtrn by Dmian Toda. According Damian Toda,  in last time the local custom have  office at Peri - Lembor," I explain to him. Than I aware. Wow...... (This  dream math with idea of J. Lacan: re centering of personality  from  awareness to unawareness). 

Thursday, October 15, 2015
I have dream. The venue  at Wela. I on foot  from Wela to Ntalung Pada. When I arrive at Merkedila, I see a colt  truck still  turn to reverse direction (balik arah to west / Golowelu direction). The car may be go to Terang as destination. The driver  from Dahang - Edu / Ardu - may be ever school at Golowelu when junior school.  The engine just as broken.It's  problem when starting. Than success. I arrive at T - junction (pertigaan  - T) of Ntalung Pada. I meet  with Mother Regina and my older brother Mr. Beny. They talk with me. "Mr. Beny ask me to change the  dress. I just as want to go to Terang.  I see  that there is place  for make new   house for me. The location at Mr. Paulus Habong's house. The main pillar already planting (tanam). I see the frontiers / boundaries (batas) down (north)  and up (south)   There is issue that  Mr. Geradus Dabut is sick and  bring  to Terang to avoid the  bad condition. Just as  his  wife  from Terang.  Suddenly I  call my sister, Ms Merry.  She is at Terang. She just as sick. I talk with someone. Than I hear Mr. Merry  sound / voice. "Please call Mr. Beny  come  to  help me," she asked. In the  dream just as  Mr. Beny still at  Lembor.

Note - Reflection: this  dream make me  sad. Why? In Manggarai's  believe that if  dream make  house means make cemetery (pekuburan) /tomb (makam), it means  want  to  die. I afraid  to  die.  I'm worry my families too, especially Ms. Merry. Is she health or  sick?. In the  morning I pray. I surrender my life to God.

Friday, October 16, 2015.

I have  dream. The location at one place.  The memory talk about  our grand mother and grand father, Amed  and  Ined Lina. They were from Lasang, Kolang, Kuwus. Both very love to our family especially to father  and  mother. My mother, Regina already become strays (piatu) in  Karot Lelak. In this condition,  her  grand mother, Landom  at Lasang  care to her and her brother, Mr. Rofinus (Inus). They  back to Lasang. Grand mother, Landom  and little mother Ine Lina  (Wihelmina  and  her  husband Wilem) -  help to live mother Regina and her brother, Rofinus. Landom and Wihel very  care to Regina  and Rofinus even they already merried . Mother Regina merried with  Gaspar  from Wela. They  live in Wela. Although  my mother already married, Grand mother Landom and mother Wihelmina still   care to Regina  and  her family in Wela. For me the  grand mother  real that I know is  Wihelmina. She very kind. I ever  visit  her when primary. On the  end  I visit  her on  1 July 2014. That time I went together  Saver Aban.

On the  dream on this  morning  talk about Grand mother  and grand father  kindness.  Just as  I come  from Wela. May be in Lasang someone talk and show about tools, just as  dog as heritage of grand mother and grand father.   The tools just as  dog picture.  It is  just as  weapon game to derection to me. I stop for  moment.

On the  other  ground  just as  there is  couple that want to married. In my mind  just as  Micky Pandu?  someone in the other  room just as  ask / koke about it.  What is  meaning  of this  dream.

The  other  dream is  forgetting  may be  because I sleep late in last  night.


Saturday, October  17, 2015

I have  the  dream.
The location at Wela, near Mr. Paskalis's  house. . Just as  have issued that Mr.Paskalis Jemanu  want to divorce (cerai) woth his  wife, Ms. Eny.Ms Eny is teacher of Primary with status civil servant s (PNS). Than just me want to change Mr. Psakalis Jemanu because  from education background it is adequate (suffice = memadai). What os meaning of  this  dream?

Than I sleep in the middle  day. I have  dream. Just as  a child of  women call me while take a bath (the  water is  clean). What is purpose she calling me? To give information that there is calling in my mobile phone to me. My position still in bath room, enjoy take a bath  still throw (mengguyurkan)  water to body. The women chil shout to call me. "Am I serving her  while  take a bath condition? Oh... no.... it  is impolite, how if the women that talk to me  can see my condition that naked on her  handphone," I give consideration. In my think that the haphone have  camera so can cathc my condition. Than I'm ware. What is meaning this  dream?

Sunday, October  18, 2015.
I have  dream. Just as I married but  under the pressure, evidently I 'm not agree. May be the social environment that force me to married, but I'm not  free  when do it. After married we don't  making in love. Than I aware. My vital body still weak  /lacluster (loyo). What is meaning  of  this  dream?


Monday, October  19, 2015.
I have  dream. Just as at one place. I just as traveling.  May be destination to Solo. There is people go to Solo, Central Java too.  We just as  mistake, entrance the  false   bus. Evidently destination to Solo but we are  use the bus to the other destination, just as to Jakarta. So we stop at T junction / intersection. I entrance to just as  workshop of  car / bus. The  crew of  bus appear not agree  with my action. The  crew bus that just as  ever  service me  seem  offended (tersinggung)  so ask me to exit that place  than wait in passenger  place. They invite  and  lead me out that  place. What is meaning of this  dream?

After it I just as  get sick " just as my inner  body move, especially heart. In last time when child I ever did it. In Manggarainese is  "wali ati). My  saliva (air ludah)  feel salted (asin). I get up. I throw it at toilet. Than I sleep again.

Tuesday, October  20, 2015 - forget remember the   dream.

I have the  dream. In the  morning, when get up I try to remember it.  My memory  can not reach the  dream are. It is  fail to remember.


Wednesday, October  21, 2015
I have  dream. The venue is at  home in Wela Village. Just as we were goingout. I see  Sandy and Megy. They were going back to school at Ruteng. Sandy hug (embrance = memeluk ) his mom Esy who still  lie (berbaring). Than we delivery them until at yard of home. We stop there.  Just as  Sr. Sophy and I want  back to school too. Just as I' were still school at Kuwu and  Sr. Sophy at Ruteng. I have plan  puthte bag in  Kuwu than go to Ruteng to  travel  or  delivery sr. Sophy. This  is  dream at the moorning. What is happening with this  dream?  May all  family is  good  and well.

 Thursday, October  22, 2015

I have dream. The location just as at home at Wela. Just as there is meeting. Our families just as complain because Mr. Pius Paskalim dominate the meeting. The familiest like he does not give much sphere (ruang) to him.

Than I just as at home. I urinate beside home. My vital body only  close by board of wall, only urinate that may be the people see. My urinate is white, just as  drink many water.  Than I hear the issue that my younger brother, Mr. John fight

With the other people that  want  to steal (mencuri) pig.  The pig we want to use to kill when custom sacrifice (just as kenduri). We are neglect. We busy at Ntalung Pada, forget  to care babi at Mbaru Gendang, so the other people take. “Anton Tongkok – from Lida, my friend  defend  (membela) John. Just as fight and debate at car (in Wae Siar) but  when I hear from Mr. John, the problem / fight / debate at  intersection of Cancar. The people  want to take something from John, include money.

I sad when get. What is meaning of this  dream. I get up at 04:00 today.

Friday, October  23, 2015
I have  the  dream. I remember  when I  explain V sign bipolar, win - win solution. I forget the other  dream.


Saturday, October 24, 2015

I have  dream.
Mr. John ......(lecture of Law at  at Saint Thomas  University Medan)  and I available at one place. There are some people too.  There are some people  by pass with shortcut way on  not  formal way. I see  a motor cyclist drive motor cycle but get difficult to pass away because have a high of  mound (gundukan tanah). She almost fall down fall down. When we see, evidently it  is  cemetery (tomb = pekuburan).

I move to the other place.

I just as on one place. Just as  have married moment (event).  I see a women get water splash (percikan air).  Than just as I get to. I get  splash of water (siraman  air) of a  plastic of glass of mineral water. I just as take  a bath with it. But just I'm  nude (telanjang).

Than just as I move to one place again.
I  drive  motor cycle just as Mr. Harnoto / Mr. Egy / Mr. Nando  beside  me.  We j just as  by pass region of Bekasi, especially THB in near Mr.  Stef Pelor  house. This area  I know," I say. But  still diffrrence. The area that we visit is so many people  and  housing.  It  is area densely populated residential  (pemukiman padat penduduk). In middle  way, I give change to mv   my  friend (Mr. Harnoto / Mr. Egy to  in front  position to lead me the way because  he know the  address of  destination. Evidently  we entrance  just as  park  ao  garden.  I see  the   just as  spruce (pohon cemara). The Spuces so many . Than we  talk. Just as I  imagine Mr. Nando's  married. 

Than my soul just as  move   place again
We are in a  field. There is  soccer  matching. There is a people  who smart to dribble  the  ball give challenge  to  rival to  make bet (taruhan). He is provoking (memprovokasi)   the rival. In rival group Mr. Rudy Sudiran  accept  his challenge. may be  he  give money 15.000 - 20.000 as  bet (taruhan). Than I'm  aware.

What is meaning  of the  dreams? 

Sunday, October 25, 2015
I have  dream.
  Wait train at Jatinegara
In tomb with 2 girls who drive motor cycle at tom (cemetery = pekuburan)
just as in THB - Harapan Indah - in Park
In park

-n party  place  - splash of  water , just as married -

Meet mr. Fidelis Gele - class mate at major seminary
Clean the  tolilet - Ms Lidya see me when  touch the  feces. Shame. Because to clean toilet is not  teacher's  work. It's  OB's  work.




 Monday, October 26, 2015

I have  dream. I just as holiday at village.  I walk / on foot together  families  from custom village to Ntalung Pada.  At  near Mr. Sius Janor (Ema'd Tati's)  huse  some people  shout our (meneriaki)  and cheer (menyoraki) John.  As appear Mr. John - my youngest brother recent go back to village  from foreign country. Ms Meni  come. Mr. Sius Janor too.

What is meaning of  this  dream


 Tuesday, October 27, 2015
I have  dream. Just as I wan to entrance to boat? - Traveling? May be only playing.

Wednesday, October 28, 2015 - I have the  dream but I forget.

Thursday, October 29, 2015 - I have the  dream but I forget.



Friday, October 30, 2015 - I have the  dream but I forget.

I have  dream. Just as make burial / tomb/ cemetery?. May be because tired. I sleep at 01:30 am in last night
Just as see Mr. Don   Gaut  ex Sant Klaus JHS principal.

Saturday, October 31, 2015 - I have the  dream but I forget.

I have  the  dream.




Tuesday, November 3, 2015
I have  dream.
In my think that Father  Alfons,Pr still  life. But on the  dream he already pass  away.
In my feeling  he  still  live.  What is  meaning.


Wedneday, November 4, 2015 - i forget the  dream. May be because  tired

Thursday, November 5, 2015 - ibid.

Friday, November  6,  2015

I have  dream.
Jus as  have  Manggarai  Festival. I join in our  group, Middle Manggarai. The other  group is East Manggarai  Group.  They already prepare the  song of "danding", include  song: Gerak ga Tana  Nana  o nana  tad  go ae........ Ae  e  kakor  ga  lalong  enu o  enu tad  go  ae.".  I sing  this  song.  There is competition (kompetisi = persaingan).  We use  Manggarai dresss  code. I  use  Songke dress. I juust as  not  wear the  dreass, just as  want  to  paly  Caci  game.

Than on  one  place  I see  Mr.  Engel   Mbaling. In the  dream I see  him just as  Ema Mbembok's  face.  What  is  mean  of  this  dream?

(What relation conscicouus  with unconscience , kesadaran dan ketaksadaran?

Apa yang  ada dalam dunia kesadaran (bangun) bisa  hadir  dalam dunia ketaksadaran (mimpi), demikian  juga  sebaliknya. Ada hubungan resiprokal  namun tidak otomatis / niscaya. tak ada keharusan bahwa apa yang ada dalam dunia bangun  ditampilkan semua dalam  dunia mimpi. Demikaian juga sebaliknya. Apa  faktor yang menentukan bahwa   obyek dunia bangun bisa hadir dalam dunia tidur? Demikian sebaliknya?  Dkl apakah mimpi bisa dirancang oleh dunia bangun?  Bisa ya, bisa tidak. Ya karena  untuk bermimpi kita  harus  tidur. Tidak  karena    konten mimpi tidak  bisa dirancang . Konten mompi  arbitrer. Tergantung  jiwa.
JPS, 6 Sept. 2015.


Saturday, November  7,  2015.
I have dream. Just as I join on event. On one stand  / buyer stand I see people  show  the  Manggarai song. It is  on  CD. It  is  just as  Bima  song. I want  to buy it.  What  means  of  this? May  have relation with activity of today at JIEXPO. There is  peole / man that offer the  spirit  song of Mary. I refuse  it.  Than I see Manggarai culture  when drama  musical  backgroud. It is   field  spider web  and  Wae  Rebo. May this  back that   purposed of  dream. ** The  activity of  soul   precede (mendahului)  body activity. Soul lead the  body.


Sunday, November 8, 2015 - the  note of  dream still on paper at   leasing house

Monday, November 9, 2015 - I have  dream but  memory can not  remember it.

I only have  real expereince. I get up at 02:30. It  show to me the experience in last time when the Principal  critic me  because  just as give easy to students when test. He continue the  students parent  complain. Just as it show on my unconsciousness (ketaksadaran). It  is base of this  case my work contract at JPS not continue. It;m worry and worried (cemas) with  this condition. I  resigned (pasrah) myself  to God  for this situation.

Tuesday, November 10, 2015 - I have  dream  but i forget


Wednesday, November 11, 2015 - I have  dream  but i forget



Thursday, November 12, 2015 - I have  dream  but i forget



Friday, November 13, 2015 - I have  dream

In one  place  Mr. Hila  and I  just as  drive motor cycle.  I entrance  first at just as  as  one  place, just as  parking  place. Than my brother,  Mr. Hila  come  follow  me. May be  he  can not  stop his  motor cycle. Lucky  his  motor cycle  not  touch me. Than he  pull his motor cycle to back. What is  meaning  of  this  dream?

Saturday, November 14, 2015 -


Sunday, November 15, 2015 - I have  dream
I'm at Wela at near Mr. Ansel Jeramun's house. I just as see the  corn plant  there. I open. I see  Marny, Ansel's  wife. I want  to  give  it  to  her.  What is  meaning  of this  dream.
* Note: The  other  dream  is  forget.


Monday, November 16, 2015
I have the  dream
I just as  at intersection at Ntalung Pada, near Father Paul's  kiosk.  I just as  hold  hose (selang) of  water. I see the  water  from   hose  is  clean. I'm  there together Mr. Hila.

The other  dream is I just as  at Kuwu at  corner of  sport  field.  Just as  hace  fence of  iron  for  animal  cage. In  near  road (near  building there is  just as  cottage (pondok). I use it  together  some  friend.

What is meaning  of  this  dream?

Tuesday, November  17, 2015
I have  the  dream. I just as  on one place, just as on corner of a place, just as  in  forest.  I just  as  make fire.  Than we  rest. I find after the  wood  fire almost  finish  but  the  fire still it (ada) while the wood fire  runs (habis). It  is  leave the live  coals (bara api) . I'm worry   the  fire off, so I looking  for the fire wood. I fine  some  good  fire wood  . The fire wood  is named Haju  Sambi in Manggarainese. I  entrance it on live  coals (arang)  in order to  can last (bertahan) until some hours.
Than I  just  as  move  to  one  place. My soul there is in one  place. It is the  new  place. Just as  we  vsit there for   a  purpose.  From  one  place  I see   a  good  view. I see the people. There is  issue that  it  lack  of  water there. Our  group / family  must go  far to  get the  water.  Than I  go back to just as our cottage (pondok). I find Mr. Alex  Madji  and  family. We  just as  gathering. Ms Susy prpare the food for  us. I try to help to   expedite the  activity. Mr. Alex  say just as  humble (merendah) although he already do the best.

 What is meaning  of  this  dream?


Wednesday, November  18, 2015
I have  dream. Ms Agatha Runus   is sick.  She follow  her  husband at Papua than come to Jakarta.  Ib Jakarta she  sick. "Can or  no she  got the  the health  card  from governement so help her to pay it? This  is  problem because  may be she not the Jakarta  population (resident = penduduk) of Jakarta.
Whai is meaning  of this  dream? Evidently I'm sick. I'm fever because fever. May  change of  season, from  dry to wet season.
I try to manage this condition in order to can  teach students  nicely.
I try in order to not so  tired. I try  to work effectively.


Thursday, November  19, 2015

I have  dream.  I just as visit to  one  place, just as  rice  field. I see the  rice  field still  green. Than we  move on  to one  place.  I just as with Saver. We entrance to one place. Wow.... we turn to new place. I'm very happy. We entrance to Brunei Darusalam.  We  by pass junction (tikungan). I find   a place that have  plant. The pace  just as I ever see in Mr. Alfons's picture.  Mr. Alfons Jaban often go to Brunei.  I see a  view as back ground Mr. Alfons's  photo. It  is  just as building. It  have  title. "Oh... Mr. Alfons  often  photo here. I know  now," I say in my heart.

Wow.........., this  dream may be I hear  from Mr. Safer, my nephew that he want  to go there together Mr. Alfons. The salary in Brunei is better than in Indonesia.

With  this  dream I can  remember the  other  dream, just as:

1. I just as  walk in one  place, just as  at  Flores, just as  at  Raheng / Coal  / Lembor. There is walk / road  way down. I turn to  left. I entrance to cottage. It's  simple cottage.  Just  as  life in village.
2. I walk in one  place  just as  at Manggarai - Flores, just as at Pel - Tilir. I by pass the  place.


Note: I can  remember this  dream after 11,5 hours. This  is  wonderful. Since  get up I don't now I have  dream or  no. Suddennly when I go to the campus of  STFD Jakarta, in  near KFC Harapan Indah my mind  suddenly I can remember this  dream. I dont' know what is the cause so I can remember it. I ho hope to remember it  because  in last night I'm sick of fever.  But  now  this  idea  rice itself.

Friday, November  20, 2015

I have  dream.
I just as meeting in Saint  Klaus  together  Father  Waser, SVD  and my  teacher  when JHS - SHS'. He is Mr. Maxi Mbangur. We are three ate  in one  table. "May be because I come from Jakarta so Father Waser, SVD  and Mr. Maxi accept  me.   I see  some  students  of Saint  Klaus that still eat.

Than  the other  dream come. The location at  Wela. I just as  visit  spring water in near  home / house of Mr. Philipus Jeharut. We go to  to the  west through the way  that we use  when children / Primary school.

Than just  the location  move to  home of  Mbaru Gendang. Just as  have  party. Just as  feast (kenduri). We are as  organizer (penyelenggara) / host party (tuan pesta). I see  Welo tribe (Mr.Aji /  Philipus; Mr. Frans Hutal /  Anton Epong  family). We prepare  the food for them. May be we prepare the  perfunctory (ala kadarnya)   side dishes (lauk pauk)  for  side dishes  for  supper / dinner. "Ela wee  later. Ela wee  may be for the  main side dishes.

What is  meaning of  this  dream.
I'm  sad   with  this  dream.


Saturday, November 21, 2015
I have dream.  Just as I 'm at  our garden at  Ntalung Pada. Just as  have issue that there is corpse (jenasah). It's  Wela  people. It come  from Lida direction through Bangka garden than arrive at Wela's cemetery (pekuburan). From Ntalung Pada I see the Wela's  cemetery.

I have the other  dream. I just as on one  place. When I want to close the door, there is  a people try to  deter (menghalangi) it. He entrance his feet in down the door and  face on top the door. I'm angry. I fight with him. I  kick him  on his  face. He is  not  make resistance (perlawanan). I'm worry if he or his  group / family  angry than  strike  me. I ask my brother to ready  for this.  Wow..... what is meaning of this  dream?

The other  dream I forget.
                                                                                                                                                                                                                   
Than I can remember my dream. I just as  play at Mbaru Gendang Wela  yard (halaman) .We play  foot  ball. I think I can  play footbal nicely. Evidently my move so slow. When Mr. Hendrik Aron kick the ball. I can not accept the ball, so  goal. Wow........., my condition is  severe / nasty  (parah). Wow........

Sunday, November 22, 2015 - forget  the  dream, whether (entah)  day or by night dream. Wow....

Monday, November  23, 2015

I have  dream. I gathering with others  include  women. Suddenly I 'm  urinate (pipis). I can not  control  my penis to stop it. I just as panic. So many urinate. The women / girls see me.

What is meaning of this  dream

Tuesday, November  24, 2015  - forget the  dream

Wednesday, November  25, 2015
I have  dream.
Just as I present on a mall. I see so may  television / Computer  that still on. I'm  provocated to  use it  to open the internet to read  news. I have desire of it.

Than I  entrance to one place just as filed. There is soccer matching.  NTT  people  play soccer. They play good  but no make  goal. The opposite  team  kae  goal  to NTT 's  goalpost (wikcket =  (gawang)).

What is  meaning  of this  dream?


Saturday, November  28, 2015  -
I have  the  dream. I just as on one   place. It  is  on  a village  on  valley (lembah). It  just as surrounded (dikelilingi)  montain that  have rock (cadas / batu). In nort and   eart  there is  view of   rock mountain. Than in west there is  the gap. I see the  pavement (jalan aspal). I see  bus, just as  Rasa  Sayang  bus  and  the  driver is Mr. Pius  Biru. The Rasa Sayang bus destination  Lembur. Everyday the  route is  Lembor  Ruteng. I see his head  when the  bus  on  bend (tikungan).  Than I just as  walk that  that  pavement (jalan aspal). I just as  the leader / guide the journey. Mr. Largus too. . I follow the pavement. Evidently it  is  dead end.  When I know it, I go back.  Evidently Mr. Largus turn to  left. When go back to turn to  right  follow  Mr. Largus  and  friend. It  is   footpath.

What is meaning of this  dream?

Sunday, November 29, 2015
Last night I sleep  fast, may be at  22:00. I'm tired. When finish prayer of first  advent  I join with Mr. Joko in his motor  cycle. We pray at Mr. Matono's hpuse at Blok H1, Vila Mutiara Gading, Harapan Indah, Bekasi. Because sleep enough, I can get up early. I get up at 03:45 am. "No  dream," I say to myself. Than I open my laptop. I work. There is a moment (tool  - may be on Liturgi / Religion text) make me remember my dream.  My memory can remember the  dream. "In last night in dream, I meet  with my leader  at Major Seminary, Father Martoni Tangi,Pr. He sit down in his room  with bookshelf (rak buku)   as background. He sit  down it. The situation just as at  Ritapiret  Seminary. 
Wow... wonderful....

Reflection

What is relation between  aware (dunia bangun)  with  unaware (dunia mimpi)?
The relation is experience of life. What is moment on aware can present on dream on the other  hand what's moment on dream can  present on  aware. Both can fill one another.

Dream at hal aware and unaware
Time show 09.45 am. The condition is cloudy (berawan). The aura of life is sleepy. I try to aginst it but still sleepy. I try to kill my sleep with work. I open laptop. I do my work about  Resume of Primary Religion subject. I'm sit down. Than my sleep come. I have  dream.  We have activity  of  custom at Wela. It  is traditional ceremonies (upacara adat) to honor ancestry (leluhur). We just as sacrifice the cock (rooster (ayam jantan). We invite our neighbour, include Mr. Stanis Nami. He come late. We already  start it. I say sory to him: "Sorry, we had been starting this  sacrifice," I say to him. He respons:"Oh... this activity is own of  of  us" (Acara ini acara kita semua > "Acara  dite  taung kali so". he  say. I see him appear  slim (ramping). Than I aware again.  May be 2 minutes I dream. Than I work again. I write this  dream in order to not  forget. Mr. Stanis Nami already die. For the  first I  dialog with  him on dream. Ussually the  people that already die  no talk, only silent but on this  dream he  talked. What is meaning of this  dream?

The other  dream.
I sleep on 11:00 am. I have  dream. I see people  paly in dirty water. They are  play and seldom dive on  dirty  water  that appear  yellow. Even  the man (men) drink it  but  drink something again to avoid  the  poison (racun) because  dirty of  water. I only see / watch. I stand up on  just as  the edge (pinggir)  pool. Than i join with my family one a boy of  child. He just as retreat to watch something. I join with women  who still my family but I'm not remember  whoa   are the  name.

What is  meaning  the  dream?



Monday, November 30, 2015
I have  dream. I just as  teach in front of   class. Than I ask help to students / friends  in order to support me in married: " I  ask your  pray for my wedding. Thank you  for  my friend YM  who already wait  so long. Sorry for this. YM is my classmate when SHS. There is the other  friend on this  class. She is Evy Jemamun. She is  smile  when I talk  about my married. After  talk it there is worry in my heart about my health.  What is meaning of this  dream?



The  other  dream:
I  just as  go to one place. To village? There is an activity there. Just as  party. I try to help to smooth this activity. Just as  help to handle equipment , just as  mnage  water and  hose. Than I think how  to back to Jakarta because the work wait  there.
What is meaning of this  dream?

Reflection:

At JPS, the  Primary teacher  gather at cahppel. We ask to Primary Principal, Mr. Ben Ayung who want to check up the health. May be he stay 2 weeks at  BSD to  threat  his sick. Mr. Ivan as  Principal for moment. I lead the prayer  for health to Mr. Ben Ayung. I help to delivery  him to  Mr. Ivan's  car. "May you wuickly recover," I say to him.

Today in school there is food, cake  and  food. Mr. Rmeo and Ms Eyheel celebrate 24  anniversary Wedding. They prepare  food: chicken , noddle and  rice. Than a student, Octa celebrate birthday. One  cardboard cake  for teacher. Accidental (kebetulan) I'm not  bring  food  for  lunch. In last time I have plan permission to  lunch but because already have food  now, I postpobe my plan to go back to home to lunch. Today the students start   of  final semester test.






Tuesday, December 1, 2015

I have  dream.
I just as on one  place in one moment. Just as have event. Party? May be. That clear there is  food. The food is  rice and  meat, just as ......(rendang). I get informatin that this  is  lamb (daging kambing). I try to  carefully because the lamb (daging kambing)  risk to me that have  
hypertension (hipertensi). But  somehow (entah kenapa)  I take it  for  eat. Wow......... what is meaning  of this  dream?

I have  the  other  dream.
The  dream is  I meet with my friends and leader  when Mjor Seminary at Ritapiret in last time. I meet  Msgr. Hubert Leteng,Pr. Than I meet  my friends just as  Father Kosmas Hariman, Pr, Father Egis Masri, Pr.   We meet in one  place. Than we exit  who knows (entah) to where. I way when exit I talk with Msgr. Hubert Leteng, Pr. "I'm  Frans, may be you  forget me,"I say introduce my name to him.

  What is meaning  of  this  dream?

1. I remember  the  other dream.   We just as on one  place. Just as walk on one place at  edge (pinggir) river. 
2. Just as  walk  at Welo garden at Wela . The other people already at  top of hill (near  pecan tree (pohon Kemiri - at  Mukang Welo - ) while the other still in near  Wae Rehet
3. The location just as at  Pandang  garden but the  location of area  is  just as   flat (rata). We by pass  there.
4. I by pass  a way  just as  trace  way.
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Usually the  dream  not  clear ( hazy = kabur). Is  this the memory  problem?
There is distortion (penyimpangan)  on memory?


JPS, 1 December 2015



Wednesday, December 2, 2015

I have dream. I meet  my classmate when major seminary. He is Mr. Yon Lesek. He already  married. I see his families, wife and his children. In this dream he had two children, boy and girl. They play. Their mother, Ms. Anne. I by pass  their place of game.  Than I entrance a home. There I meet with Mr. Yon. He just busy. The location just as at kitchen of house of "Rumah Gendang" Wela, in Mr. Paulus (Tua; Emad Alex') kitchen. The people busy to cook or talking. I reprimand (menegur) Mr. Yon. Than I entrance to to our space. There I find just as our family. Just as Mr. Nobert Jaban dan Ms Lusia Esot. They prepare the food, include the meat. I want to eat. The  meat have sauce ( kuah). It is seem black becaause already mix with meat and spice (bumbu). There is Ms Via Wawung. "On one time, if already  fat, please eat dog meat  (daging anjing)," she suggested. "Thank you mom, I should avoid the meat dog because I'm hypertension (hipertensi). What is mean of this  dream?

What is meaning of this dream?


Thursday, December 3, 2015 -  I have  dream but I forget it.


Friday, December 4, 2015
I have dream . I  meet  with Ms....... (atudents  parent / grand mother). She stand up beside me. Our body  sticking (= adhere = path = menempel). I touch her vital body. I enjoy it. My vital body is on. Enough long time it  on. Wow....  rimantic  dream.

I can remember this  dream after remember my panties  (celana dalam) that have  stain (noda)  and when meet student parents at school at JPS.


Saturday, December 5, 2015
I have  dream. I just as present in region of Ndoso and Kolang. I just as at Ndoso region  and see to west region to Kolang area. The Kolang people just as usual come to Ndoso region on feast of  Catholic religion, just as Easter or Christmas. "It is village ( Metang)," someone give information to me. I walk to  area  the middle Ndoso - Kolang. It is just as valley (lembah)  (meadow = padang). Just as there have church. I come to there to join on prayer. I entrance to the church. I see the other people, just as children, boy and girl. There is mucic tool.

(Note: This dream briefly (sempat) lose from memory.This dream occur  / happen  before 04:50 . I go to the toilet. I can remember this dream  and one  dream  again. Than I sleep again. I have 3 dreams again but this  dream I forget. After almost 26 hours, I can remember the dream. Wow...... I can remember on Sunday, 6 December 2015.


The other dream :

I have  dream. I just as traveling use  truck (truk), just as  use Maranatha truck . Just as  journey from Tilir  to  Ruteng. The journey  start in early morning. Just as start  from 05:00 am.  We arrive   just as Mano. We  aware that we arrive in early morning. "May be we arrive  on early morning because start in early morning too," I say to other passenger.

Than the other  dream.
I just as  at Golowelu. There is processions    from west (Satarara?, Rumah Sakit complex ) to Golowelu church. Ms Mer (Rio's mother / Mr. Ema Tarang's  wife) as  conductor of  choir. Just as  student junior high school of Golowelu who choir. I  join on the procession. I join on sing of song.

The other  dream

I just as at Jakarta in  a flyover. I drive motor cycle,  on a  flyover.  The flyover seem not so good. The iron seem not strong because  already  sway (bergoyang). I try to drive car in flyover  with carefully and slowly.  When I arrive on top the flyover,  suddently I already arrive on a truck, just as   rubbish truck.  The door of  truck not open  yet. In land I see the rubbish. There is the other people. They are gilrs.  My destination is one place in West Jakarta, just as at  near  Tanjung Duren / Cideng. But the truck distination just as to Klender. The  truck start.  I try to go away. I shout to stop. On one place there is  mound (tumpukan) sand  and  near with  back door of  truck. I decide to stop and go away . I leave the  truck. Just as the plastic fall down when I left the truck. I  pick it. Than I go out. I see the other car / bus still run. There is  little  rain. I ty to  use  pastic to protect myself  in order to  not  wet.Than I aware. I get up.

The other  dream is  forget. I get up on 04:30 am to go to toilet. That time I'm still remember my dream but after it I forget my  dream on before 04:30 . Wow.....

Dream at teacher room of JPS - Limit between  sleep and wake so  thin (tipis).
I'm lunch. The rain come. I want to make the answer key of Primary 4 and 5  Question Test. I'm sleepy while sit down. I have  dream. In dream I hear my teacher when Primary - Ms July Maria Ju talk about  Father Sipri Hormat,Pr. Father Sipri is  my senior when at Major Seminary. What is meaning this  dream?


Sunday, December 6, 2015 - I have dream but I forget to remember it.
 
 I just as meet Mr. Hendrik Aron. He visit his uncle , Mr. Andreas at Rawa Indah Bekasi  but  not  visit me at VMG  while it is near. What is meaning of this dream?


Monday, December 7, 2015

I have dream. Someone - man / boy - take a bath and use my shampoo. I see him take it than mix with water than flush (menyiram) on his head. Than he rub ( menggosok)  his hair. Twice he take the shampoo than flush (siram) on his hair. I see  foam (busa) of shampoo  on his hair.

I can remember this dream after entrance  the bathroom and want to take a bath.
We can remember the dream if have  stimulus (rangsangan).



Tuesday, December 8, 2015 - forget the dream


I have  dream. Just as my friend teacher at JPS remind me about my duty of community as Primary level. Just as Ms Lidya / Ms Desy who remember me. What is meaning of this  dream.

Evidently on 14:30 pm, the womwn teacher of SHS  - Ms Jessica -  ask us about duty on next Janury 8, about Chistmas Celebration. Wow... we are not prepare about it. Than you Ms Jessica.  Please prepare yourself for this event, F.!

Wednesday, December 9, 2015
I have dream. I just as at Woang - Ruteng place. Just as at Ms Bunga - Mathias  house. Just as Mr. Lexy invite (engage = mengajak) me to there.  We arrive there. Just as  Mr. Mathis - Ms Bunga house is wood house. We sit down on chair.  I see  the the bed (tempat tidur). May be I want to sleep too.
Than I go out of home. I see the people cook something at out of home. I see the  the  trench (parit)  or waterways (saluran air) . The water in trench (parit) is black (dirty).  The environment is dirty. What is meaning if this dream?


Thursday, December 10, 2015 - I have dream but I forget. Than I can remember when lecture at campus

I have dream.
I join on mass. The mass  lead by  Msgr. Vincentius Sensi Potokota,Pr, Arch Diocese of Ende, Flores. On mass he mention one name.  Just as Suhartono / Suharnoto (the Java people name). When he mentioned it  I mention too. I very happy when know it.  The distance (jarak) is enough long  from altar to people bench (bangku umat).

(Note: I can remember of this  dream after 13,6 hours. Lucky  the friend - Mr. Suki Gasung -  presentation about Freud-. He mention  something  word. This is just as  stimulus to me to remember the  dream in last morning / night. Thank you Mr. Suki Gasung.

Friday, December 11, 2015.
I have dream. I just as visit a one place. It is just as seminary / parish / school.  I entrance to  chapel (kapel)/ church. Than  I just as return to presbytery (pastoran). Just as in last time I ever entrance this place. Now I  know this place nicely.

Than I just as move the place. I drive motor cycle.  Than the motor cycle is stop. It is  broken.  I see Mr. Tony Tarang. Invite him to join in my motor cycle. I give chance him to drive it. I try to  move the motor cycle. What is meaning of this  dream?


Saturday, December 12, 2015.
I have  dream. The dream about me and my sister, Nelty. In dream Nelty can drive motor cycle. I join on the motor cycle. She drive nicely. We by pass the way that  uphill road (jalan menanjak). She success to avoid students that walk near our motor cycle.

The other  dream I forget.

What is meaning of this  dream?


Sunday, December 13, 2015.
I have dream.
I just as effort to by pass a  ravine (tebing/jurang). I very difficult to  by pass it. I try to looking for tree but  fail. I only find grass that  not strong so I can not relly on it. My hand try to looking for tree but no find it. I'm and some people do it. Than just as on evaluation   I have idea to spread (tali)  so the people can hold it when by pass or climb the ravine.  The other alternative is  use wooden staircase (tangga kayu) to by pass it," I think.

Than my soul move to other place. I just as arrive  at Wela. I walk to Mr. Lius Beong's house. I arrive at front's their house. I see Mr. Lius still in home. I see  kiosk in front of their house. May be Mr. Valens still stay at kiosk.  I'm just as hide, afraid to meet him. In near there I see can that usually use for put the dog's food. It is dirty. I put my food and rice there. I eat use it. Still have residual of sauce (kuah). Wow.................
How about  my health?

I have the other dream.
I meet with Mr. Hendrik Aron and Ms Ida, his wife.  I alredy copy what you ask to me in last  time. "What is it," I already forget," I say. It is English book / document. I already copy, " he said. Than I see. It is just as report card of KG. I see just as teacher do it for students. Than I see the parent students. She is Merry (mom's of Albert, Lisa and Lia). She just as still tidy the cupboard (lemari). She ask something to me but I forget what is she  saying.

Than I  have the other dream.
I just as cook something in kitchen, just as at VMG. I open the front office. It is the good chance to animal to entrance. The duck entrance to kitchen. I'm shock too.  I try to exit it. Lucky  food that I cook not  burnt (terbakar). I cook soup of foot of kitchen.
Than just as I want to wash my dress. I use the dirty water to clean it..
I'm deliberate  (sengaja) start to JPS  late to handle it. "I want to entrance to 08:00 am to JPS,: I make schedule. Than I'm aware.  What is meaning o this dream.

 Monday, December 14, 2015.
I have  dream. Just as I save land to someone. May be the land in near village. The land on crowded areas (kawasan ramai).

 Tuesday, December 15, 2015.
I have dream. Just as my mother and mom, Regina in one place. It is valley (lembah). The valley have sand. In still on the way . We stop for moment. We leave our load (beban). Than I go to the west. I climb the hill. It is have forest I see the  dry  tree and tree that still live. I want  to bring the dry dree for wood fire. I see the spiring. I'm happy with see the water that still flow on land  and  rock. Than I see the cleaver (parang) / golok) and the wrap (bako in manggarai). It is own  the late (almarhum) Mr. Matius Potok," Mrs Mary  said. The cleaver (golok) fall down. I worry it it  run to ravine (jurang). Evidently not. I success to take it.

The other  dream.
In one place, just as hostel (asrama). We use dress just as prepare to somewhere. I see someone  take my belt.  Evidently not. I still get my belt. Wow....
What is mean of this dream?

Wednesday, December 16, 2015.
I have dream. I forget the the detail of dream.


Thursday, December 17, 2015. - forget the dream?
I have a dream. I just as  join on traditional rituals (ritual adat). Just as Mr. Vincent Jahan as spokesman (juru bicara) alias "tukang tudak" of prayer. His prayer so potent (manjur). What is he says will do. I see the water on trench (parit). The water bring all dirt (kotoran)  and trash (sampah) . I see the crumbs (remah-remah) of vegetable flow   (mengalir) through trench (parit) Isee crumbs of pumpkin (labu), papaya (pepaya) . "Wow...this is 'holy prayer" . The location just as at behind (di belakang) kitchen of "Mbaru Gendang Wela". I'm in kopi garden, near gourd (labu) tree.
Than just as Mr. Edu Sanor sleep in the top of coffee tree. He is ill. Than I call him. "Emad's Endang.....," I call him. I just as visit him. What is meaning of this dream?


 Friday, December 18, 2015. - Dream at "Susteran Ursulin" Cisantana - Cigugur - Kuningan - West Java.
I have dream .
I meet  with Mr. Egydius Patnistik. We talk Mr. Welem Syukur's bussiness of media "Alat Berat". It's already off," Mr. Egy says. Is  ir  right. What means of this  dream?

I can remember this dream after 2 hours. I can remember when I think my brothers: Mr. Beny, Mr. John, Mr. Hila and I. How to make home in Wae Mese in Rony's  land. Than I remember Mr. Egy and my dream.

Saturday, December 19, 2015
I have dream.
Just as I'm in one place. I meet with my friends when Junior High School  (JHS), just as Mr. Edwin Perselie, Edu Nabu. They are just as reunion. They eat just as eat of meatball (bakso). Than Edwin come to me. We shake hand. "He is candidate of profesor," they say just as it to me.
What means of this dream? May be because I see in Mercy Jelatu's  face book that Edwin, Edu, Mersy, Patris, Tarsy. Edu dan Mina Sajul reunion at  Ruteng and Robo at Mr. Idem's house to pray for Mr. Alo Jema (Mr. Idem's father) who already pass away. What is meaning of this dream?
Note: What is linking between dream and reality? The link is the reality can backgroud the dream. (In this case: reality precede (mendahului) idea.

Friday, January  1, 2016 -
I have dream when day sleep.
I have dream. I just as on travelling. My family and I use motor cycle. I drive myself the motor cycle. The family (man) who front me get distuurb  froma chilf of boy. He angy to that boy child. My family exit  from motor cycle. He leave it. He angry to the child boy. While he angry to the boy the motory cycle lose, be stolen (dicuri) by  the child boy team. The boy only to provocate to  switch the consentration of people  wgo they target  for stolen the material (included) motor cycle. Than I try to join on this debat. I exit  from my motor cycle too. Than my motor cycle lose too. Wow...... certainly I'm so regret. I try to happy although my heart is stillbroken because  lose of  motor cycle.
What is meaning  of  this  dream?


Saturday, January  2, 2016 -
The dream at  Rony's  rent  house at Kantor Post / Jl. I / G - Rawasari, Cempakka Putih, Central Jakarta.

I have  dream.
Just as I'm in journey / travelling. I do it with the others, include Ms Indri, my friend teacher at Optima and JPS.  When we  walk suddenly just as the  straight / attact  from front to us. The  attacker come  from opposite way. Wow... We try to  safe ourself. I try to help to protect and to safe Ms Indri. I carry her on my  both of hand. "Evidently she is easy )light = riangan) not  heavy.  We are retreat. Than suddenly the enemy just as entrnce to river / pool. It remove  become animal of water. I want to duel with it. I prepare myself for it. The attacker entrance to  dirty  water. Wow... what is meaning of this  dream.



Sunday, January 3, 2016
I have dream  when afternoon sleep  about 15:30 pm.
I just as join on gathering with other peoples, include women. My vital body just as pee to women body. "For me, if meet women, I  commend (memuji) her. "You are pretty and your skin is soft," Alex said as share experience when touch the women. Evidently I have wet  dream.

Monday, January  4, 2016
I have  dream.
I'm just as breakfast/ luch / suppper. On the end I know the water on soup  is dirty. I know it when eat the the end part / session.  What is meaning of this  dream?

 Tuesday, January  5, 2016

 Wednesday, January  6, 2016
Mr. Hila, my younger brother have dream  about me. Just as have event of  custom (tradition) at our home, "Mbaru Gendang Wela". Mr. Vinsen Jahan  and Mr. Ignasius Janor (Ema'd Tati) come. "Please prepare money for participate on this event. May be Rp 50.000," Mr Hila  whisper to me.

What means of this dream, Mom? Hila ask to mother Regina. :May be his event when finish study master in next time," mother respons.

Than Hila share this experience to me when I call to home.


 Thursday, January  7, 2016

Friday, January 8, 2016
I have dream.
I just as see meet with my younger brother, Mr. Hila. He just as raising (memelihara) pigs. But already use for necessity (keperluan). "Please raising again," I said to suggest again. "It is difficult to get money: he compain. Mr. Hila as  a  farmer. In last time he was studing at High School (STKIP) Saint Paul  Ruteng, but only 3 semester. Than he merried.

I have the other dream.
I just as on a place. Just as on bridge cross of people (jembatan penyeberangan orang). I put my shoes at base / pillar   of  bridge. "I try   put on high to avoid of dangerous of flood. I think my belonging  if flood.



Monday, January  11, 2016

I have dream. But I forget it.
The dream is  view of Lale Garden. Just as we (Mr. Hial, Mr. Beny  and I ) go to there. We  just as lost (tersesat). Finally we can find it. We see the dadap tree. Finally we find it. We see  from near road.



Tuesday, January  12, 2016
I have dream. I just as discuss with  friends about traveling  through sea (use Ferry or boat)  to Flores Island which move  from one boat / Ferry ship to the other Ferry  because relay (estafet). I hear sharing from Mr. Rudy Sudiron about  same experience. "We ever exit  from Ferry ship at  Sulawesi harbor (pelabuhan). Than we  use the other Ferry to Flores Island. On that time, suddenly I on boat / speed boat. We by pass the sea. Is the sea clean or dirty? I 'm not remember well.

The other  dream:
We just as on the way to top of mountain. May be we want to picnic or looking for fire wood. We success arrive there.

The other dream:
We just as on one place. We see the young  public  figure  from Manggarai. They are Mr.  Bony Hargens and .........(just as Wilfrid Vakiance, but Wilfrid  is priest from  Sikka - Maumere). "The same Anam people, must not precede (mendahului). It means must not hurts, but should be support one another.

The other dream.
I just as traveling on city. I seem know the way, but evidently just as confuse. Lucky there is someone the junior that know it. He moves to show the way. He success lead us to find the place / road that become our destination.




1. Just as  go to the top of  mountain: picnic / looking for  fire wood?
2. Use boat by pas see . Sea clean or dirty. _ Rudy mention place at Sulawesi as harbor?
3. Bony and Wilfrid V. ? Sesama  Anam jangan mendahului?
4. Traveling in city. Lost way. There is  friend who know  the  way.


Wednesday, January  13, 2016

I have dream. I just as on one place. I don't know it.  I walk on one place, just as a village. Just as on village. We just as looking for water. May be less of water. We climb the land. We find the people way to channel (distribute = menyalurkan)  water from to hill  to valley (lembah). Evidently they make simple. They direct touch the pipe to land which flow water. They accommodate (menampung) water to pipe direct from land, the water that  flow at surface water (air permukaan tanah). Certainly this is dirty water. This water (surface water) be accommodated  use place than direct flowed to pipe. It's water be use people on village in valley (lembah).

What is meaning of this dream?

Thursday, January 14, 2016

I have dream. I just as in Golowelu field of soccer. I see Mr. Paulus Jalu just as play soccer. He kick the penalty to wicket (gawang)  who keep by his wife, Mrs -Paulus (Veronika Unut). Mr. Paulus become  refere (arbitrator =wasit). Goal....... Than I see just as each team consist of 3 players. Mr. Rony join too.
This dream may be become  on 23 pm: 24:00 am. On this  this day (Wedneday, Jan. 13, 2016) I feel tired so I sleep fast. Than I get up again on 24:00. I read the book (Ricouer: Karl Sims), cook rice and vegetable. Than I sleep again. Than get up at  05:55 am. I come on time in school.




Monday, January 18, 2016

I have dream. Dream in the morning  forget.
This is the dream when sleep in afternoon (17:00 - 20:00 pm). I'm  confuse. May be because hypertension. The dream on this moment is:
There is activity just as in village of Rumah Gendang. Just as there is an activity. Just as my friend of campus. Just as there is issue. That issue make students pro and cons (counter = kontra) . Between group mutual blame, but just as  not clear who is pro, who is counter (cons = kontra). The students just as play a tool of machine. All students bone of contention (berebutan) to hold it. Just as on this machine know who is pro who is cons (counter = kontra). On this game the students (friends) still blame too.

Than I hear a  statement:
The statement make me amazed (kagum) and  amazement (keheranan). My mouth said: "Wow..... than I aware. I aware that my mouth mention O...., the form of mouth  lip  make  just as  circle. (Note: Reflection: this condition confirms the truth that the soul lead the body). I get up on 20:00 pm. Than I open computer to work of CUWM program, make annual report.




Tuesday, January 19, 2016.
I have dream.
Just as there is event. Just as event of  Wedding (Nando - Sisca?). We by pass a place / village. We just as  want to  retreat / back to the place.  On the  way down (jalan menurun) I turn to right. I find the place of Wedding of Nando and Sisca. I see the place of decoration. I find the big place (just as bucket = ember) of water. I take the water. The water still steamy (beruap).

Just as I by pass road that have mud. I try to careful. I just as use motor cycle. I try  to  carefully  in order to not fall down (accident). Just as my one of feet  touch the land / mud. My feet is dirty. I almost off the machine of motor cycle.   On a  bend (tikungan) I meet with some people. I stop on margin of road. I come to near them. They just as provoke (memprovokasi) me. I'm provoked. "Please give your bible to me," that people ask to me. I bring the little bible. I dislike it but he always ask. I'm angry.  They offend my village, Wela. They just as rival the Wela people. While in not far from the place just as  there is Wela people. Because they disturb and provoke (memprovokasi) me I'm angry. Just as they success to  get my bible from my hand. I worry they make dirty or broken my  bible.  I try to get it. What is meaning of this dream?

 

Wednesday, January 20, 2016. - forget the  dream may be because disturb of sleep.
I get disturb of sleep. On 02:00 am .I'm  sweat (perspire = berkeringat). My sleep not safe. I'm get up to go to toilet.  Than I'm sleeping again. But sweat  (berkeringat) again. I'm forget about the dream.
Why sweat  while the condition is cold (January of month?).
See this explain: http://www.cnnindonesia.com/gaya-hidup/20150303125329-255-36347/sembilan-penyebab-kering.

Thursday, January 21, 2016.
I have dream but  I forget  it.

Friday, January 22, 2016.
I have dream. The dream become at 04:30 am because before it I get up to go to toilet. The dream is: I just as on one place. I sleep with others. In front of me there is  a child women. I don't know who  is she. She sleep there. Than she urinate on her bad / table. I help her to dry the bed and herself. Than she stand up. The urinate on her dress and  floor  is dry. She want to wake her father or other main family but her father still sleep. So I help. I touch her body (thigh=paha). I think about sex too. Than I entrance to a room. I meet with brother (Rony / Jony). Oh...evidently you have spring bad. We can use of this of this to sleep (may be in Rony's home). Than I woke up. Wow....I'm wet dream.


 Saturday, January 23, 2016

Today, on 14:00 I use busway from Wali Kota Jakarta Timur. The rain come. In Cipinang (Klender) area I'm sleep for moment in this bus. I have dream. I listen Festo (Feus) Jebabun said to Pandu: "Pandu, please take Anggi (Mr. Tarmo's daughter) as darling," he said to Pandu. "I dislike (tidak mau / ogok), Pandu answer. Than I aware.


Sunday, January 24, 2016.
I have dream. Just as have party  at  our home in Wela village. The party in Mbaru Gendang. There is Mr. Alex Maji  too. We are gathering in kitchen, in the  kitchen, in their part. Just as there is animal for sacrifice. Mr. Alex release (melepaskan) it. It's run to me but than move, entrance to hole than continue to pit (klong), under the house. We try to find it but fail. I'm feel fault (bersalah) with this case.

Than I have the other dream. My soul just as move to one place. In one place (I don't know the name of cillage / city). In one home I find mother Regina dan my sister Mery Jemen. Just as have event. There is chicken meat .So many   chicken which alredy cook on one  pot (periuk) or pan (wajan), just as claw (ceker), gut (usus), heart (hati /ati). Wow...., what is meaning of my family health? I'w worry, anxious (cemas).

Monday, January 25, 2016.
I have dream. Just as have party  at  our home in Wela village. The party in Mbaru Gendang. There is Nando too. Than I explain to Nando about Wela village.  I explain to her Wela village, Satarandang hill. Than I explain to him about history of Wela which some part of land lose because already move to other people / region. The Golowelu area, some part of  area is  Wela's land. May be lost (kalah) on politic so some land is lose (hilang). My mind is land in Golowelu church now.

Note: For Manggarai people if dream about party, means  the sad condition (pass away). I'm sad with this dream. I'w worry, anxious (cemas).




Tuesday, January 26, 2016.

I have dream. I just as holiday to Wela Village. I bring  red motor cycle. The motor cycle broken. The tire (ban) is flat (kempes). I leave it  in near Wae Siar bridge. Than I go to village. I join on a home. I talk with others. Than I remember my motor cycle in Wae Siar bridge. "There is tire repairman (tukang tambal ban) near there," the people give information as solution. Than I go there. In front of Mr. Wilem Waru's house, I see a dog that still sit on land. I'm afraid if strike me. Lucky I find  wood  as stick. I use it to self defense (bela diri). Lucky the dog still cool, not bark and strike me. Than I continue to Wae Siar bridge. I meet with Ms Ta / Ms Deme. "Congratulation  for success of your first child / boy, Mr. Sony who finished lecture at Jakarta," I say to her. I's shame because I aware not use cloth. Than I go to Jembatan Wae Siar. I see my motor cycle. I'm worry because not see my motor cycle. My motor cycle is lose.  "May be the people in this village help me to find it," I hope. I see the other motor cycle  of own  others people. Than I stand near bridge. I see the river. There is part of water of river that dirty. While big of  part is  clean. Than I aware.I get up.  I'm anxious (cemas) about my motor cycle in front of home. I'm willing because still available. I'm happy. What is meaning the dream?


Wednesday, January 27, 2016.

I have dream in the morning. but  I  forget about it.

Dream - at afternoon ( sleep at 17:30 - 19:30 pm)
I just as on a place. On a room I see some people (students?) play  game. Ms Lidya (JPS' teacher) lead the game. She hold something just as baloon or cloth. Than she clamp (menjepit) it. Than she pull (tarik).
I  just as remember place when seminary (TOR)  at Lela, Maumere. I just as remember book for rehearse of meditation. That book prepare by Father Vincent Sensi Potokota,Pr. May be it is compose by Antony de Melo,SJ. Wow... memory in last time.

Thursday, January 28, 2016.
I have dream. I just as join on  an activity. Mr. Alex  and Ms Susy and both their sons, Carol and Enrike.   They  play  just as make the others  annoy (menjengkelkan). Than I  meet with Mr. Rafly. Just as he want to see the people in faw way. He has a new gadget, just as binoculars (teropong). He can see John Jelahut who still in long place, Terang - Manggarai. The location he show it to me  just as at Saint Klaus building, Kuwu, in junior  level 1 building. Just as in front of JHS 1 C or I D Rafly do  telescoped (meneropong) it.


The other people  dream

Thursday, January 28, 2016.

Kerry Fendy, Primary 5B crying on 13:45 pm.  I meet him in man  toilet at second floor  of JPS. Why do you cry? I ask. He only silent. "He is crying because got bad dream in last time," Falen answer. "How is dreaming it?" I ask. Kerry reluctant (enggan) to answer. "On his draeam, he was pass away while Marisa (5B) is safe," Fallen answer. "Oh....just as it, may be your internal organ disturb. Don't worry, not only you have dream just as it," I say. Than he stops cry than go back to the class.  Wow.... the child have bad dream to.

Friday, January 29, 2016
I have dream. I just as traveling. We by pass  mountain area (pegunungan). I see the nice place. I see  from car / bus. What is the name of this mountain that good?" I ask to someone. It is Tangkuban Perahu. Wow...so nice. I see the other place otf pilgrimage (ziarah). I see the Mary cave (Gua Maria). I see the nice view. Than we go to one place. May be our place of stay (tempat penginapan).  I meet with Mr. Peter Keliombar, teacher friend at JPS. Just as when lunch/ breakfat. I share experience the good place that I see to him. "there is  the nice place. "It is not complete our pilgrimage (ziarah) if not visit yet that place (Tangkuban Perahu mountain)." I say to him. Than I aware.


Saturday, January 30, 2016 - forget the dream?

Sunday, January 31, 2016 - forget the dream?
When The night / morning sleep forget the dream .
I sleep in  the afternoon. I have dream.o
I just as play in river Wae Mese at Wela  on place that we use by pass when go or back to garden. I play in river. There is place just as  pool (kolam). I play there. Than the big enough water come. Just as flood with the big wave. I safe although the wave come. I see the other wave in the other part (south part). I'm seeing the cloudy ( keruh).

Than just as my soul move to other place. I just as in Ntalung - Coal. Just as go back from garden. I bring basket which fill coffee and bring wood fire. I arrive in place of mud with red land. I imagine that can bring with  motor cycle. I have plan to by pass through Lida village, while this way so far if  continue by pass Porong Tedeng.

I meet with a child boy. He is with gesture to me  that I'm bald (botak). I'm not believe it. But he show to me. He show his  central of head. "Wow.... may be right. May be he see it to me while  myself not see it.

What is happen of this  dream?


Monday, Pebruary 1, 2016

I have the dream.
The venue just as at home of Rumah Gendang Wela. Just as I get attack of  blank magic. We accuse (=charge = impeach = indict = menuduh) neighbor in village who has black magic. He is neighbor home, GD.
I have the other dream. The venue  still in Wela. Just as there is people pass away. Who is pass away? Rafly Jeramat? The corpse (jenasah)  want  to bring to cemetery to be buried (dikuburkan). The procession (prosesi) of funeral (pemakaman) still in the way, just as in near Mr. Pet Maman's house. I come  and arrive to Mr. Bernadus Bakal (Yohanes Ano)'s house. I hear the issue. There is conflict because debate place of funeral (pemakaman). Some people disagree the funeral be done in Wela's public funeral. They are include Mr. Elias Aman cs? Why? May be because Rafly had mistake. I don't know what is kind of mistake. Than I hear information that the funeral of corpse is already done. Wow.......

Tuesday, February 2, 2016
I have the dream. I just just as join with Mr. Alex Maji dan his sons, Carol and Enrike. We have activity in one place. I don't know what is place of it.

The other part of dream I forget. - disturb of sleep because cold (pilek)


Wednesday, February 3, 2016 .       I have the dream but I forget it.disturb of sleep because cold (pilek)



Thursday, February 4, 2016 .       I have the dream but I forget it.disturb of sleep because cold (pilek)
I have dream.
We can not sleep nicely if get disturb sleep.


Friday, February 5, 2016 .    

I have dream.  I just as in a place. Just as Satarandang? I see the place with width and free. I know the map of place, include place of comples house, empty space / forest.

I present at Ntalun Pada. At Mr. Beny's house? Just as have activity. Just as  there have spring / water faucet (keran) air. The location of spring / water faucet is dirty. I'm reluctant to touch the place. What is meaning of this dream? May be my health is good.

Saturday, February 6, 2016 .....


Sunday, February 7, 2016 .....

Monday, February 8, 2016 .....
I have dream. .............................but my memori can not remember it.

Tuesday, Feb. 9, 2016 -

Wednesday, Feb. 10, 2016 -
I have dream.  I meet with  aunt (auntie = bibi), the late Lusia  Daem. Just as the other auntie come too. Just as we have event. (Note:  I can remember this dream after forget 12 hours. The dream need stimulus to be remembered. On this time I see a old women, bring plastic bag than put on long chair / bench (bangku) of train. The train in Jatinegara. The train have regular route - Jatinegara - Kramat - Kemayoran - Kampung Bandan, Duri, Tanah Abang, Manggarai, Depok. I want to join on lecture at STF Driyarkara).

Thursday, Feb. 11, 2016

I have dream. I just as on a place.  Just as Goloworok? I just as meet with Mr. Yoseph Lelo.  Just as have people die. Generally  according the  tradition have gathering money, in Manggarai be mentioned "seng wae lu'". I think it too. The other dream I forget.

Friday, Feb. 12, 2016


Saturday, Fab. 13, 2016

I have dream.
I just as get information about college which have program for each religion (Budha, Hindu, Catholic, Christian). I remember my family in order to can  continue study in this college.
Note: May be this dream related with real expereince Lely who stop lecture because pregnant. She went to Wela on Feb. 9, 2016. The other dream I forget.


Sunday, Feb, 14, 2016


Monday, Feb. 15. 2016
I have  dream. The location in Wela. Just as I walk  from Ntalung Pada to Wela / Mbaru Gendang. I see the people still gadthering. They are  Wens Aman (Wens Kaba) and his brothers. We have  problem with them? I'm not remember complete the  dream.


Tuesday, Feb.16,  2016
I have dream.
Just as have event at Wela. In Lilu's home (?). I entrance to  home. The condition is mud and tarnish (berlumpur)  becuses wet season. I entrance home use shoes. There is people see me wear shoes entrance home / mat (tikar). He is man. May be teacher. He is see me. Just as his see is complain to me. I aware. Although as host, I'm shame too.

Than in the other place, I see Mr. Alex. Just as he talk about Hila, my brother. May be Hila made something. It is that mr. Alex comment.

The other dream. Just as I  on a water faucet / river /pool. The water  not all part is clean.There is  part is turbid water.
.
Wednesday, Feb. 17,  2016
I have dream. But I   forget the  dream.
I'm sleep  late in last time, on  00:00. The rain come on 22:00. My eyes perih when entrance of rainy water in Jl. Boulevard  until VMG. The rain enough big. Until in the morning the rain come three  times.  I get up late.  I arrive late at school on 16:47. Wow...lose the money Rp 35.000 (transport and food money).


Thursday, Feb. 18,  2016
I have dream. But I   forget the  dream. May be because  sleep  late . In last evening I sleep  on 24:00.

Friday, Feb. 19,  2016
I have dream. But I   forget the  dream. May be because  sleep  late . In last evening I sleep  on 24:00.

Saturday, Feb. 20,  2016


Sunday, Feb. 21,  2016

I have  dream - in night  sleep
1. Meet  with  Msgr. Vincent Sensi Potokota,Pr - Arch Bishop of  Ende - Flores
2. Traveling  to other  place through  sea use boat
3. See Mr. Harnoto  come to my rent house. I think want to  take his property: chair etc.
4. See  former teacher - Ms Anna Selima - drive motor cycle.

Dream in day sleep:

Just as meet with friends of junior / senior High School in one  place

Monday. Feb. 22. 2016

I have  dream.
First  dream:
I just as in Menteng, Central Jakarta area. There I meet  with Manggarai people. May be they come  from NTT. Just as Kefamenanu?. In my brain / think just as Mr. Fery...........(former Kisol than move to Santu Klaus - when  JHS . He is my younger class). But who meet  with me now is his wife and  Child  and may be one people of Wela - Helmi Dijus? I see Mr. Fery's  wife is pretty.
Second  dream:
I meet  with Mr. Stanis Bandur  in one  Place. In Tilir?  He just as  sale the  dress of Batik. Many people interesant with it.  Almost all is sold out. Than we just as  go back together. In the way we we share. "I'm happy because all the Batik dress that I sale is sold out. I'm astonish when get the money." he talk. "How many do you get of benefit of it?  Is  it twice of  cost of   bought?" I ask. I'm  not buy it. We just as by pass  forest. I try to remember the way / path. Just as have  tree  of - Lente -  there as sign. We arrive on top of  mountain of forest. We can see  village - Tilir? )  that we start.  I see  the spring (mata air)  from there. "Oh...this  is spring that flow  to village of  down." I say in my heart. The  water just as muddy (turbid = keruh).  What is meaning  of this  dream?


  Third dream:
I just as on one place. I don't know that place. I just move to front than turn to left. Just as by pass river. I arrive there than I want to back to the main road /place. I by pass the other way. (I can remember thiis dream at afternoo, at 17:00 pm).

Tuesday. Feb. 23. 2016
I have dream. Just as I traveling on one place. I climb the mountain. I see the other top of mountain. It is already far. I success to climb mountain. I'm afraid to go to back. I afraid / worry fall down. In my imagine just as think Aconcagua mountain (in Argentina  country). I success for moment. I must effort to walk there. "Raki rakat tungke ngampang, "


Wednesday, Feb. 24,2016

I have dream.
The location at page of  Custome Home (Mbaru Gendang) of Wela. We just as play foot ball (soccer). It is the plastic  ball. The ball run out of field. It is falling down  to Mr. Bartolo Ngapuk house. The ball fall down in dirty place, may be human faces. The water in canal dirty.
Than we continue to play the ball.

In neigbour's page I see my sister, nun Sophy. Just as has issue that she is pregnant, while she is Catholic non that should be do celibate (Selibat). What meaning of this  dream?



Thursday, Feb. 25,2016

I have dream but I forget it.


Friday, Feb. 24,2016

I have  dream. I just as on one place. Just as have  event. I see Ms Ely Pangul's family, her brothers  and sisters. Just as her brothers and sisters want to fight. May be want to use cleaver (golok). We so worry with  this condition. "I can kick on her elbow (siku) of hand  so the cleaver (golok) fall down so not injured  (hurt =terluka). We very worry with it. Lucky the fight not happened.

The other dream I forget.




Monday. Feb. 29, 2016

I have dream. I just as go to Golowelu church to join on mass (pray). I wait long. The pray just as at presbytery (pastoran). Only few  people that come. I just as see or think Mr. Thomas Mbembok's family. They are source or origin our family. In Manggarai tradition we must respect to them. They just as source spring that give life to us.

The other dream: We just as in Golowelu. Just as my brother, Mr. John want to buy land / house there, near former house of Sanso (Chinese that live at Manggarai on year 1970 - 1980 ).
Note this dream can remember by memory authomatic without  stimulus. This is the secret / mistery of  mind.



Sunday, March 6, 2016


I have dream - when day sleep (12:00 - 14:00)

I just as on one  place. It is just as  ring fence (wall = dinding) as barrier (pembatas) one place with other place. It is new  ring fence (wall = tembol). It is still  be made. It is wet. I want to by pass there. I  move my but (pantat) and leg (kaki) . I almost fall down because  not balance. Lucky not happen. I stretch out (mengulurkan) my hand to other people. I ask help. The old man  help me. I save arrive there without fall down. What is meaning of this dream?

Monday, March 7, 2016

I have dream. The location just as at Wela (?). I entrance to one place. May be the property - land /garden -own  Mr. Philipus Jeharut   and Mr. Paulus Jalu. Just as  their children arrive there. We just as make activity / play together. I entrane to one area.  There I know and aware that it is former toilet hole, It is big hole  as landsfill (tempat pembuangan akhir). I'm feel  the condition of toilet just as slippery (licin).Wow...I late to know.  What is meaning of this dream?




Friday, March 11, 2016

I have dream.
I just as on one place. I see  just as  waterways (channel of water).  It's water for irrigate rice field  of Wela people. The water of river is clean.   In water there is young women (Nita)  and me. She just as say to me that my marital (perkawinan) fertility is good. John too. On that time my vital body is on.  We are in water. In there there is Mr. Philipus Jeharut, the head village of Wela. We just as want to main river.

What is meaning of this dream?
 
Monday, March 14, 2016
I have dream. We just as have target to collect the tree, may be for make building. We - Mr. Beny and I - climb hill (bukit). I see Mr. Beny already  go back. He  carry 2  wooden logs (kaui gelondongan). He admit tired because simultan carry both of  wooden blogs. He stop. I'm pity to him. It is easy if br doing one by ne but may be he want to quick finish  his work.  "If just as this, certainly I can not it ," I think in my mind. What is meaning of the dream?  Is have relation with my duty that many  and I'm not discipline to finish it on time? May be I can study fron this dream.

Than i call my brother Mr. Beny. We talk  with him. Ask to him about his condition.  evidently  his shoulder  is sick. Right my dream. My dream is right.

The dream talk   the reality  now. My older brother sick of the  right shoulder since some day ago until now.


lalong lapak sasa raja
bakok  ndereng : lapak
bakok ndereng - miteng : rompok (manuk wulu 3).





Monday, March 15, 2016 - Not remember the dream.



I have dream, but forget. On 04:30 I aware but  sleep again. I get up again on 06:15. I hurry up, jump from bedroom to go to bathroom. I  try to take bath faster. I prepare food  than start to school. Lucky still  arrive before 06:45. I give thanks to God. In last time I sleep late because do my task.  


Tuesday, March 16, 2016 - 
I have the dream. May be just as love dream. I meet  with Ms Indri, my teacher friend at Optima and JPS. She and I  still single. I just as interesant to her.
Than just as have other dream. May be just as in office. There is student's bag. It's Steven Priyatna's  bag. I just as secure it. "In teacher room is safe, no one take it," I think.

 


Thrusday, March 17, 2016 -  no remember the dream

Friday, March 18, 2016 - 

I have dream. 
I just as on one place.  I meet someone (man) who alumni Santu Klaus Kuwu. He talk about people from Wela Lembor, may be my classmate Simon Kemudi or Sil Syukur. He just as family with them. 

Than I have other dream. I just as do my duty in top floor on a building. May be at second or third floor.  I use extra time for do it. Why use extra time? May be because I'm so slow. I see from window, ther is security in base floor who still wait. I use lamp for light.  What is meaning of this dream?
 

Monday, March 21, 2016

I have dream.

I just as visit a place. Just as in  Terang / Mbarang. I see region just see garden. In last time it is  forest. I see the garden not work by people. It is leave by people because not ……(subur) again. I see some of plant and rest (sisa) of tree. “This is the risk of if destroy the forest. The land not ……(subur) again. Than I walk opposite the dry river. It is still have forest but  just as become protection forest by government. I entrance. I see the good trees just as for make house. I see the dry wood that match for  fire wood.

What is meaning of the dream?

 Tuesday, March 22, 2016 - no remember the  dream.

Wednesday, March 23, 2016

I have the dream. The venue is at our garden, in Mbarang at Wela village.  I come to garden. I see the tree. May be “waso tree”. There is branch already cut. There is branch that dry even broken.  I walk to north direction. I see Mr. Frans ……., my senior when Major Seminary. I talk with him. “Our link to Kolang Area very depth. We have many family at Kotok. Base on story, our women ancient from  Teno Kolang. The other Wela of women ancient from  Suka.  Than see this garden just as  park. The   grass  very tidy. In near limit /  border between part of south and middle, in near “waek” tree. I just as see the late (almarhum) Father Gaspar. Mr. Frans…..already lose. Just as transform my Father, the late Mr. Gaspar Ngganggu. He continue my story. He just as connect about  our (clan activity) sacrifice of White Buffalo  in last time. Our clan (family) kill the White Buffalo as sign give thank to God. “We already lobby / work hard to success itu,” he said. “Oh… evidently, although had pass away father still work hard to success of this activity. “ I say ini my heart. Now, I see  is  face. On this time, during he  was pass away, he show face and voice to me.  My brother, John and Hila just  as at still out. Just as have glass windows. I want Mr. John and Mr. Hila can listen Father’s  talked / speech. I give signal to them in order  to they  come to listen Father’d message.

On the other dream, I just as collect together my sister, Ms Susana Daud. She juat as less of money. May be for pay school fee  for  Hil , their’s  daughter. They want to  borrow it to me. But,…evidently I’m not have much money. Wow…. what is meaning  of this dream? 





Monday, March 28, 2016

I have a dream. The venue is at Ntalung Pada - Merkedila - Wela, my village. I just as delivery someone, our family. Just as us car. Than stop  at Merkedila. Someone - Mr. Andy - stop there. I see he walk in stage. He is Mr. Andy Gunawan, our big (besan). When he is walk and climb  in stage (stairs = tangga), just as has big animal - just as tiger) - come to against with him.  Mr. Andy retreat, back to land. I help Mr. Andy. I fight with the tiger. It move become little animal. I try to slam (banting) to kill it but  so difficult. The tiger move become evil. I admit (akui)  it is difficult to fight with  it. It have high energy.

Than I back to Ntalung Pada. In  just as near Mr. Beny's housue I just as pick something. I pick (levy = memilih) with animal feces too. I'm disgusted (jijik) too.

Than I have other dream.

I drive big motor cycle just as GLMax . I drive in bad way. Just as climb road in front of  Mr. Beny's  house.  I think I can not by pass it. I doubt. But I try.  I by pass it. Evidently  I success by pass it. I success

" Soul" lead  body. My body


Tuesday, March 29, 2016 - no remember the dream
May be about train?



Wednesday, March 30, 2016
I have  dream. The venue just as at Satarara. I meet with  my classmate - Mr. Alex Ruhan - dan his brother - Lipus - We by the way. In one way  they find me save the vegetable in my box. I'm shame because my food so simple. It is my secret but they know it. I'm shame.
Than I meet with Mr. Leksi Armanjaya. We met on one place that nice for us. We talk. I imagine how I by pass  Wae Sewe to go and back to take something.

Than I imagine if I use busway by pass West Jakarta. It is cheap but need long time.

What is meaning of this  dream?
May be related with task in school  about pick equipment of mass. I go to the Saint Albertus church to get it.



Thursday, March  31, 2016 -

I have dream. The dream about activity at near Mr. Thomas Mbembok at Golowelu. I just as come to their gate house, do anything there. (The other  part of dream  forget. May be because my memory can not remember again and may be my  because I sleep late, at 12:30 am (00:30 am).


Friday, April  1, 2016 -

I have  dream. I just as on one place. Just as  with Mr. Ino Jemabut. I just as share idea that I ever walk / on foot to one place.

The other dream  forget.


Saturday, April  2, 2016 -


Sunday, April  3, 2016 -

Monday, April  4, 2016 - Dream 04:00 - 05:45
I have dream. The location at  Wela , especially at Bangka garden. I went to Bangka. My former teacher join together me. She is Ms Lid Inul. She is my favourite teacher when Primary school. She and I go to the Bangka garden in the early morning. May be we have destination to Lale garden too. In Mr. Bernadus Bakal garden in Bangka we stop. May be we want to take corn in Mr. Bernadus Bakal's garden. On Mrs. Lid's basket have corn. Than I see Mother Regina already go back from Bangka garden to home. "Mom, please give us corn," I ask to her. "Please take by yourself in  Bangka garden," she said. Than Ms Lid and I went to there. We by pass  water springs (mata air) in Mr. Ande Manto's garden. We cross Mr. Lius Beong's dan Mr. Markus Abut's  garden. We arrive there. "This  as garden is ration (jatah) for me. This is heritage of parents  for me," I explained to Ms Lid. "Where is Edy now?" I asked her. Edy is worked at shop at Ruteng now." she answer. Edy is her son. "Wow....work at shop? It is not proper, the teacher child have job just it. " I think. Than we pick (memetik)  orange (jeruk). The orange is yellow color. it is nice in view. We eat it. I see Ms. Lid face. I have dare to see her face now. Than while we want to move from place we take orange there is children come. Just as they want to ask orange. I try to open it, part per part to distribute to them.

Then just as there are letter to diagnosis (diagnosa) to my health, but I'm not yet open what comment of it. Than I aware.
In last night I get disturb of sleep. I get up on 04:00 am. Than try to sleep and than get the dream above.In last night I slep on almost 01:00 am because did my work of lecture. In yesteday afternoon I sleep   since 15:00 -17:30 pm.

I get up on the morning on 05:50 am. than take a bath. Than start to school. I arrive at school at 06:38 am. Not late. Than I lead student to morning prayer at Gym.

Tuesday, April 5, 2016 - Dream until - 06:25

I have dream. The location at Golowelu. My classmate when Primary - Maria Namul - and I walk to Golowelu. We arrive in area in twist (curve = tikungan) at former place of Chinese house, Sanso. Sanso is chinese  trader who open shoop in Golowelu in last time when I primary school. May be he move on year 1982  from Golowelu. I ask to Maria Namul about this shop is she remember or no. Maria Namul seem ignorant (cuek). We are consist of three people. One friend I I don't know who is he. We arrive in near Mama'f Tom former house.

Than I have other dream. I by pass this twist (curve = tikungan) but I want to Wela. I just as uphold (menjunjung) mattress (kasur). It seem not neat (rapi), so my hand  difficult to reach to  handle it. I meet my former teacher, Mrs Ely Pangul in climb road. I see there  are new house in former Mr. Stanis Duli house. It is make from reed (alang-alang) as roof (atap ) and bamboo as wall. I walk continue just as to Mr. Beny's house.

Than I have  the other dream.
In one place I just the people gathering. Just Karaoke (karoke) / brothel (pelacuran) place? I see a staff just as give medicine for 2 men who want to meet with girls in the room. Just as pill for health.
Than I see the other staff give microfon / mike to Mr. Ino to sing the Manggarai song. I join on the song but the sing seem difference with I know.  What is meaning of this dream?

This dream come on the morning until I get up late is o6:30 am. I arrive late in  school today at 07:05 am.



Wednesday, April 6, 2016 -

I have dream. It's about soccer, Champion League, Barca vs Atletico Madrid. I see on dream at tv that Barca win 2-1. Messi make goal. In reality in  early morning, may be at 02:30 am there is soccer playing at TV. I haven't tv. I relly on internet or ask the other people to know it.
Than I start to school. When I open internet at school evidently my dream right and wrong. Right Barca win 2 -1, wrong, all Barca goal make by Suarez. Messi not make goal.

Thursday, April 7, 2016 - not remember the dream.Memory can not remember. I know have dream
Friday, April 8, 2016 - not remember the dream. Memory can not remember. I know have dream

Saturday, April 9, 2016

Sunday, April 10, 2016
Monday, April 11, 2016  -  have dream when sleep at afternoon / evening when so full eat food." Just as Mr. Lexy say something to me as joke.

Tuesday, April 12, 2016 - no dream because no sleep in the night - because "disturb sleep" cause eat chili in old vegetable.

Wednesday, April 13, 2016. -
dream about  Mr. Gusty Jata just  as in  home. I know it from others. The place in Wela. I get up late 06:13. I'm tired because not sleep in last night Wednesday.

Thursday day, April 14, 2016.
 I have dream
The first the location at Lembor.
I have dream.
The location at  Lembor at  Mr. Largus Gagut's house. Just as I want to go to  somewhere. I don't know go to there. Than I go to Pandang. I see something. I see place, just as school? I see Moslem people. I by pass Mosque. They  were in Mosque who still pray (sholat). I know they see me.  

I just as  in Golo Karot Lembor , just as want to somewhere from Mr. Largus home. We go to west than turn to right. We see the Moslem people who stay / pray in Mosque / mushola. Their face to face. Just as they see me who still pass in road.

Second   dream:
I'm in one place. Just as our principal give announcement. "Frans, please remember," he said. "Okay sir," I answer. He just as stand up out  of fence. Just as have other Lembata / Flores people.

Third dream.

I   drive motor cycle in Ntalung Pada to Golowelu. In near Mr. Paul - Mr. Beny Jelami house there is the bed road. I drive motor cycle in bad road (hole, tarnish, etc).
Just as the people in Ntaung Pada have project about repair that road so make the big jamm (macet). Just as Mr. Beny said something about their decision to make stop cars when repair, make the user way complain. "Apa keta ata tegi de  meun, wiga pande macet ata lako salang?" just as it their complain.

What is  meaning of this dream?  - Is  soul (unconscious) lead the body (conscious)? How is relation  unconscious and conscious?  See experience below:

May be with my condition. Today, I have plan to Jakarta, Rawamangun to take the photo copy book than I go to campus to join lecture.. I'm doubt to start faster. I bussy to handle my paper lecture. I start at 16:00. The windy come with the strong at  The sky  is cloudly. Jl. Bulevard. The leaf of tree fall down near me. In  near BCA / Pom bensin Harapan Indah, the rain  come. I  use raincoat. I save  motor cycle at  Pondok Ungu. Than I star to Jakarta. I on foot to Halte Basway of Ujung Menteng to get busway. I on foot without shoes. I'm wet. I wait busway so long. The time show at 17:00 the time to start lecture at campus. "Wow...I'm wrong take decision. It is good  and better   if I use train t o campus than I back the book on  to campus library.." I think. "Use busway not effctive because wait bus so long, more than 30 minute. The other reason, it is internal reason of me that I'm so slow. I'm so relaxed (santai). Evidently I reach the first busway when I already arrive at  shelter ujung Menteng but I so long handle raincoat, so lose time. The busway come faster, I'm late. I must wait more than 30 minute more.  The busway come. I entrance. The rain come so big today, make jamm in road.  I arrive at  18:00 at Pulo Gadung. . The bus continue to  Bermis / ISMIS. I stop at  Bermis shelter. I have plan to take book at  Rawamangun. There are passenger want to Jl. Pemuda - Rawamangun to  Halte Layur. "Your can together me," I say. But than I  chang mind (berubah pikiran). There I'm confuse, what is priority go to campus to join lecture or go to Rawamangun to take photo copy book. I'm  dilemma. The busway to Rawangaun not come. I'm regret. I'm stress. "I'm disputed / blame (mempersalahkan) myself. I'm remember my dream in last night. Is my  journey  is manifestation of dream in last night / morning. I decide to cancel / postpone to go to Rawamangun. I'm stress because the busway to there not come too while busway to Harmany so many. I decide to use bus to Cempaka Putih.  "I use busway from Cempaka Putih to Rawamangun," I think.  I go to there. "Why is bus to Rawamangun come so long  while busway to Harmony  fast  dan many? I ask to crew busway. "Because passenger. The passenger to Rawamangun is few than  to Harmony," he said. "Okay," thank you," I say.  I stop at  Cempaka Putih shelter. I stop there and exit. I want to Rawamangun but I postpone it. I already walk to shelter Cempaka Putih. I only delivery people from Java (Kudus). This people  wonder (heran) when I know the area in Central Java, examle Kendal, Batang, Demak, Kudus. "How do you know?" he ask. I by pass there," I answer. He want to Tanjung Priuk. I help him to know the way to Tanjung Priuk. I decide to back to shelter Cempaka Mas, place I exit from  busway to Harmony. I decide to go to campus first. I want to back the of library of campus today. The time show 07:10 am. I decide to stop at shelter RS Islam than  use Metromini 47. I pay Rp 4.000. I stop at Rawasari than entrance to campus. I put my bag a security office. I back to book to librarian. Only one. Others, I still use. I meet with my brother, Mr. Gusty. May be he is librarian staff too. "Levi is hear come to join of graduation (wisuda) of Joseph, May be she go back to Manggarai on next Tuesday," Agus said. They are in Bintaro Than I go to campus secreatary. I meet with Father Prof. Alex Lanur, OFM. We by the way. I ask Fath er Sastrapratedja, SJ. He was going to Yogykarta today.," he said.  I taught philosophy at undergraduate level today to change him. " he said. Than father Alex Lanur goes back to Depok after he change money at secretary staff. Than I go to office of Father Sastro to  see my paper of  thesis proposal . When I see to box  in front of his office, I don't find it. "May be Father Sastrapratedja, SJ  already take it," I say. Than I go back to  first floor. I shame to entrance to lecture room because late. Today Prof. Father  Soedarminta, SJ teach about Hermeneutic on Culture of Theory. Today I fail join of lecture. I meet with friends. I talk with them (Mr. Arief, Mr. Suki, Mr. Roy, Mrs Lisa). I just know Ms Lisa recent married with Mr. James. In Last December Mr. James (from America). We speak about  culture of Toraja. Ms Lisa from Toraja, but stay at Jakarta. Ms Lisa, Mr. Roy and I discuss  for moment. Than I go back. Before it I call my family. I lack of money so I need their help. Finally I call my mother Regina. "We already sleep, The electric was off since in last afternoon. All family already sleep," she said. "I want to speak with Mr. John," I say. She looking for but none. May be he is in Mr. Yan's house. Teacher Yan come from Reo today," mom said. "Pleaese say to John I want to sent his money. Please help me," I say. "Okay," I will say to him tomorrow,: she answer. Than I go back. I'm eat  at "Warteg". I eat rice, soup and fish. I pay Rp 10.000. Than I want to Rawamangun. I wait Metromini 47. I'm confuse (bingung), doubt (ragu) and undecided (bimbang) go to Rawamangun to take book or direct to go to Harapan Indah. I calculate with   stock money that I have. It is less than Rp 50.000. I'm crising money  now. I'm regret because not get car. I decide to on foot to Rawasari to shelter busway. I decide to go back to Harapan Indah. I use  busway. I conduse to  find bus card. Finally I find. I entrance to shelter. I wait busway in Rawasari so long. Than I entrance to bus when the bus come. I think already arrive at shelter Cempaka Mass. I exit. Wow...I'm  false. It is Taman Solo. Two shelter again I arrive there. I wait busway again.In this shelter i find experience, a man, passenger very angry with staff ticketing busway because the bus  the bus come so long. He angry while hit (memukul) the pillar of entrance to busway. A women  of busway ticketing staff angry to him. They debate. "Please give number center busway to me," the man said. "It is ......" she answer. :How come your management, the bus come so long," he man said. "The road  big jammed. If you want to complain please  call to call centre," the women answer. "Monkey you," he said to he women. The women entrance to office.  Than the bus come. I entrance. This man busy with angry left of bus again. I' m feel funny to him. He angry to false person. May he he write that the bus come so long but not because the staff that he angry. The management busway  not so good. "Busway still on the way to repair the management, need many staff," a busway staff expalin to me in last time when I use busway from  Bermis to  Cempaka Putih. "I admit that management busway not so good now. many passenger no get information in the way / shelter.  I stop at Cempaka Putih / Cempak Mas shelter. I move to busway to Pulo Gadung. "How if we want to Harapan Indah is bus way still affailable?? I ask. "It is avalable. You exit at ISMI (?) wait busway there. Is this  new policy because before  stop at Pulo Gadung? I ask. "Yes, recent 2 days valid of this policy. How about destination to Harapan Indah, why can not stop at HI but stop at Ujung Menteng? I ask. Oh now, stop at Harapan Indah," the crew answer.  I exit at ISMI (?) at 10:05 the bus come. I entrance. Wow....it is bif jamm in road. Almost one hour  from Jakarta to HI. In the busway I find something new is there is pray book let on busway. The content is book is pray is 6 religion in Indoenesia. They are pray of Moslem, Christian, Catholic, Hindu, Budha, Konghuju. Wow...wonderful. Jakarta is metropolitan city. Than I stop at  Harapan Indah. I  on foot to take make motor cycle in place of bike storage (tempat penitipan Motor) at Pondok Ungu. My jacket almost dry. Than I pay the cost parking is Rp 3.000. "In next time no need so  key of  handlebar (stang)," the management saff said and complain. Okay, thank you. I pay Rp 3.000. Than I go back to home. I buy banana Rp 5.000 in the way. Than I manage myself than rest.  The rain in last time make me  fell dizzy (meriang). Than I sleep.




Friday , April 15, 2016.

Saturday , April 16, 2016.

Sunday,April 17, 2016.

Dream in busway, sleep for moment while read book of :A General Introduction to Psychoanalysis Sigmund Freud" . The some short dream come. The dream that I remember is Mr. Harjono, the principal of JHS-SHS JPS  come to me. Than I aware again.

Monday , April 18, 2016.

I have dream.
1. I am  just as in one place. This is new place to me. Just as want to visit my sister, Ms Nely or Ms Vero. We arrive at Ms Vero's  house. "Certainly they prepare chicken for accept me because my custome position is "anak rona" . Than we arrive in the home.

2. Suddenly I see my youngest  brother, Rony  just as suckle (menyusui) to Regina mom. Just as he still infant. I'm think is this Rony or no, because if Rony he already adult. Than the baby give complain. "The people forbid me to talk about genital female" he said. I try to understand.  "Oh....it is  impolite talk it in public for child," I say to him.  Than back to aware, my genital body is on.

3.Than on one place, just as I see  on a room a baby. Just as Mr. Yon Lesek's baby of women. I sit down beside her. The home just as  warehouse (gudang).
I have other dream.

4. I just as in one place. I see the airplane.  The airplane in  just as  wide field (padang luas). The field seem green. Just as have  river, valley (lembah)  and gorge (jurang)  between airport with main city.

5.  One  dream i forget.

Than I get up on  06:10 am. I take a bath than prepare myself to go to school.

Tuesday , April 19, 2016.
I have  dream. The condition is on one place. I meet with others. Just as whith Mr. Andy Gunawan. I  see his friend / girl friend. I see myself. I use the   shorts . I see my  part body of vital of short. It is strict (ketat). I know it when I see the girl. I'm shame to entrance to the room.


Wednesday, April 20, 2016.
I have dream.  The location at Bangka, at near  limit our garden with  with  late (almarhum)  Mr. Markus Abut's garden.

Thursday, April 21, 2016 - I don't know I have  dream or no in last time.
Since last evening, I'm stress because my proposal thesis hot many critic, include from my guide / preceptor (pembimbing), adviser (penasihat/pembimbing), leader (pimpinan), Prof. Dr. Sastrapratedja,SJ. Your proposal write many themes, . Please focus," he said. Prof. Dr. Magnis Suseno,SJ said same word. Please focus," he said. My college friends (teman-teman kuliah) have same impression (kesan). Wow.... this is hard critic to me. I see  facial expressions (ekspresi wajah) of  Prof. Dr. Sastrapratedja,SJ. His expression show: angry, dislike,excuse me (pesimis), denial (penolakan). I read expressions just as it. This condition make me stress.  Mr. Bayu, Ms Santy, Mr. Roy, Mr. Bayu Yohanes, Mr. Felix give  critic to my proposal thesis. I'm stupefied (tertegun) see myself. I already give the best but according all them I'm not focus. I try to encourage (boost = mendorong) myself to still spirit. On condition entrance to my sleep. My sleep not so long. I fast aware. May be on 03:30 am. Than I get up, take a bath than start to school. I arrive at 06:45 school.

Friday, April 22, 2016 - no remember  the dream. I don't know have dream or no.

Saturday, April 23, 2016
I have dream. Just as I join with Father Sunarko,OFM  to someplace. He just as teach how to make good  homily / sermon (kotbah). We just as use car. We arrive in garden of production. I see Father SUnarko, OFM try to giving training to Catholic people.
I see the people who work at the garden. Just as they maintain the avocado tree. The area enough  large (luas). Just as I have desire to work there too. Just as this is own the company. So there is change (perubahan) management  from traditional (farmer) to  modern (bussiness).

I have the other dream.
I just as on journey. I come from one village. I on foot. I climb the way land  with stone. Just as tired. In way just as meet with people  from Kolang. Kolang is near with Wela, my village. I can speak  Kolangnese. I do it. They are cuople just as teacher that teach at East area. I want to ask them about the name of village but not get seriouly response from them, may be because they busy on journey.
Than I just as I see with other people women who still  family bearing (hubungan) with us. She is Ivon S. We one have same grandmother in Lasang is Landom. I call Ivon  name.
Than I aware.



Sunday, April 24, 2016

Monday, April 25, 2016

Tuesday, April 26, 2016
I have dream. I just as in one place, may be in Lida, West Manggarai . We are in one house. I see my brother, Mr. Rony  is there too. Than suddenly  a group people  entrance. A man bring the  cleaver (golok) to kill us. I entrance to the room. The leader of team who bring cleaver  give statement to us. Just as he and his team - just as Lida / Porong Tedeng people complain because not employ (mempekerjakan) the young boy from Lida / Coal. Just as have project. We know of this  case. I aware of this policy.

What is meaning of this  dream?

Reflection:

In the morning Mr. Ben Ayung give sign to me to meet him. "Sorry, today  I'm bussy," I say. I don't know what information that he want to say to me.



Wednesday, April 27, 2016
I have dream. The location in oe place. I don't know the place if i compare with conscious mind. I come to that place. I meet with  the students. In my mind they are Moslem people. They use the uniform. They do something that impolite according to me. Than I rebuke (menegur) them. I know that it is not proper to do.

Than I arrive in one place. I meet with my college friend of Philosophy Magister Program. He is Mr. Roy Seran. Just as we meet  in food stalls (warung makan) /  shop tent (warung tenda. We talk about our activity in campus especially thesis. "How about your thesis?" I ask. Than we discuss. What is meaning of this dream?

Reflection:

Evidently, in the afternoon on mind conscious, In Cakung Station I'm regret to junior student  who not follow rule when buy ticket. He  is swing (menikung) me whereas I'm the first in the front of ticket office. "This student impolite, not now rule to queue culture. Than he use enough time to bargain (tawar) price to ticketing staff. "Please IDR 2.000 to Klender," he ask. "You are stupid, the price already fix, can not  bargain," I asy  while angry to him. I almost rebuke him. "You make me  late to campus," I think.

Wow... may be this is mean of the first dream.

Than the second dream.

In campus, today we have thesis seminar. After thesis seminar I talk with my college friend. He  is  Julius. We discuss about  thesis  leader / advisor.

The dream almost  right / match with  reality.


Thursday, April 28, 2016 

I have a dream. The venue just as at between  Wae Bangka - Besi,  Lembor west  Manggarai. I meet with the people in the village. I hear just as they talk about their activity in sea. Are they fisherman? May be but it is not clear. In my mind, the sea / beach that  near  from that place is  in Nangalili. Nangalili lies in west  from there. It is enough far from there. But evidently there is  the  beach that near from there. The position is in east. It is turn to left than find the beach / sea.   ** What is meaning of this dream?

Scientific reflection:  Is this dream as a fullfilment  wish ? Study book : Interpretation of Dream - Sigmund Freud.



Friday, April 28, 2016

I have the dream. I just as on one place. Just as have "competition" that celebrate by OPTIMA, my former place of  work. I see a momen coordinate the activity. 

Than I  have other dreams. Just as have activity in other place. I see Mr. Robert Wardy  and Mr. Alex join. Just as I  have  other activity in other place.

Sunday, May 01, 2016

I have dream. I can remember this dream after have stimulus. In the morning when wake up I forget this dream. But when I went to church to join on mass, I see the children. Than I remember our family. She is Ms Ivon S. Than I remember my mom. With think mother I can  remember my dream in last night (morning). It is romantic / sexuality dream. I feel my vital body was on. Wow….. so romantic.

Monday, May 02, 2016

I have a dream. I just as come from  west to east. I just as use public vehicle. The walk / road  just as zigzag (berliku-liku) . Evidently  if  pull  it straight (tarik lurus) it is near.

The other dream. I was in place. Just as have swimming pool.  I’m swimming. I was worry sink (tenggelam), evidently I can swim. I save arrive in destination place. But the water seem dirty. On riverbed (dasar) of pool   is  dirty, the water just as  black. I want to  swim again but the water already receding (surut). I try to clean myself in margin /edge pool. I  use the  faucet water (air keran). It is hot and cold. We can set it.

The other dream.

Than just as  I was in one place. I just as want to journey. Someone delivery us with car to airport. A liitle aero plane  already come. It just helicopter. I’m worry too because it is the little line.   I entrance. Just as Mr Alex Maji too. I see Mans  Metar too. Mans from Maumere. We use the same helicopter. The pilot exit from his place of pilot. The line door open. We entrance. Just as helicopter walk by itself. We are worry. Evidently the  the driver  of car simultan pilot  see and know this condition. From out he try to use tool to stop it. I hope Mr. Alex and  Mr. Mans  who know  drive can know how to stop it. Just as the helicopter stop because there is tree that block (menghadang) it.

The other dream:

I climb the palm tree. Just as there is people done it previous. Just as Fantri, from Maumere.  Than I try. After try finally I success to reach to top.  “Wow…I success”,” I say. “Live of Saint Fransiskus school,” I say in top of palm tree. Just as I delegate from Saint Fransiskus school.

What is meaning of this dream?

 Tuesday, May 3, 2016

I  have  dream. Just as I   entrance to lake / river. I just as want to sink (tenggelam)  but than I can  swim. I reach to  the destination place. Just as the ladder. Than I  try to  entrance to rive / lake but the water is receding (surut). The base of  river / lake is dirty. many trash (sampah). The trash seem black. Wow.... 

What is meaning of this  dream?

Wednesday, May 4, 2016
I have dream. The location at Wela. Just as in Mr. Sius Sintus' house. We just as discuss. On that time I talk. I give opinion. We  talk about the figures.  We compare some figures.


Evidently in waking life (dunia bangun)   in campus I try to answer what the  lecturer (dosen) question. Prof. Sastraprateja taught us. He talk about Psychoanalysis of Sigmund Freud. Evidently I answer wrong. But I have dare / brave to answer.

Thursday, May 5, 2016
 I have dream. I just as meet with my class mate. She is Rofina Anur. She is state teacher now. She is teacher in Ruteng.go to other place use the car.

Than just as we want to  t

I have  dream (in the afternoon). I just as I go back from garden of Mbarang in Wela. When arrive after Roga / Tobok  in Mr. Anton's Epong's  garden, we see Mr. Endy madur and brother. Just as  they looking for mouse in embankment (dike =   pematang). But they looking for mouse in  the late Mr. Paulus Habong's garden. There is fire in dike. Dike to make mouse exit from  hole.
I  just as walk with Hila, my younger brother. He just as say his children / our  nephew (keponakan)  joke to him with make hole his dress.

Satuday, May 7, 2016. - I'm not remember my dream. When get up I remember Kampung Koko ii Wae Ri' Distrik. This area the Catholic people entrance to Protestant church. What is wrong with Catholic Church?

Sunday, May 8, 2016.

Monday, May 9, 2016.

I have dream. In one building I  walk together with frind teacher women. She is Ms........ "You are pretty," I say to her while kiss her. Evidently she is pretty. She is still  young and single. Yesterday, Sunday, May 8, 2016,  I see her in  Church. She is pretty.

The other dream:
I just as in  Merkedila, Wela. I see Mr. Hendrik Aron. Just as still pee in margin road beside of bus. While in the forest / garden I just as hear the sound of animal. After few minutes the animal (horses) come but lucky not hit (menabrak)  the people (Mr.Hendrik). We just as take stone to  throw (melempar) to expel (mengusir)  horses.
Note: in last night I sleep late on 02:05 because work the task of lecture (mid semester paper). I need time so long to do it. Focus Frans. Be professional please!

Tuesday, May 10, 2016.
I have dream.
The dream is Mr. Egy Patnistik as  employee in a company.

The other  dream.

This is erotic dream. I love to my mom, Regina. She was still sleeping. He was sleeping with outspread (terentang).  She was old. I come. I touch her body. I kiss her.  I lick (jilat) her vital body.  But  she just not respons. She said to me: " Must not take the fish / meat that Mr. Paulus Habong offer," she said.  Wow.... romantic dream.  Evidently I  do wet  dream. My sperm is exit form my penis.

I wake up. I'm so sad  with this dream.


Wednesday, May  11, 2016 - I have  dream but my memory can not remember it.

Thursday,  May 12, 2016 - ro remember the dream. I don't know have dream or no.

Friday,  May 13, 2016
I have dream.
I just as by pass river. The river not so clean but not so dirty too.

The other  dream.

Mr. Ino and I  join on Manggarai activity. Just as we join on cultural festival. We sing Manggarai song, just as Sanda / Mbata. The lyrick and poetry I'm not remember. Just as it  disguised (vague = samar).

 Saturday, May 14, 2016


Sunday, May 15, 2016
I have dream.  I just as on one place. Just as at market. I drive motor cycle. I want to go back. I on the motor cycle.  I get difficult to on it. Finally success too.  Than I just as  in one place. Just as at my school when Primary School on SDI Golowelu I West Manggarai, Flores. Just as have path to go back building.

What is meaning of this  dream?
The  motor cycle that get difficult to start.
When I go back  from the church I by pass riverbank (bantaran kali). I get big jammed (congestion= kemacetan). I  decide to by pass Aralia / Ifolia . I do it. Than I trun to right to riverbank (bantaran kali)  near Kampung Bogor. Than I see path to right. I think it  is way to Kampung Bogor. I by pass .  I by pass  among the pool (kolam). Kampung Rawa consist of  marshes (rawa-rawa). Evidently it is  dead end (jalan buntu). The way is narrow. I try to U -turn (putar balik). I must u turn the motor cycle first. I do it in narrow path. I find the solution. I use the standard as  centre than I rotate it. I success make it. I go back to previous road. Than I find the way to Village. I success to find the  main way in Kampung Bogor than I continue to my rent house at VMG.



Monday, May 16, 2016
I have dream. The location in our home, "Mbaru Gendang" Wela. Just as visiting of Indonesia Vice President, Mr. Jusup Kala (JK).  I see Father Marsel Agot,SVD  just as official /  committee (panitia). He use dress same with vice president, Mr. Jusup Kala. The stage in Mr. Bone Kaso's room.
Just as Mr. JK still dialog with  Wela community (masyarakat). Just as Mr. JK explain the goverment policy. Than the Wela community response. "We take decision for the policy after hear Lembor, Kuwus, Masang Pacar community," he said. And Wela? Is Wela  dusun of Indonesia? " he ask  rhetorical. I waant to answer his question. "Wela not dususn of Indonesia. It is Wela of village (dusus). What do you ask to me, Mr. JK ask. We just as difficult to mention / ask what our need. I think to reforestration (reboisasi) of forest  around Wela. Than I try to think about  machine to  milled (giling) coffee. But no one ask. I just as get disturb of  kind of bee. I try to avoid. Just as as when I avoid or parry (menangkis) the bee entrance to Mr. JK. Mr. JK complain it to me. He blame me.  Just as as change place to entrance / path door, to entrannce to home. Wow..... what is meaning of this  dream?

Tuesday, May 17, 2016

I have dream.
I just as treveling. I use bus. Just as trevelling to Lembor. I bring  big carton ( cardboard = kardus). I see two people help to bring it use physical (fisik).  Just as carton of book. I think it is weight. I'm still in back while the box already front of me bring by two men.  One man may be my brother, Mr. John.

The other  dream:

I just as  on one place, join on dance with a women. Just as I can  dance with women. I enjoy it. This is romantic dream. Our body meet one another.
Than I just as see a body vital genital / suaxuality of women. I kiss it. Than I see the  hole of it. I use. I entrance my penis there. I enjoy it. Wow...evidently I have romantic dream. I have bad  dream. When wake up I see my panties (celana dalam) is wet.

I can remember of this  dream when emember  the song: "....dansa baik-baik, jangan sampai berkelahi, kala mau berkelahi, minta izin lebih baik". I remember this in gate / door when I start to school. We cn remember the dream with stimulus, e.g. song.  from song we can entrance to  dream.


Wednesday, May 18, 2016
I have dream.
I just as in one place.  I'm just as with  others. I just as entrance to one room. May be with others. Than this dream just as disguised (samar). I can remember nicely.

Than just as move to other place / room.
I am  just as  on one room / place. Suddenly I hear sound someone that fall down to floor. Evidently  it is baby. What is happening? Evidently a women  throw (melempar) the baby from  up to down. Someone may be regret or angry to the baby. May be it is man (boy). Than there is people who care, help the baby. He / she take the baby  than  pickaback (gendong). Than the women  that mother of baby come. I see her.

Thursday, May 19, 2016 - I don't know I have dream or no. Today I birthday. In the morning  I pray to give thanks. I spend IDR  150.000 to buy cake for friends in Primary level oa JPS  school. Yesterday, I deposited  (entrusted = menitipkan) money to Ms Dian - teacher friend - to buy it at Pondok Ungu. She help to open and cut it.


Friday, May 20, 2016.

I have dream. I drive motor cycle on  highway hike (mendaki). I'm doubt with strong capacity of motor cycle. I have hope I can success drive until at top of climbing. My hope arrive at top while  the reality not yet. The power of motor cycle seem weak.

Than I jut as take a rest in one place.

I  see a path  on  one  house / building. Beside left pf it  available  the   little way (path)  to a place / destination. 

I can remember of this dream  by stimulus (rangsangan). The stimulus today is the hike way up (jalan mendaki)   in limit (batas)  Rawa Inndah village with Aralia  housing (perumahan). I drive motor cycle at 06:30 am. The motor cycle get difficult to by pass  climb (tanjakan) place. May be I'm mistake in trick.  I use the third gear (gigi 3),  even though (padahal) sebenarnya the second or the first gear. I hear sound of machine of motor cycle that show the machine is weak. While in front of me the is bike that get difficult to  drive until top so she  exit from bike for moment to  push it. When meet with this experience I remember / connect with  my dreams in last night about drive motor cycle on  way up that similar with this   reality.


Saturday, May 21, 2016. - I don't know I have dream  or  no in last night.


Sunday, May 22, 2016.
I have dream.
I  have dream when sleep in the  night. I just as on travelling. I by pass a river. The water  in river only few. I see the  pipe which just already old   or  already expired. The pipe just as   rusty (berkarat). No water exit from there. The water flow in river / land. I meet  Mr. Ande Musa,, my neighbor in  village. Just as river  more than one. He is in left branch of river. He is front of me. He is in river.  He is standing up in river. I'm in back of him. He touch the water. The  water that touch him flow to me.

I have the other dream. The dream about activity with my friends at JPS. But detail I forget

I wake up on 2.30 am. In last  night I sleep fast, may be at  21:00. I seem sleep. After take a rest during  5 hours I'm get up. I go to toilet.

Than I sleep again

The other  dream. I just as  join on activity in JPS  with friends of teacher. We are in one place. There is  main road than there is place / patch as branch. The car can by pass there. The brannch in right side is bed than left side. Just as there is  friend  push  something, just as   trash can  / dump (tempat sampah). I see someone pull. I just as follow. Than arrive in a place. We want to bring it by pass the hang bridge (jwembatan gantung). There is the match place ther but  no good place  connenct the hang bridge with  with base  land / ground. We get difficult to move the  dump.

What is meaning of this  dream?

May be have relation with the bridge that I by pass in the afternoon when go to the Saint Albertus to join on afternoon mass. I by pass the bad  bridge in kampung Bogor in back of Aralia / Ifolia housing. I get difficult  when by pass there.. It  is simple bridge.

The other  dream - when sleep in afternoon.

I see my students, Primary 4, bagas  and Arya. Thay play soccer. Bagoas as kicker, Arya as  keeper. Bagas accompany by his mom, Ms Lucku, JPs TEACHER. In my think  Ms Lucky have  hope, Bagas can play  nicely, kick ball with strong. bagas already take  square off (ancang-ancang) to kick the ball. He kick the ball. How about the result? The ball move very slow. I think his mom, Ms Lucky  regret and  disappointed (kecewa)  with it. But the ball can reach the  wicket (gawang) and goal because Arya as keeper not catch  or hold it. Arya just as  indifferent (masa  bodoh) with it.

What is meaning of this  dream?
In last time, exactly at 10.00 - 12:00  I accompany  JPS  students when  rehearsal (gladi bersih) of the first communion. The students of  JPS - include Arya and Bagas  come - They come together their parents.


Monday, May 23, 2016.

I have  dream.
The first dream I forget. This is become on about 02:00 -03:00  before I get up to go to toilet.

The second  dream.
I  just as on one place.  Just as   talk with  classmate  about  classmate. We are just at Lagar - Cumbi. We talk about our friend, include our classmate Mr. Agustinus Agat, classmate when Primary school. "Father founder school of Saint Klaus, Father Ernnest Waser, SVD  ask Mr. Agus  to work at Kuwu. Mr. Agus work there for moment but than  interesant to work at Kalimanta because  get issue the salary enough good there. But when he arrive there, the difference situation happen." just as it the information that availlable in my memory that become our discuss.
Than we go to one place. We go down  traverse (cross) (melintasi) a path. May be have question make me reflection to myself that I'm not home / house too. "The land price is so high," I think and give reason. When we arrive there, we find that place - my place of work / my destination is so bad, It is so traditional  and dirty. There is still have remaining the dirt  (sisa kotoran) of people in stone. This area may be no toilet so all people exit feces in free  place. We see the animal, may be dog there. Wow....what  is happening with this dream?


Tuesday, May 24, 2016.
I have dream.
I meet with my brother, Mr. Alex Maji. He recent  go back  from our  village / home town to join to covering the activity Tour de Flores. I shake hand with him. I seem shame. Why ? I'm not finish yet to finish my duty  to  make finance  report of  CUWM. Since some month I always pastpone this because busy. But when talk we are not discuss this issue.

The other  dream

I just as on one place. Just as there are other people. They are just as the Catholic church people. Just as we want to play  volly ball. I join. But I ......(pukul)  the ball. It is so weak. Wo....no power of  me. I  hear voice of some Manggarai people.

Wow....what i meaning of this  dream?

Wednesday, May 25, 2016.

I have dream but I forget it
When get up than go  to toilet I remember but  when get up in the morning I forget it. I only remember the new  dream.

 I have dream.
 The location at Cempaka Indah. I just go back from campus. I see my lecturer (dosen), Prof. Dr. MS. Than a women, my former (mantan)  friend of teacher at Kelapa Gading school. She is Ms. Y.  She just as choose Prof. Dr. MS  as preceptor(= adviser =pembimbing) for her to make essay  (skripsi) or thesis (tesis). She come to Prof Dr. MS while  walk to gate of  Cempaka Indah. She very hope Prof. Dr. MS   bless (merestui)  her work / essay / thesis  because it very important to her, may as a  requirement (persyaratan) to promotion  in her office / school. Prof. Dr. MS bless her ask. Ms. Y very happy  so as thank she touch Prof. Dr. MS. They touch ane another. I'm  see this condition. I try to ima acgination about their action in love frame.

The other dream:
Mr. Ben Ayung explain the foreign language to us (Ms Mona - Primary secretary) and to others. In our culture (Catholic) we shoulld be knowing many language, include Latine. Than he mentioned one sentence, just as mentioned: "Numero Uno".  Than  I aware.

What is meaning of this  dream?

May be this dream  show an event that happen in next time. In middle day Mr. Ivan, Mr. Ben and I discuss about JPS  Policy to me. I replace. After it they call Ms Mona. May be to talk about JPS policy to her.

Reflection: The dream  match almost same with reality. The dream have  function to tell furtones (meramal).

Thursday, May 26, 2016. - no remember the dream. I have dream or no I don't know.


Friday, May 27, 2016.

I have  dream. I just  as present on one place. The place I don't know where. May be it is  only in dream. It is place in dream world. I join in activity. Just as meeting / party. There I meet with Msgr. Vincent Sensi Potokota, Pr  the Ende of  Arch  bishop. May be the meeting of  former seminary. We are by the way. When do you out of seminary? Bishop Sensi,Pr ask. "I was outing of major seminary  on year 2001." I say. "Oh... you often greeting me in last last time," Bishop Sensi,Pr  says. "Yes, bishop. "The  new case now is  Stef Wolo Itu. He said that  still there are 3.000   peoples that love, trust to him. But... you already choose one people (women) as special for you. I hope he use time to recognize (mengakui) his mistake  after recent ordinantion of deacon / priest. May be if talk on that time, the problem is easy to handle." Bishop  Sensi,Pr  said. Than I think. "Father Stef Wolo Itu  in German / Swiss  now. Than  Bishop Sensi take a food. Than he eat. I hope he invite us before eat but in reality not. Than we busy with talk. Than I  talk with my friend. May be one of student is Father  Paskalis Nojo,OFM Cap.
What is meaning of this  dream?