STRESS

January 30, 2013.  In afternoon, I try to do many activities, just as open Manggarai song on Youtube than write it on paper than write on blog. I want to get song of  "O londo Salo" just as I see in last time. But today I fail to find  it. When I busy to search it the security come."Excuse me, sir, please help us. The CCTV  at principal room - Mr. Ben - still on. Please help how to off it," they say. I go. I try to press off on remote but fail. I try to  work  a (utak -atik)  but still fail. "The password error," the written show on screen. I'm nervous. My burn increase  because many job fail, include fail /cancel to sent money to my sister, Nelty at Surabaya, cancel translate "Bloom Toxonomy".
Than  we go back to home. Mr. Barnabas drive motor cycle. When arrive at home, I hear pray and singing on neighbor home. What is it? The neighbor that Protestant worship to God. We just know that that home is Protestan people. They are singing while play guitar.
We supper. Than watch TV.  I go to minimarket to shooping  toilet  soap tooth teeth. My tooth teeth is broken. May be because itt can not clean teeth nicely so my teeth seem yellow just as student critic.  I'm still stress. I fell tired. I'm sleeping. On 00: 30 I get up. I sleep again. Get up again on 02.00. Than sleep again. Get up again 03.30. I can not sleep nicely. The effect of stress is  can not sleep nicely. I'm stress because think fail to on the CCTV at principal room at school. If this is become big issue, I'm very shame because make difficult to Principals, teacher and school. I have not polite because entrance to principal room without permission.
Iget up on 03.30. I watch soccer, Barca vs  Madrid 1 - 1. Fabregas  make goal for Barca while  Raphael Varane make goal for  Madrid. Mr. Egy and I watch. Than I try to manage my stress. I try to meditation. I accept all. "Please use therapy " lever thrown with throwns (cungkil duri dengan duri). I try to accept myself.
I cook rice, wash plate, spoon, cook vegetable. Than we breakfast, than star to school.
In school I visit Mr. Ben's room. I tell  what happen in last evening so the CCTV error. "Oh... yes, I forget to off it. I want to join on mass," he says. "I'm sorry sir," I say. Than I ask permission to go to Saint John school today. Ms Indri, Mr. Dani and I teach Primary.  There is student women of kindergarten A1 that afraid if leave by the main teacher. Than she can enjoy with me. I help her to operate the game. Than I'm going to Saint John School, Bekasi. Mr. Johan pick up  (jemput) me.